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Broke up with my girlfriend of over 3 years a month or two ago and moved into my own apartment in the city. Money, while I can pay my bills, is a lot tighter than I anticipated, so until I pay off my debt (which will take 2-3 years), I'm going to have to live pretty lean and not be able to do very many fun things which I moved to the city to be able to do.

The same week I broke up with my girlfriend I started my classes, going back to school after 10 years. I'm only taking 2 basic entry level classes, composition and algebra, but with working and just being a human I'm having a hard time keeping up with my classes. And when my long term goal is a PhD in Engineering, if I can't keep up with 2 basic bitch classes, how am I supposed to get a PhD? And if I don't go to school and get a degree, that means i'll be poor forever and should probably just kill myself.

I'm further away from my friends now, too, so I'm not as able to see them as easily. I really want to run a science fiction tabletop RPG campaign, but half my tabletop group is terribly unenthusiastic about the idea which is very disheartening and frustrating even though I'm more stoked to run it than I have been to run any campaign in a long time.

I'm lonely, and even though my ex-gf was a psychotic borderline histrionic cunt, it's hard to be alone after being around someone all the time for years. I want to go pursue another relationship, but I know I'm in no place to do that and am not allowing myself to do that until I meet some requirements i set for myself. There's a "massage" parlor literally around the corner from my apartment, and even though I would never actually hire a prostitute, I'm at the point where I've actually given half serious consideration to it.

My therapist convinced me that a gym membership was worth the money, so I'll be going back to the gym starting this weekend so that should help. Just a lot of changes really fast, and it's hard to deal with.