Thread 33527187

I've always wanted to be a creative ever since I was young. I've day dreamed about being one and tried working my ass off trying to write ever since I was around 12. My parents tried pushing me towards it for school assignments. I also wanted to draw but never got into it seriously.

I've been wanting to write again for nearly 2 years now and have barely made any progress towards that goal. I've only done one little drabble like 2 years ago and haven't done any exercises since then. I've been trying to get myself to write, but all of it looks too complicated and exhausting for me. I've tried multiple different strategies, but they never seem to work. I've tried forcing myself to write, but can only make myself write a couple of sentences for barely 30 seconds before stopping and looking at my phone again.

I've never been able to complete a single multichapter story in my entire life and actually coming up with stories isn't much better. I can't think anything through and everything about trying to make an entire story looks too hard for me. I want to be a creative really badly, but nothing I've done seems to have amounted to much of anything. I want to become one so badly, and I want to stop wasting my life doing nothing.

>>33527187 (OP)
Write

>>33527187 (OP)
If you aren't scared by the prospect of rotting away for another 10 years and you've tried everything else there's not much else left to be said. That suicide threat is a common cope tactic that just ends up wasting time for most people, but maybe you are one of the serious ones, I wouldn't know, and I'm not sure if you really do either.

Anyways, for someone like you, if you truly believe in your life and want to spare yourself from a miserable future, it has to be treated like a job, even a job you hate, if you want it to be done. There's really nothing special to being creative except working on it.

Start with dedicating an entire year to it. Don't miss a single day and let the achievement of showing up make you feel better about yourself. If after a year you feel like abandoning all of it and never coming back (like a job you hate), you probably never cared about it more than the idea of it.

Lastly consider that motivation is a very real concept. If you don't have a reason you will not do it. It would make zero sense to pursue something that you don't feel like you have a reason for doing, or otherwise don't feel like it's worth the effort. Most people are average even if they want to be special, they will not be able to find a reason to bother.

>>33527187 (OP)
Create a time every day and force yourself to write for a set period of time. Also, as far as technique goes, just write, do not edit

>>33527210
>>33527195
How do I make myself? Whenever I'm on meds in the morning, I feel too tired, too shaky, can't make myself even play a video game. When I get off my medicine, I try writing and I can't make myself initiate doing anything. I also have trouble getting motivated, getting creative ideas and connecting them all together for a story, and things like that.

I can't make myself do anything either. When I'm on meds I just feel better about not doing anything. I can barely follow tutorials. I can't even watch anything for more than thirty seconds.

I can't make myself put any effort into anything because it feels too exhausting.

>>33527210
I'm currently on antidepressants, stimulants and thyroid medicine as well.

>>33527248
You make yourself because your life depends on it, just like going to work because you'll be homeless if you don't. If you're not serious about it/life and you are okay with things continuing the way they are that's how they're going to stay

>>33527248
Why don't you get off meds? Why'd you get on them to begin with?

howie thread
ignore

>>33527400
My ADHD and learning disability.

>>33527498
And you're learning so much with such a great attention span on your meds?

>>33527248
>How do I make myself
Bro you've been asking this question for nearly two years now, first with art and now with writing. At a certain point you need to realize that there is no formula for making yourself do something, sometimes things require sheer willpower without strategy.

>>33527513
If I get off my medicine I feel like shit. Thats my problem

>>33527678
I can't make myself is the problem. I don't know how to make myself. How do I make myself?

No matter how good I feel, no matter what medicine I'm on, no matter what. I can't fucking make myself after the initial novelty dopamine wears off in a few days.

>>33527187 (OP)
>How do I become a creative
It is not particularly creative to keep posting and reposting this same thing. Try varying it a bit the next few times. That will be creative.

>>33528353
But now? I have ADHD, autism, aids, epilepsy, foot fungus, chronic migraines, shaky hands, sore eyes, ginger m, clubbed feet, wide hips, blurry vision, jig ears, exzema, wide earlobes, headaches, hepatitis C, gingivitis and your normal advice will not work for me

>>33527187 (OP)
Anytime someone asks this questions they should be redirected to
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Hrr3dp7zRQY
Read into his story and find out why it should never matter when you start but that you do

>>33527187 (OP)
Taking this post at face value, and at the risk of this being a Howie thread..

You could give an outline of a story, perhaps a chapter at a time, to AI and see what it spits out. Then edit that, tearing it apart if necessary and reassembling it. Then handling it back to the AI to clean up, then tweaking it some more. It's not how I would write a story but it might be enough to get you on the self-learning path to where you no longer need such training wheels.

>>33527187 (OP)
>How do I become a creative?
>Choose your parents wisely
>Choose your genes wisely

>>33530201
I don't want to use AI. I want to come up with these things on my own.

