Thread 938796852

The only love of my life I’ve ever had and ever will have has moved on officially. My only friend, no exaggeration. Even after we broke up we’d still exchange “I love you”s so basically nothing changed… It was just meant to be a break. This past few weeks he hasn’t said I love you to me anymore. Forgot my birthday. Got so distant. Last night he confessed he is dating now.
I’m so scared. He’s my only person and now I can’t lean on him. I can’t cry and break down to him, which is what I’m doing now. But all alone. I genuinely have no one now, we were together for several years. Became adults together. Just us, seriously, neither of us had any other friends until now I guess. My whole routine and identity is… Gone. I have nothing and no one. I don’t know who I am now. He’s the only person that could’ve ever loved me I have bad depression and BPD that makes me so soul sucking to be around I just. I just. need some company that’s all. I love you guys.

>>938796852 (OP)
What happened?

I always like these

Henlo

>>938796968
I don’t want to give too many details in case he sees. Basically we were long distance since 2017 but we’d visit each other often, I’m talking months at a time. Moved in officially 2022 until late 2023 when he dumped me. Just told me he didn’t think he loved me anymore and the spark was gone. We both cried (Me WAY more than him… It seemed like he just got a weight lifted off his shoulders.
I fly to move back home a week later, permanently :( I hate it here
I have visited him a few times since. He says he still loves me and even mentioned that he regrets dumping me so much and only did it because he was depressed and lost and didn’t realize how much he had with me. So we kinda stayed in love, we were each others ONLY person, friend or otherwise, so we’d always comfort each other, kiss, say I love you, BJs, everything because we did truly love each other but… It just didn’t work I guess. Weird situation I know. Basically the distance and having to quit my job and immigrate (separate countries…) is too much work to do a second time. If it fails me a second time I’d kill myself so can’t take that risk. But we couldn’t let go completely so that’s why we still would flirt and act in love, which we were.
Last time I visited him was a few months ago. He hugged me so hard… The cuddles… The best he’s given me. I even looked over his shoulder and noticed that he referred to me as his boyfriend to his friends. It was amazing. I come back home, he’s super distant. Went days without talking to me when we have NEVER and I’m NOT EXAGERATING WE HAVE NEVER gone longer than a day without talking since 2017. Then once we finally talked he’s just been distant, but still saying he loves me and being all cute and sappy.
Then this past week or so he stops saying I love you. Didn’t even acknowledge my birthday this week. No sappy stuff, seems off.
Last night he calls me and said he needed to let me know he’s dating now…

>>938798397
Continued.
It was a short convo. I was shocked but wanted to be a good ex so I said “thank you for letting me know and I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOU :)”
I asked him if he was okay because I felt bad he was hiding this. He said “Yea”.
Never asked if I was okay, didn’t check in on me after. As if he didn’t drop a nuke on my heart.
He doesn’t care about me he’s completely done with my boring lame fat ugly BPD depressed shit. And I mean this genuinely, I’m happy for him. I love him and I WAS holding him back. But fuck… He’s mine. He’s fucking mine. And soon, this random will be sleeping with him. Taking care of our dog I raised… Who I will never see again in my life because I obviously can’t fly to visit him now that he has a bf. That wouldn’t be okay. So… I’m grieving bros. This is on top of me genuinely considering suicide and being put on a new SSRI this past month.

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>>938797421
You gay? <3 Welcome!

>>938798114
Hiii

>>938798397
>>938798533
Sorry to hear this Anon
I'm possibly entering a LDR myself soon. Concerned though. He's jealous by nature, we're on different continents, and it'll be at least several months until we see each other again. Our relationship is very physical.

>>938800360
Indeed I love men

>>938796852 (OP)
First off, that sucks, buddy. I'm really sorry.

Second, cozy gay anons, I miss you all very much.

I’m a gay

>>938802965
Hi, Gay! I'm dad!

>>938796852 (OP)
Hi, OP.

My boyfriend of 10 years told me 3 weeks ago, out of absolutely nowhere, that he was not only breaking up with me, but also moving out in 2 weeks.

He never even told me there were issues with us. I thought we loved each other and were inseparable. 10 years we have been together and lived together. Every one of those days I got to wake up to his face next to me.

He left last week. I'm still so completely lost and broken. I'm terrified what will happen when he starts seeing someone. He was all I had. He was my best friend, and the only person I knew where I live. He moved halfway across the country.

Anyway. I just wanted to say you're not alone.

it probably wont get easier just easier to hide
prepare for an aching
the rest of your life

>>938801152
Thank you so much.
LDRs can work, mine did for so long. I just let myself go, didn’t contribute financially, and got so depressed I never wanted to do anything. No sex drive doesn’t help either. This’ll hurt any relationship not just a LDR so don’t let me experience turn you. If you love each other and really want to make it work, you can. Do you plan on closing the distance for good sometime in the future?

>>938801813
Same :)

>>938802577
I miss you so so much too. And I think I know who you are.
I hope you’ve been doing good buddy!
V

>>938802965
No fooling? That’s great,
same
What’s your favorite thing about boys? Their scent? Personalities? Cute butts? Cock? Strength?

