>>33611059
ok so...
I am f 6'1. 175lbs. I would prefer the guy who I date to be taller/bigger than I am. But I also know I am cursed with size bigger than most guys will ever be.
I would develop the ability to piss honey if I could have a guy who is proportionally normal and 7feet+, but that is unlikely.
My ex husband of 10 years was 6'4 and 270lbs (rip)
I could date shorter guys, but goddamn I always end up making eye contact with the taller guys and have that "what if" go trough my mind.
I know its superficial. But I confess it here, we're supposed to be somewhat honest here when we answer questions, right?

F
I know this sounds bad already.
Broke up with a guy some years ago. because our life goals couldnt align. he wanted kids, I cant have them.

He has a youtube channel. some 30 subscribers, I am one of them.
>Now he released some video of him doing his favourite things
>fishing, cooking his catch, trekking, drinking beer, building campfires, giving doggo treats etc
>its framed in awesome backround shots for b roll
>like a lonely man and his loving dog on a lonely adventure
And I just got a sickening feeling that its about me.
It cant be right? Its been years.
What makes me think this? Its because some of those are all places I know of and have wanted to visit myself, and by his and the dogs looks, some of these clips are from when we were together.
Am I overthinking? Is it just an artsy video, or a 5th dimensional message to me?