Coming to this thread was a mistake, what the fuck is wrong with women, let alone OP, who's a massive humiliation kink cuck who should've just blocked the roasties. This entire thing is retarded as fuck.

Giving money to my friend who already had a boyfriend
Taking a girl out on an expensive date (I spent around $200 that day) and she ended up ghosting me right after. Granted I was 18 at the time and stupid but I'm a little less stupid now.
God, no wonder I gave up on dating, women only see men as someone to take advantage of.