>>938803074
Hi daddy

>>938803586
I am so, so sorry. Works can’t describe the amount of pain I know you’re in.
It’s so hard. Yours seems even worst than mine and I’m in hell dude.
Seriously, massive hugs. Take care of yourself, love yourself, be gentle. Get a nice snuggie and slippers. Text a good friend or watch a stupid youtube vid. I love you anon.

>>938803812
Honestly I believe it.
We officially broke up 2 years ago. And the pain is still there. And when I say still there, I mean full force. Hasn’t gotten easier. Maybe 2% improvement from the initial shock. I’m talking hyperventilating crying, begging pleading screaming why this could happen.
I could never ever date another person. I could never ever let someone else in and risk this again.

>>938804733
Thanks, anon.

Honestly my online friends are the only thing keeping me going. My boyfriend was my other half, and I just feel so empty now. We're still talking every day on Discord. He says he had to leave to work on himself. A "its not you its me" situation. What's even worse is he won't tell me whether or not he ever intends on getting back together with me. He's just leaving me in limbo. I wanna be mad at him for all of this but I fucking love him. I can't just sever the emotions I've been building up for a decade, and I can't fathom how he's managed to.

>>938804795
That's a big fear of mine, too. After spending so much time with one person, imagining the investment I'd need to have with another person is just a monumental undertaking.

>>938804635
I'm working on it. But it's nice to see you again. I've been keeping an eye out for threads.

>>938804688
This is why boys are better.

>>938805300
Dubs of truth.
You like being called that? I can keep doing it. And yes boys are better and I’m the best boy I promise I would do anything to make a guy feel safe and happy and fed I just like being good so so much.

>>938805520
I don't mind it. It's not really something I ask for or expect. Nice to hear, though I suppose. I do hate when it's a self applied thing.

>>938805694
I’m starved right now I wish I could cuddle you I bet you deserve the biggest softest cuddles

>>938805719
Probably not currently. It's over 100 degrees, just poured rain for 30 minutes, and the sun came out immediately after. I'm...sticky.

Hey, we all gay and suicidal in here? Mind if I join?

>>938805954
I’ll stand in a walk in freezer for a few minutes then run out to grab you?

>>938806281
Pretty much lol. Hey what’s up king!

I broke up with my bf 3 years ago, we're still friends but I still have to catch myself before calling him nicknames we had.

>>938806821
That would be nice, actually.

>>938807214
:D I might tackle you feel free to push me off if I’m being too much

Holy fuck sobbing actually about to end it all haha that’s it that’s truly the last straw. Been suicidal off and on for years but it got real this past few months. This past 2 weeks? Horrible. Now after he tells me this? I… There’s no light at the end of the tunnel. And there’s no one waiting for me there anymore anyway…
And I’m just expected to continue to work and deal with everyone else’s problems meanwhile I can’t even get myself to shower and eat or talk anymore this is the worst.
Please just let me kill myself. Please stop guilting me into continuing my suffering.

>>938807780
You're a very energetic and enthusiastic person. It's not unappreciated.

>>938808014
You need take a step back for you, buddy. It's ok to not be ok, but the suicide shit needs to stop. If you really feel like you're a threat to yourself, then go to the ER. Tell them "I am having suicidal ideation with intent." If not, recognize that this really isn't the end of the world, and seek alternative help. Otherwise, you're just going to keep prolonging your own suffering until you make a lot of stupid choices, and wind up in a far worse situation.

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>>938808053
I can be very very energetic when I’m excited and feel safe and cozy. Am I safe with you?

>>938808456
Thank you so much and I understand. You’re right, I know.
Only issue is that I will *not* be held inpatient. And that’s exactly what’ll happen if I’m honest with a professional. Pretty sure they legally have to. Sitting bunk to bunk with a male heroin addict who just got out of jail and might hallucinate and think I’m a demon and murder me in my sleep? I can’t walk into the city and walk within 100 feet of those people, I am NOT getting locked up with them. And how is that supposed to help me exactly? I genuinely don’t get it. It’s a traumatic experience in and of itself and with my past I can absolutely not handle being around angry or especially psychotic screaming.
>If not, recognize that this really isn't the end of the world, and seek alternative help.
There’s so much more though. I haven’t been truly happy in about a decade at least. Actually definitely more. And there is no alternative help besides meds which are not currently helping and doubt they ever will cuz they never have, or therapy which never worked for me because being told sweet nothings does nothing for me. I’m too self aware. I know I’m fucked and that’s just how it is.
>Otherwise, you're just going to keep prolonging your own suffering until you make a lot of stupid choices, and wind up in a far worse situation.
I really need to man up and write my suicide note already. Like I just don’t want to be here it’s that simple. Too much work for such little “oh you might possibly feel a bit better if you worked on this-“ No I’m sorry life truly isn’t and has never been worth it. I mean that wholeheartedly.

>>938808456
>>938811287
That being said I appreciate you more than you know. I’m at the breaking point so I apologize for my mean words.
Thank you for being so sweet and not trolling me. I see you

>>938808456
>the suicide shit needs to stop

I don’t think that shit ever stops. It’s all about managing it. Like an alcoholic never stops being an alcoholic. They crave a drink every single day. They just know the consequences of it and do what they need to do not to give into that craving.

