>>535604895
I suffer from the same thing.
I find no enjoyment in anything. The only thing that "gets me through the day" is getting drunk, and I've spent 700$ this month on booze. I drink at least a 12 pack a day, or harder stuff which usually takes me two days to get through a whole bottle.

For one year I did everything I was supposed to.
I drank only water.
I was sober.
I limited my screen time.
I dieted.
I regulated my sleep schedule.
I went to the gym every day alternating waist-up and waist-down for proper recovery times.
I went to doctors, I got myself healthy. I did everything I was supposed to.
I even signed up for a creative writing class and the danger hairs couldn't fathom that I wrote a funny story about a guy in hell.
>still finished my degree in comp science though just in time for AI to obliterate it

I did this for a fucking year. And you know what happened? Everyone else BUT ME was happy for me. I was still me. Only the physical fucking shell that I pilot around was better.

I'm only playing League because the alternative is to do a completionist F2P WoW project where you make a level 1 character on an account, do not sub to the game, and do all the content available at level 20 (the max level). I'm probably never going to do this.

So I come home from work, drink, sleep, repeat.
I don't want pity. I want to shut my fucking brain off and just be an NPC.