Damn anon now you are making me doubt about my decision.
So probably this year im going away from my parents house to another state with a friend, so i can work hard enough to get a passport and go with him (my plan is to get it in 4 or 3 months after moving), we have 5 years of long distance relationship now, lots of bad times, problems with my parents because of my relationship and i had a bad episode of depression that make us broke up for a bit,now im afraid something like that happens