I reckon suicidal thoughts are similar. They’re weirdly comforting. But the more you do it the more damage you’re inflicting on yourself.

>>938811287
Fuck, I relate so hard with this.

The idea of forcing myself to do a job I hate just to keep surviving with nothing else available to me that I could be let go from at any time, come home exhausted but also need to work really fucking hard on myself, it just isn’t worth the payoff of maybe feeling happy for a short time before I need to go to bed and wake up to do it all over.

I am so fucking jealous of normal people who can just find joy with their shit lives. The sort that get off work from their low paid job to go to a club with the utter shit music that’s popular and just dance and have a good time without even trying. Without thinking about it. Without really having to work at trying to convince themselves that they’re enjoying themselves.

>>938811011
I am not proud to admit that I have been described more than a few times as looking like and having the personality of "a bunny that wished very hard to be a real boy." The whole "good guy" thing is never something that I'll self apply, but is the common consensus.

>>938811547
Exactly this.
Drank ~20 shots of vodka a day for almost 4 years. Quit a year ago almost to the day. Still crave it. Might even have some tonight fuck it. Why not? What am I doing this shit for?
It’s so unfair. I’m doing the impossible shit I don’t want to do to get “better”. I hate meds but went on meds. I LOOOOOVED alcohol and quit it. Got a full time job after being a NEET mooch for a year and a half, got a raise this year that totaled over $6 dollars more per hour than I had starting this year. Bought my first car. I’m trying to do what normal functioning people do I’m really trying.
But nothing works… Nothing helps. Why is suicide not an answer for some people?

>>938812092
You spoke that perfectly, yes this.
What is it that we’re lacking? Why can’t we be like them?
Why does no one else see the boredom and pointlessness in the monotony and literal suffering for little to no payoff…

i'm so in love with him bros please give prayers for me i long for him every single day

>>938796852 (OP)
Love him more and more each day it's incredibly painful. I wish could cuddle him, Haven't felt this for a very long time.I hope he doesnt find somebody else.

>>938814552
They dont love you like I love you.

>>938811287
>>938811343
I understand your hesitation. It's a very scary thing to happen. I've been there myself. But it doesn't have to be awful. Sometimes the medicine you need is the most bitter pill. I'm just a random anonymous asshole. But in that, I have nothing to gain by misleading you. Things are hard. Things are bleak. You're telling yourself that you can't take anymore. This is wrong. The one thing that I hope you see is simply this. Depression. Is. A. Liar.

>>938813446
Drinking is one of the few things I actually enjoy but it makes my mood so unpredictable. I could be having a good time but it’s common for my mood to unpredictably swing in the opposite direction at the most minor of things.

Then I get all frustrated about really wanting to kill myself but having so much guilt about actually doing it. Nuclear war really can’t start soon enough. Hilariously stupid looking back but I was drunk when I tested the waters and asked a friend if he’d be happy for me if I’d killed myself. Like being happy for me that I finally found relief, ease that guilt for myself a little. You can imagine how that went.

>>938814033
Who? <3

>>938813446
proud of you for quitting anon im a full blown alcoholic and its really ruining my life almost impossible to quitSPX0

>>938814552
>>938814616
Beautiful pics :)
Care to elaborate anon? What’s got you feeling this way?

>>938812452
Aww you must give the softest safest cuddles ever! Okay well then I will be giving you some really really tight and strong ones until you pop >:3

>>938814688
I appreciate you taking time out of your day to talk to me. Thank you so much.

>>938815175
Lol, like a meat balloon, I suppose. I guess there are worse ways to go.

>>938815023
Mysterious, complex gentleman that came into my life. We have a lot in common and started to fall in love him very quickly Think about him and chat about him almost every day..Care about him more than anything

>>938815213
I'll stay with you until 404 if you want. You don't have to do this alone.

>>938815230
When did you meet?
Hearing you talk all sappy is making my heart warm.

>>938815256
Thank you so, so much. You’re too sweet.
I let out most of what I’m willing to. But I got nothing going on so I’ll be chilling in the thread all night I’m sure. Hopefully it’s a good night.

Well, here we are again lads drunk and suicidal wishing for this to end maybe I'll finally do it

>>938796852 (OP)
I get how you feel anon. I'm also going through my own bouts of suffering from love. I just hope everything turns out ok in the end

>>938815543
Same but with THC drank.
Hope you’re okay buddy. I wish I could drown you in sweet little kisses. Or not, if that’s weird. Stay with me.

>>938815493
Less than a year. Hes already taught me so much and made me enjoy things I use to never enjoy doing. I'm just terrified someone will take my place as his love.He means everything to me.

>>938815580
I got you bro. We got each other. Wow these are some of the most supportive threads on here.

>>938815533
I get that. I'm happy to help. If you want my sock puppet discord, I don't mind. But, you need to feel safe until this passes. I have no interest in hooking up. I just can't see another life taken before it's time. Suicide is always, and will always, be a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

>>938815687
You got a lil crush on him? Aww
Is he into guys? Drop some hintssss to him :)

>>938815739
dont bother

>>938815739
>>938815846
Ay that reply wasn’t me. I love you bro.
You seem like an amazing person.