>>33531307
have an epiphany/breakdown and then write while feeling it, specially on a computer, your hands will move by themselves

>>33531317
I can never make myself is the problem. Even when I have an epiphany; I'll maybe write something for like 30 seconds at most before stopping and never going back to it.

>>33531317
I get an epiphany but then nothing happens. I can never make myself focus for more than 30 seconds.

>>33527187 (OP)
>how do I become a creative
This phrasing immediately tells me you have no real, actual, authentic desire to create anything, and you just want to be seen as a cool creative type. Don't make anything. The world's choked with bullshit made by faggots like you.

>>33531478
So was I writing for 12 years because I wasn't interested in creating anything? Did I start drawing now because I wasn't interested in making anything?

Psychedelic mushrooms, unironically

>>33531839
No. There are people like me that can regularly create things, but I can't for some reason.

Everytime I see op post I start to think the nazis were on to something about eugenics

>>33527187 (OP)
I started being a writer at 20, writing for a school newspaper, then working as a freelancer and wrote 10 books for myself (and dozens ghostwritten).

Here’s the secret: you have to love the act itself, not just the result. It’s a passion, and even now with a full work schedule, my mind randomly conjures up chapters to add, features to integrate (like Knaussgard or Raymond Carver), and which cover would best compliment the text.

At no point did I not have something written and say damn wish I was a writer. The ideas came first. I remember reading the complete works of Chekhov in about 3 days and my world was electrified. I even copied a few stories verbatim (a la hunter S Thompson), just to simulate the feeling of the effort required to write by hand a story that was once written by candlelight.

But imagining myself as a writer and all the accolades? I’ll admit that seeing women read my stories in the school newspaper was a hoot and I even got a reputation as holding the record for the most prolific writer in its history. But really? It was just one more story, one more opinion, one more subconscious tale, one more interview - you could easily write micro fiction but won’t. Why? YOURE IN LOVE WITH THE IDEA OF BEING A WRITER NOT THE WRITING ITSELF.

Also, newsflash: most people hate writers. Either by jealousy or by suspicion, no one likes the profession (especially with today’s modern journalism)

>>33532024
The fact that I've been writing for 12 years without publishing anything, along with roleplaying, shows that I like the act of writing itself. Additionally, what you're saying to me, is what people have said to me for literally every single hobby I've ever tried, including non creative ones or just anything in general. Most days I can't make myself do literally anything.

>>33532024
Oh for fuck's sake. Yeah I've heard this a million times for every single hobby I've ever tried. I like the idea of doing anything besides sitting in my room, laying in bed, jerking off and going to sleep or looking at my phone and staring at a wall while barely being able to get out of bed. Am I seriously raising the bar too high? Is that what you're telling me?
Then am I not interested in anything at all? Because this is what it's like for everything that I've ever tried doing even for non creative hobbies or just anything in general.
I have literally tried doing several artistic hobbies and gave up each of them immediately when I was a teenager.
>Gave up on Source Filmmaker
>Gave up on GameMaker
>Gave up on FireAlpaca
>Gave up on Photoshop
>Gave up on writing
I didn't know how any of them worked or what to do. I don't even know basic trig. Even when I look art guides, I literally cannot comprehend them or figure them out. I don't want to be stuck with no creativity or being unable to express myself. This is what it's like for literally everything I try doing. I'm not able to try and keep up with any hobby. Even writing, I do it sporadically and very rarely. Stop giving me this reductionist bullshit.

I'm not here to get attention, I'm not here because I "secretly don't like doing anything creative" I'm here because I want to fucking draw, write and make something. Now are you going to give me advice or not?

>>33532072
You might just be mentally retarded

Yeah no shit if you give up on something immediately you won't be good at it

McDonalds might be the star you should aim for

>>33532078
I have autism, ADHD and a learning disability. I also have a job. Are you going to give actual advice? Are you going to keep ignoring the fact that I've been writing and role-playing for 12 years?

>>33532072
Same poster from before:

>Even when I look art guides, I literally cannot comprehend them or figure them out.
That’s your problem.

When I was 15, I said I wanted to be a famous bass player. I couldn’t do jackshit at first but that was NEVER an obstacle. I knew that if one one else could do it, why not me? And if they could find a way to do it, why couldn’t I?

Years later, that same 15 yo played in every major US city, 16 countries, house parties, lofts, festivals, shitty clubs, you name it. And you want to know how I did all this? I read everything I could get my hands on. I transcribed every damn thing I could find. I couldn’t afford an ear training course, so I just played notes randomly on a tape deck for an hour, and then spent weeks nailing each one. One mistake? BACK TO THE BEGINNING.

