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but it will never happen. ill never be able to love him or express the feelings i have for him. if he knew he would be disgusted or creeped out and likely would want to go no contact. i dont blame him either. im pathetic and disgusting for feeling this way.

but nothing i feel matters because what matters is his liberty may be deprived and he’ll be alone in jail and his mental health will get worse and he won’t have anyone with him. he’ll be alone again.
just like how he was alone in the hospital. just like how he was alone before.
i don’t want him to be alone.

im so scared, i dont know what to do. I cant stop crying