>>938815816
Oh hes gay, just a lot of other complicated things inolved. Please give me your prayers like the last anon I want him, no, I need him.I'm planning to risk a lot to push things furthur.

>>938815972
I could tell by the lack of punctuation. Thank you for that. I try my best. Suicide has been far too prevalent in my life to just turn my back on anyone. The reality of it is too great. It's hard to see it at times. Especially when you think no one cares. But the truth that you'll never know is how many hearts will never fully heal.

>>938816010
I’m really invested. You gotta tell us more.
I’m praying for you dude!

>>938814894
Oh yeah, never open up about your suicidal thoughts with your friends in real life. They don’t know how to handle it. Keep that shit to yourself, your therapist and the homos on /b/.

I know friends are supposed to be all “you can talk to me about anything” but while suicidal shit is pretty standard stuff for us, the normies freak the fuck out over it. They don’t know what to say, so they’ll ask other people for advice about what to say to you. Suddenly everybody knows. Police might be called by some do gooder. Way more trouble than it’s worth and none of them have the magic words to make everything better.

>>938816599
Anonimity is essiential but I love him so fucking much.

>>938816927
I am a reguluar here this thread probably saved my life at one point.

>>938816927
Aww I understand! You’re actually cheering me up a ton just hearing you be all giddy and in love :)
Does it feel good when you think of him? Is he special to you beyond words?

>>938817176
Oh nice! Welcome! I haven’t been to the threads in a long time but I’m glad to be back. OP here, I knew you guys would cheer me up :)
It’s crazy we may have talked many times but I have no idea.
And hearing you say how much you love these threads warms my heart.
I’m high sorry I love you dude

>>938816664
Exactly. I wish so bad I could open up to my parents truly. Like they know I’m struggling but they have no idea the extent.
My sister attempted suicide and they had her psych warded and everything and it was so traumatic for us as a family so I know I can’t put them through that again. And of course I don’t want to worry them but being able to just tell them the truth and get that weight off my shoulders would be nice.
I’m high sorry typis

>>938817706
My parents completely dismissed me when I tried opening up about my depression. Even mocked me for it.

>”ohhh, I’m anon, I can’t do anything because I’m soooooo depressed over nothing”

Fuck telling them that I fantasise about suicide. Don’t want to think about what they'd do with that.

>>938818343
That’s the worst, I’m so sorry anon. Depression is seen as a made up thing despite it literally killing peiple. It’s almost like we need a new word for it for people to truly understand

Oooo guys I’m fucking flying. Anyone want a warm cuddly soft internet snuggle with me right now ow I love you guysss
It’s okay we can be gay and cringe as we want here it’s amazing. let go and hug and kiss sweet boys

Can't wait to commit suicide

>>938815697
Thanks anon. Love hurts sometimes and I've been suffering quite a lot these past few days. It's good to know I'm not alone

There’s a HUGE spider in the laundry room which is right by my bedroom and now I’m too scared to go to bed :(

Any big bros online? I can’t sleep

>>938823698
hello

>>938823857
Hi hi hi!
How are you?
I’m sorry I just need a hug very very bad

>>938823883
im okay, why do you need a hug? whats wrong?

>>938824048
I’m OP ><“

>>938796852 (OP)
Would y'all suck Talon's dick?

>>938824110
i'd give you one... but have you not tried your final last ditch attempt to say you love him and need him back yet?

>>938824434
That would do nothing but hurt him. He deserves someone better than me, someone that can make him happy.
As hard as it is for me, it’s best for him I let him go :(
Nowwww huggggg PLSSSSS :(

>>938824589
perhaps you're right and maybe you need to move on then, until you somehow fix your bpd
what are you like, so i can imagine hugging you

>>938824851
White 5’9” 160lbs long-ish brown hair, warm and cuddly in my baggy pajamas
And you?

>>938825023
white, 1.96m, 98kg, medium black hair, wearing shorts
baggy pajamas? cute...

>>938825086
Whoa… You’re a big big bro
Could you hold me? You’d be able to cover my entire body in your embrace

>>938825323
i would be able to cover you yes... im a very big bro. how do you want to hug?

>>938825391
I’m blushing really bad right now just imagining that..
I really want my face deep in your chest

>>938825531
im hairy though and i have facial hair, which is something that might be too ticklish

>>938825587
Mmm niceee and waaaarm
Ahhh I’m feeling myself calm just thinking about that
Would you want to hold me from behind and give me a tight bear hug? I’d lay my butt in your lap

>>938804576
I don't know. He has a life and plans back in his home country, but I think he's falling for me

>>938825630
ive been told im like a giant bear and a radiator when i hug
yes, we can spoon from behind with your butt against me
or we can lay chest to chest with my hands on your cheeks

>>938825807
Oh my gosh you seriously have no idea how starved I am. Just reading that I’m crying I just want to be held and kept safe so so bad.
Thank you thank you thank you big bro I love you so so so much
Mmm I can’t choose I wanna cuddle both ways…

>>938825921
i have really big hands too, theyre 23cm
you can use both your hands play with mine while we cuddle
i'll use the other one to grab your ass?