The same went for my writing. I kept a MySpace blog back in the day and wrote 450,000 words. Then, because I didn’t have any material or practical life experience outside of being house poor in NY, I hitchhiked and jumped trains across the US. I printed my own zines and dumped them in libraries and coffee shops. I got rejected by every publisher.

Now, at 40, I can learn anything. I’m looking at my piano right now and can barely play “Avril 14th” by Aphex Twin. But I know that I will be playing Chopin, Alkan, and Bill Evans in due time. Hell, I sucked so bad at jazz that I played EVERY SINGLE CHORD in the Real Book. Just like the Chekhov example I gave before, if you can trace the lines of the masters, you can become your own version.

It’s the creative act and you can cultivate it. Women respond to it and know its rarity. In fact, I used the same approach for writing and music for women, and damn, wouldn’t you know it, my body count is 70+.

Fail constantly. Double your rate of failure. Then, never let those failures occur ever again.

>>33532088
I don't really have any advice for you that anyone else hasn't given, on this thread or the 500000 others you posted

But okay here's my recommendation: try treating writing as you would your job. Write something every day. It can be a page, it can be a paragraph, but it's not meant for publishing, just for yourself. It'll help you get into the habit of writing

>>33532118
Okay so how do I make myself? Most days I can only pace around or lay down in my bed looking at my phone watching the same videos over and over again. I can't even force myself to begin learning at all unless I'm in the 100% correct mood. Even then, I can barely do it at all. Ever since I got my thyroid killed off, and had to take synthroid, it's been like this.

>>33532127
Again, I have trouble even making myself to begin with. Ever since I got my thyroid killed off, I can't focus.

>>33532158
>>33532173
Is it possible to stop taking the thyroid meds? Or get on another type of thyroid medication?

I had a similar thing happen to me when I first started taking Abilify. It wasn't nearly as bad as you have it but it did make everything except staring at my phone boring

>>33532181
I'm currently trying to get my thyroid medicine stabilized. They told me that it's very close to normal, but I still feel like I can't focus. I got mine completely killed off with iodine. So I can't stop taking medicine for it.

>>33532181
I was at first taking levothyroxine and now I'm on synthroid. Still nothing. I've tried changing my stimulants multiple times. Still nothing. I've tried changing my anti-depressants and as far as I'm aware, nothing is changing. I don't know what to do.

>>33532202
>very close to normal
Which is to say your thyroid is close to going back to normal? Or is it something that you need to take forever regardless?

>>33532158
>Okay so how do I make myself?
There’s your problem.

Here’s one of many secrets you’ll learn:
Each tiny improvement is power. And when that power starts to accumulate, you’ll start to pull away from your friends and current situation. I didn’t care if my mom only made cube steak and buttered noodles - I had memorized the circle of fifths and heard Moondog for the first time. Each little advancement was my secret stack of power.

Now, as far as energy, I’d recommend getting off the pharmajew ASAP. Try Lugol’s solution (it’s potassium iodide, and you’re probably lacking these in your diet). Walk as much as possible.

There’s also visualization:
I couldn’t always practice in school, so I’d try to imagine the fretboard or a new tuning, or how the harmonics laid out in scalar sequences. My mind is still like this, and I trained myself to get a bit of power in every act. For example, whenever I walk on a tiled surface, my heel is the beat and the cracks in the tiles are subdivisions (I taught myself polyrhythms/metric modulation like this).

Your passion must consume you. He’ll, I was doomscrolling after working on a project for 10 straight hours today and saw a short. The next thing I know, I was on Anna’s archive and downloading Bartok’s children pieces. IT MUST BE THIS WAY

And there’s another secret: I doomscroll, yes, but my feed is just piano, violin, Allan Holdsworth, or /pol/ stuff. I optimized even my time wasting.

Gurdjieff had a quote: “Profit from everything.”

>>33532222
I need to take it forever as the actual organ is dead and gone. So I need to keep taking medicine forever. I need to make sure that my levels are correct. My doctors said that my current dosage seems to be the best one as my latest blood work showed that it was close to normal levels.

>>33532224
My problem is that for almost everything I'll just stop and be like "eh whatever" and just stop. My brain is fundamentally broken and only wants instant gratification now.

>>33532233
>>33532256
Did you tell your doctor about what's happening? The extent of how horrible it is?

>>33532263
I did twice. First time they told me that my thyroid levels were fine so its something else. Second time they offered to take me down a little on my synthroid. Now I'm here. And while I feel less jittery and racey on the inside, I still can't do anything or make myself focus on anything. I'm about to meet with my psychiatrist tomorrow about upping my Duloextine dosage as I've gotten off my paroextine.

