>>76513123
Well I have done a lot of self experimentation on this subject. What you have is a conflict between the frontal lobe of your brain, which has all these logical ideas, and your lower brain, which does not give a fuck about all those plans.

I set out on a grand journey which I believed would end in complete dictatorship by my frontal lobe. I sought to use every available bit of psychological understanding to produce this control of the lower mind, "the lizard" as I started to refer to it as. I had some good ideas and I put them into practice. I did produce some results. I was able to quit using zyns, start sleeping and waking at normal hours, keep a clean room, etc. But other than that my life didn't really improve much. See the lizard gets more and more angry the longer it is denied. It is older and stronger than the frontal lobe and it is within the lizard that your true spirit resides.

And now I am completely going in the opposite direction. I am trying to do the minimum viable amount of thinking. I am trying to shift my focus to external matters at all times rather than maintaining the autistic inner focus. I think thats probably what you need to do as well. Stop being analytical. Embrace the retarded lizard inside of your brain. Focus on one day at a time instead of grand plans. Become free from the intellect that wants to turn you into a machine and instead follow the spirit inside of you.