Damn anon now you are making me doubt about my decision.
So probably this year im going away from my parents house to another state with a friend, so i can work hard enough to get a passport and go with him (my plan is to get it in 4 or 3 months after moving), we have 5 years of long distance relationship now, lots of bad times, problems with my parents because of my relationship and i had a bad episode of depression that make us broke up for a bit,now im afraid something like that happens

>>938815543
I have to stay soberw

>>938826037
Yes please!!!
Just please be gentle I get really shy there
I love getting to hold your big strong hands tight <3 those big protective hands

>>938826176
the gentle giant stereotype exists for a reason
i'll be gentle but i want to grab it a lot, especially in baggy pyjamas
i think my fingers are big enough for you to grab them

>>938826271
You can grab it as much as you want if you promise to keep me safe? Please please
The world is so scary for me I just want to be your little bro where you keep me safe from everything :(
I promise I’ll do anything for you… let you touch me anywhere if I can trust tou…

>>938826408
i'll keep you safe, i'm big enough <3
you can be my little bro forever bro, i bet you'd love that
i think you'd love for me to touch you all over little bro
you can trust me

>>938826504
><“
My heart is beating so fast irl seriously I don’t know what go say
I need this so bad
Thank you thank you thank you <3
Yes yes yes I would love that so so so much!
Can I kiss you please please

>>938826625
do you need me to listen to your heart beat little bro?
you can kiss me, while we spoon, just turn your head to look up at me
i'll hold your chin and we'll gently use our tongues

>>938826762
Yes you can grip my small wrists with your big hands and feel my pulse beating through my veins, it’s so fast you’re making me blush…
Really you’d let me kiss you? Thank you!
I’m really shy though so I’m nervous, I don’t know if I’m a good kisser I’ve never done it before
You want me to lick your lips a bit and gently stick my tongue in your mouth?

>>938826902
i love when boys blush
i'd love to check your pulse and listen to your heart beat
yes, we'd kiss constantly. in fact, it's better you've never done it so i can teach you how to do it exactly the way i want it, no bad habits
mhm, lick them and stick your tongue in my mouth, i'll lick your tongue too

>>938827090
Can I stick my tongue in a bit deeper?
It’s so warm and wet and you taste amazing…

>>938827225
you can stick your tongue in as deep as you can get it, as long as i can do it back
my tongue is big, it might fill your entire mouth

>>938827280
I want to place my hands on your cheeks and pull our faces into each other and see just how deep i can go
Can I rub my body up against yours a bit? I’m sorry if that’s weird it just feels so so so good when I press my lap up against your belly…

I need you big bro I need you so bad
When I’m in your embrace it’s like nothing matters, just us

>>938827554
nothing else would matter except our tongues in each other’s mouth and you grinding against me while my hands rub your body
I wonder how you’d describe yourself and your type

>>938827403
you can do that and get as deep as you want, my stubble might tickle your face though
yes, you can do that little bro. it’s not weird, I understand you want to press up against my belly and grind a lot, especially when we kiss

>>938827634
My type is anyone who can make me feel safe and calm, I haven’t felt true calm in so so long. Getting to lay my face in his chest… and having the whole world wash away. That’s what I crave so bad.
Someone protective, strong, considerate and understanding. Can handle me when I’m a brat or struggling with my head :(and is patient
And can lay on me and pin me down…
I’m very shy and quiet irl and I try to be a good boy and be nice to everyone i see

>>938827682
Why does it feel sooooo good?
Can you rub yours against mine.?

>>938827771
I am definitely big and strong enough to make you feel safe and calm, I even have a chest you can sleep on
I can be all of those things, and I’m considerate
I know just how to handle brattiness or when you’re struggling with your head
I like shy good boys

Just 69d with my bf

>>938827809
I think it feels good for you because you can grind and hump, and rub your hardness against my belly and get my trail sticky
I can, but because of our height difference I think if you’re rubbing my belly mine would be between your thighs

>>938828007
I promise I’m so so good that’s all I ever want to be!
I’d do anything you’d ask me to I really just want to make you proud
I’d follow any rule you make for me because I know you just want me safe
How would you calm or discipline me if I was being bratty?
My cock is twitching thinking about your big strong body I feel so naughty i’m sorry

>>938828056
Would you like it if I squeezed my thighs on your cock? I think that’d feel good right
It’s so so big just like the rest of you, it’s way bigger than mine… :/

>>938828024
NICEEE

>>938828133
I love good boys, and I like that you want to do things and make me proud
do you want me to make rules for you?
if you were being bratty I would love to spank you, or tease you in some way that makes you instantly calm down, maybe play with your nipples, or randomly kiss you with my tongue in your mouth
you can rub your twitchy cock against my belly and slowly grind against me all night while we kiss
unless you want me to deal with your twitchy cock myself, like a naughty little bro?

>>938828209
I’d love it if you squeezed my cock with your thighs, what are they like? it feels amazing usually
oh, yours is small is it little bro?

