>>60885372
>The best approach is to just start now doing the right thing.
I have deep rooted psychological trauma, I will always feel lesser than I am, what I am supposed to have been, what I can be, constantly falling short and being disappointed in myself, constantly not happy, even in small self improvement I look to others having a better life. I will never be at ease knowing people are better than me and I have not achieved the same thing as them. Knowing I am lesser than them. Accepting anything below the absolute best (in my own terms) is a failure. Accepting mediocrity is my fear. Settling into mediocrity. This is the sign of having given up totally.
Here lies anon, he did not make it.
This confession has meant nothing.

>>60885377
Ignorance is bliss, yes, being low iq is bliss. being shackled by these man made numbers and money is Judaic sorcery in effect.

>whats the big deal? try and have fun
every failure gives me feedback that my grandiose self delusions were fake all along, crushing my own self image of future possibilities will be too much for my psyche to handle.

>or build something new if you can do better - ez
I would if I could, right now I can't

>>60885382
>Then be suprised
I'm not

>>60885413
I can't even get A job currently, working on it. And when I get one you think I'm gonna get a second one? I will get even more EU-taxed, my life quality will go down the drain for little to no value. I won't make up for lost time.
You can only save so much. I would be maxed out regardless.
If I started in time my life would be a dream, dream shattered. I was let down by everyone, including myself.
Now I must remain in this playthrough, but the save game is corrupted.

Met a homeless man the other day, he told me, I'm poor can you help me
I told him, Hi Poor, My name Is Paul. Paul Allen. Get a job, Poor.