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>Okay so how do I make myself?
There’s your problem.

Here’s one of many secrets you’ll learn:
Each tiny improvement is power. And when that power starts to accumulate, you’ll start to pull away from your friends and current situation. I didn’t care if my mom only made cube steak and buttered noodles - I had memorized the circle of fifths and heard Moondog for the first time. Each little advancement was my secret stack of power.

Now, as far as energy, I’d recommend getting off the pharmajew ASAP. Try Lugol’s solution (it’s potassium iodide, and you’re probably lacking these in your diet). Walk as much as possible.

There’s also visualization:
I couldn’t always practice in school, so I’d try to imagine the fretboard or a new tuning, or how the harmonics laid out in scalar sequences. My mind is still like this, and I trained myself to get a bit of power in every act. For example, whenever I walk on a tiled surface, my heel is the beat and the cracks in the tiles are subdivisions (I taught myself polyrhythms/metric modulation like this).

Your passion must consume you. He’ll, I was doomscrolling after working on a project for 10 straight hours today and saw a short. The next thing I know, I was on Anna’s archive and downloading Bartok’s children pieces. IT MUST BE THIS WAY

And there’s another secret: I doomscroll, yes, but my feed is just piano, violin, Allan Holdsworth, or /pol/ stuff. I optimized even my time wasting.

Gurdjieff had a quote: “Profit from everything.”