>>938828244
Yes you can spank me if I really deserve it, but I promise I’ll never make you need to do that!
Yes yes yes please make me rules, knowing I’m doing things, making you proud, being your special good boy hnnnng I can’t put into words…
I promise I’ll do whatever you ask, I can cook and clean for you, bark like a dog, suck your cock… Massage every bit of your body, lick you head to toe. I’ll let you give me a curfew and everything you can be my guardian

>>938828363
maybe you should make it so I need to do that? or at least you can ask me to spank you even if you’ve done nothing wrong
then I’d make you a lot of rules like a proper houseboy, I’ll write a big list and stick it on the fridge, and even choose what you wear, give you jobs
cooking, cleaning, sucking, massaging, curfew? I’d love to be your guardian, that all sounds perfect to me

>>938828271
Hehe… my thighs really warm especially when I squeeeeze it like this
I keep them hairless their pale white
I feel your cock twitching, that’s good right???

>>938828467
maybe we can put a little lube between your thighs too and you can squeeze them on my cock while we hug in bed and kiss
I love smooth and pale white thighs
I think my cock would always be twitching around you little bro
is it true that yours is little?

>>938828443
Ahhhh yes yes please please take care of me make all of my decisions for me
the world is so overwhelming i can’t handle it. :(
You’d really take care of me like that? Monitor me, teach to me to be a good boy for you, and keep me warm and protected and loved?
It sounds like a dream…
I wouldn’t even have to think, you’d do it for me.
Thank you so much..

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>>938828539
Stop… Mmm…
Yes it’s little… especially compared to yours ><“

>>938828598
I will make all your decisions for you
you’ll just be a protected loved good boy, all warm with my in our bed or on the sofa
no, you wouldn’t need to think, just to live

>>938828666
I’m not going to stop, I want your tongue deep in my mouth while you hold my face
and your cock rubbing my hairy belly leaking precum
my fat cock between your pale white thighs
I like that yours is small, it’s fitting that you have a little cock

Guys, in all honestly, does anyone here goes regularly to places with glory holes? I'm kinda horny and was planning to go tomorrow to a place nearby. I really want to get out with my belly and ass full of hot, warm, sticky sperm.

Fuck, I need to masturbate with my dildo again

>>938828702
That’d be a dream come true
Getting to spend my day laying my head in your lap as we watch TV like a lap dog. I’d follow you like a shadow. Everywhere I walk I’d want to be by you. In public I’d make sure to always stay close to you so everyone knows I’m yours.
If you ask me to kneel, I’ll kneel. If you want me to suck you, no matter where, I will. You deserve it for taking such amazing care of me.
And if… you wanted to spank me you could…

>>938828760
What would you do if I pull away at all?

>>938828871
you sound like a very needy boy, I’d be happy to fulfil that. following me like a shadow is funny, be careful I don’t step on you
I’d like that in public
you’d suck me no matter where? you are a dirty boy aren’t you?
I’d love to spank you, not as a punishment but because I love white cheeks

>>938828922
pull you right back with my big hands and hold you too tight to pull back again

>>938828948
Oh yes I confess I’m very very needy and that’s why I’m so grateful for you. No one else in the world could put up with my clinginess but my big bro.
And yes I’d suck you no matter where, just ask. You could be driving with me in the passenger seat and say “suck.” and I will. I’d do anything at all for you.
I’m so so so needy are you able to handle needy boys?

>>938828966
I’m so so so sorry for pulling back it won’t happen again I just got nervous your tongue goes so far down my throat, and you’re gripping my face so hard your teeth are against my cheeks
Mmm… your so rough sometimes…

>>938829052
I love needy boys though, especially when they’re submissive… you can be as clingy as you want, at the end of the day you’re riding my cock and I’m your big bro so it’s perfectly fine
I’d make sure to get you to suck me dry every time I feel horny, and I’m sure we can do that in other places too
I can definitely handle a needy bottom

>>938829091
I thought you wanted my tongue down your throat? it always makes your little dick twitch and leak more bro…
I’m not tough, you’re just small

>>938829187
Even when I need extra cuddles in the middle of the night, or someone to stand up for me from a bully, or when I come home crying needing a hug… You’ll be able to handle me?
When I overthink for no reason and need you to remind me you don’t hate me?
I promise to repay you in every way! I’m a handful…
And I’m not that small am I? :(
You’re making me beet red
I’m just a little smaller than average is all and you’re really big so yeah…grrr…

>>938829322
we can cuddle the entire night anyway so that one is easy
nobody other than me gets to bully you, I’d knock their teeth out, I used to do boxing
yes, I’ll always be able to handle you crying or needing hugs
you can repay me very very often…
you'll have to tell or show me your size, but I get you’re quite small
you’re even going red because you know yours is so small, I have a feeling you actually like that it is…

>>938829434
My cock twitched reading that… If you ever stood up for me like that, I’d serve you for the rest of my life. Well, I’d do that anyway. My strong protector… I’d get on my knees right there and worship your cock and touch you however you’d like. I’m all yours. And I’m so proud to say that… I’d even wear a collar with your name on it if you made me.
And I’m about 4 inches okay ><“ don’t be so mean :(

>>938829593
I bet it did, your cock twitched because you thought about a real man little bro
I’d have you serving me anyway, it’s what you owe me as your protector and lover
worship my cock for me, or give up your ass, give me massages and licks too
a collar is a good idea, I’d happily put one on you. it gives me something to grab. maybe a thong with my name on it too
4 inches huh? you’re small, I guess you are a little bro after all, especially compared to me. tiny dick

