>>938808014
You need take a step back for you, buddy. It's ok to not be ok, but the suicide shit needs to stop. If you really feel like you're a threat to yourself, then go to the ER. Tell them "I am having suicidal ideation with intent." If not, recognize that this really isn't the end of the world, and seek alternative help. Otherwise, you're just going to keep prolonging your own suffering until you make a lot of stupid choices, and wind up in a far worse situation.