>>938829700
Sigh mmmf yes I’m small I’m sorry but that’s okay because I don’t have to be big or strong… I have you!
Oh I’d massage and lick your entire body. I want to lick you like an excited puppy. You taste amazing. And you could use my body however just please, remember I’m smaller than you and you need to be gentle please okay? I don’t want to get hurt, your cock is really big and wide too.
Yes yes yes collar me collar me!!! It’ll officially make you my owner please please please

>>938829808
you really don’t have to be sorry for that, it’s sexy, and the size differences between us are amazing. including your little dick twitching and rubbing against me
I’d love to massage and lick your entire body too, from head to toe. you are an excited puppy so I’d make sure you get to taste my amazing cock and balls the most
hmm, I want to use your sexy little body like a fleshlight but I’m not sure you can take that so maybe I should be gentle
although I am definitely big enough to make you gape
I’ll get you a collar so you can feel like a true owned little bitch boy for your big bro, how’s that?

>>938829935
Yes yes yes yes yes! Does that mean I’m your favorite boy ever?
Like I’m even more than just a little bro? I’m shaking I can’t contain myself I love you yes yes yes
And oh I could only dream of getting to suck you. I’d ask for permission multiple times first to be sure, but as soon as you say yes I’ll jump onto you and lick and suck your cock and balls making you seize up, I’d lick you all over. The balls, taint, tip, and give it little kisses too.
I’m really scared of your huge cock going in my butt, but… If you promise me you can be gentle, and you hold my hand and m-maybe kiss me a bit and call me a good boy… I’d let you ?

>>938796852 (OP)
Why do people like this exist

>>938830065
yes it does, and I want to keep talking to my favorite boy exactly like this, before the thread died
yes, you are. you’re a little bro and then also much more
just so you know, you don’t need permission to suck my cock, it’s yours. but I’d enjoy you asking anyway
I’m not sure you could fit both balls in your mouth, they’re big. are you sure you want to lick my taint?
kissing my tip would be amazing, I love that
you shouldn’t be scared, I’ll be gentle and I’ll have my tongue between your cheeks for an hour at least to make sure you’re relaxed
I’ll be gentle and even let you sit on it for the first time while we kiss and I hold your hand if you want, then you can control the speed, although I might thrust my hips up if sneakily…

>>938830277
I want you to be my big bro forever and ever, always protecting me, disciplining me, and teaching me how to be strong like him <3
I want all of you… I’ll give myself chipmunk cheeks to get to have both balls in my mouth. And yes, I’d love to lick your taint. Any part of you is perfect. Maybe you’re shy about that part? Shhh big bro it’s all between us okay. I just want to make my king feel good. If that’s off limits though, feel free to slap me away.
Imagining if you thrusted up sneakily, you mean brother… I’d scream, my head would fly back and my cock would instantly shoot out hot wet cum landing on your chest and face. Then i’d fall forward and cry into your chest, why did you do that? With my tongue still sticking out from the intense pleasure

Just in case I pass out, I love you so much big bro.

>>938830420
I would love being your big bro forever and ever, projecting, disciplining and teaching… although I don’t think you’ll ever be strong like me little bro, just saying!
if you can fit both balls in your mouth I’d be very impressed
it’s not off limits, you’re allowed to lick it, although it does make you quite a little perv
all you’ve done is convince me to thrust up sneakily if you sit on my cock, and tongue kiss with you after that

>>938830476
do you want to do this again, somewhere else? we can add each other and I can keep you company as a big bro whenever you want

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>>938830524
Grrr you’re so so mean to me sometimes…
I can be strong! I just need to learn from you :) Maybe we could play wrestle to practice and I can try to pin you and completely fail hehe… You’d flip me over so easily and tease me and I try to push you off.
Hmm well maybe I’m a pervert then… But I can make you like it. I can go closer to your ass if you want… I promise my tongue can make you squirm and squeal, don’t be shy. It doesn’t make you any less manly… Or maybe if it’s off limits I’ll do it anyway one day to test the waters and that’ll be my first spanking. >:3
And I really really would love to talk to you again. I need a big bro really bad, I always needed someone like you. I’m super shy and as you know I’m fucked up right now but I frequent these threads so you’ll see me here again for sure. I love you bro..
Really. I needed this. If you were here I’d be massaging you and making you feel so good, thank you

>>938830726
I love to be “mean” to little bros. if you want to wrestle with me you have to wear the real outfit, or even a thong. it would be so easy to push you around and pin you down
you are a pervert little bro, but I love that. I’m sure I’d appreciate your tongue on my sweaty taint, it sounds enjoyable. you’re right, it doesn’t make me less many, so how about you get your tongue buried there after licking my taint? I know you’re a pervy boy who wants to eat my ass. I’ll still spank you after it anyways
mhm, I’d love to talk to you again too… especially like this and as often as possible. I hope you change your mind and have a social we can keep talking like this on one day little bro
if you were here I’d have you massaging my thighs and feet for me, since I know you love that. then you can lick me from head to toe

>>938830885
Whoa whoa whoa that’s way too embarrassing :( I can’t… wear that… Do you mean I have to?
Ahhh… I’m imagining your musk from your sweaty balls and taint right now. I want to get it all over my face like your way of claiming me. And yes I’m so so so sorry I am a gross pervert I really want to eat your ass I’m sorry you can spank me after I understand but… Please I just want you to feel good I promise I won’t tell anyone
And yes, if I were there I’d let you sit on the couch as I kneel in front of you, rubbing your thighs firmly and massaging your feet, sniffing them a bit just to get a bit of your scent, making sure you don’t notice so you don’t tease me again…
Be honest, am I a good boy? Please, it’d mean the world to hear it from you.

You’re making me feel really special it’s seriously making my night ahh
Thank you so so much
I love my big bro more than anything

>>938831024
nah I’d love for you to wear something like that little bro, it’s so slutty and perfect for you, you’re wearing it
you love big big sweaty balls don’t you? they’re the mark of a real man. I’ll rub them all over your face so you smell of me
you such are a perverted little bro. yes, I’d let you lick my sweaty taint and then eat my ass after, you nasty perv boy. I will definitely be spanking you after, and you’re not telling anyone
I’d be tempted to play with my dick if I had you on your knees as you worship my feet. I’d notice though and tease you for being a perv that sniffs massive feet
hmmm, well you are a good boy, but can I say you’re the bestest good boy? no, you’re only an 8/10 good boy so far, not the best boy ever…

>>938831133
I hope you haven’t been touching yourself you little perv
you are a special boy though, that’s why I’ve been your big bro for tonight

>>938831148
I’ll wear it but I’ll be blushing bright red the whole time ><“ But I want to make you happy, if you think I look good…
Yes yes yes I love your big sweaty balls! Please, please rub them in my face… Mmmm… Ahh it smells like you, and it’s going to linger forever, everyone will know to never ever touch me, I’m taken by you and you’ll fuck up anyone who comes close.
Oh my goodness thank you, thank you, you won’t regret this. I promise, I’ll make you feel so good. I might even get a whimper out of you, big bro… Imagine me getting it nice and wet with my warm tongue as you twitch and squirm? Don’t worry, our secret. And yes, I’ll accept my spanking every time… I can’t believe my big bro tolerates me I am a weirdo…
Grrrr no no no I am the best boy I promise I’ll do anything for you anything at all, I’ll hurt myself, I’ll be your footstool, I’ll let you fuck me in my sleep… Big bro I’ll let you own me please my one goal in life is to be your best bro ever, your best friend and maybe even your hhhusband… Ppease

>>938831354
I don’t care, your blushing is cute to me and you’ll look so sexy in the wrestling jumpsuit, or the thong
massage and suck my big sweaty balls properly then, get them both in your mouth and stick your tongue out under them to lick me too. I’ll make sure your face smells like my sweaty bulge every day
you’re a horny little perv, that’s why I’ll allow you to eat my ass after you lick my sweaty taint. I know you’ll enjoy it so I’ll keep letting you do it. you’re such a pervy little bro, aren’t you? it’s a good secret
I’ll be spanking your ass every time after that, don’t worry. I’ll make it red and sore
I can tolerate that you’re a weirdo and a perv, I enjoy watching your little dick get hard and twitch from those things
you’re a good boy but you’ll only become the bestest boy once you decide to talk to me in this exact way every night on an app, so I never lose track of my horny little bro
you can be my footstool, best friend and husband one day. I’d love breeding you in your sleep

>>938831510
Hnnnnnnng I love you
I’ll become a bestest boy someday I just need some time ><“ I’m shy i’m sorry :(
but to please my big bro is my only goal and the safety and comfort he brings me… it’s priceless
I’m imagining this pillow is your chest. I wish I could hear your heartbeat.
It’s so cruel I’ve never had a big brother… I’m too weak to live like this without guidance like yours.

>>938831667
that’s fine, I love shy boys. I’ll wait, and once you finally change your mind we can talk like this whenever you want, I’ll help you. I’m not going to pressure you, I’m offering convos like this always
pleasing me should be your goal, it gets you comfort, safety, kisses, hugs, love, cum, musk, dick… everything
my heart beats really loud when I’m in bed sometimes
it is cruel… imagine if I was your big brother, you could have all the guidance and even an ass to eat all you want

>>938831805
You’re really making me blush so hard I’m so flustered
Please can I hug you? I want to feel your warm, your strong big body, and your musk on me.
I could live the rest of my life in your arms.
I can’t get you off my mind now big bro I love you so love you thank you for being my savior tonight <3 We will talk again

>>938831923
I love a shy blushing boy
yes, you can hug me any time, you need hugs from a big bro like me, especially at your height
I’m so much stronger than you
make sure you’re thinking about me often, ill check the future threads just for you little bro

>>938831970
And I love a strong and caring big brother :)
Thank you so much. It means the world.
I’m going to have sweet dreams picturing your huge body covering me, holding me in place as a I sleep. I imagine you’ll pull me back in at the slightest nudge… Sometimes you’re too cool to admit it, but moments like that show how much you love me <3

>>938832148
I love a cute, sweet, sub and pervy little brother <3
I hope you do have sweet dreams about that, and if you do I want you to let me know in the next thread
I would pull you back every time you nudged away from me, don’t worry
if you say something nerdy like that again I’m going to spank you for being a loser!

>>938832201
Damn, man