>>33532272
If you started the medication and all of this stuff started happening it's probably the medication that's doing it. That's what I'm gathering from your story at least

>>33532256
I get ya, but there has been plenty of “sickly” composers and writers that got shit done. Get your medical shit straightened out. The anhedonia you’re feeling isn’t normal so at least you’re not that far gone. But you already know what to do so I’ll leave you to it

>>33532340
I'm hoping that eventually I can force myself to do something.

>>33534118
>hoping
Is coping.

Face it, you’re not creative. It’s a rare trait and it’s more of a burden than you can think. I spent hours hunched over a soldering iron to make guitar pedals that never worked, YEARS in destitution, and lost dozens of friends to pursue my art. At no point did I HOPE that I would create, it’s more like an inescapable drive that you’ve either fostered in your youth or something that will emerge when you’re retired to pass the time and be social with other retirees.

I’ll give you a litmus test:
>do you believe that AI will replace artists?

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Ok times up.
What was your answer?
If you said yes, don’t make art. If you said no, don’t make art. If you said who gives a shit I do what I want when I want and the world can suck my dick, then you might have hope. The real answer should have been that you’re too busy working on your art to even be aware of trends.

Read this and if you don’t immediately start making art, you need to stop:

https://ursulapreiss.com/blog/2018/1/6/going-all-the-way-by-charles-bukowski

Don’t try

>>33532340
>>33532324
I just spoke with my psychiatrist today. They told me that it seems like my problem isn't with the duloextine, even though it is a low dosage. What seems to be my problem is withdrawals once the adderall wears off, because they said I seem to be fine. Even though I'm still a bit anxious as I'm typing this while on my medicine.

Should I give it a try and see how it goes?

>>33534864
Again, I've heard this a million times for literally every single hobby I've ever tried doing. Even for non creative hobbies or just anything in general.

>>33532072
>>33527187 (OP)
> I want to become one so badly, and I want to stop wasting my life doing nothing.

From the way you write - the anger at life, and at the anon, I can sense a lot of anger at yourself. Anger that you're not doing what you're supposed to be doing and being out there and being social and meeting people and being that social, friendly person that you know you are.

And you are afraid. And you've internalized that fear so much, that now you're releasing this anger on others. So unlike everyone else here who will buy into everything you're writing, I've detected something in you because I went through much of the same of what you're going through, and I'll give you advice no one else will probably give you here:

Face your fears, man. You can do it. You really really can. Go outside against your environments will, against the people and obstacles that block you and that you feel hinder you, and do the things that you see others do that make you jealous of them and angry at yourself.

I know that it seems bizarre that I'm writing all of this when I barely know you, but take a look at your life, do a real reflection of objectively, what do you do day to day? And does it make you happy? No? Then do the things you're afraid of. Good luck man, I did it and so can you

>>33534929
You mean getting off of adderall?

>>33534960
I'm angry because I can't focus on doing literally anything at all.

>>33534966
No, she recommended that I go on a short acting dosage later in the day during the afternoon so I don't feel as badly during the evening. But, I'm still feeling horribly anxious even while I'm on my adderall anyway, so I think it's the duloxetine.

I don't know what the fuck to do.

>>33534969
I understand you have real problems, we all do, but you're avoiding solving them by posting here. You don't need a mother's advice or strangers advice, you already know the answer. And you're an adult fully capable of implementing it. You're just afraid, and running from your fears by posting on 4chan and getting angry at others is not productive. I am writing this from a place of similar experience. Please be kind to yourself, speak to yourself physically, out loud, shut down the devices, and think what you have to do and do it. As scary as it is - that is the only way forward. That thing that you must do that you're avoiding and not doing

>>33534977
It seems that the adderall is doing you more harm then good, maybe you should get off of it altogether. Maybe you've fucked up your brain chemistry by taking too much

>>33534929
Adderall withdrawals are extremely depressing. You will also feel incredibly demotivated and irritable for days. The pharmajew keeps lying to you to your own detriment. You WILL crave just one more pill or relapsing unless you definitively realize the connection between your own misery and these drugs.

One of exfriends is a world-famous musician. He died and was resuscitated after taking too much cocaine while on tour. This was ten years ago, and he couldn’t hack being sober, so he went right back to the drug that killed him. If you go to Carnegie Hall, chances are you’ve seen him.

What’s funny is that he was taking cocaine and a myriad of substances to be creative, but he just couldn’t do it. He was a classical musician through and through, and no amount of chemical inspiration would ever make his music ever sound like anything than, what I dubbed, “girlfriend music”.

Creativity also leaves clues. In addition to writing and music, I also consistently made interesting drawings, came up with unorthodox plays when I played football that worked, devised elaborate revenge schemes on my enemies that evaded detection, learned how to cook by improvisation, wrote several books in a 24-hour period (each), took my dates on adventures like shredded paper dumpsters, created my own instruments, so on and so forth.

On top of this, I have at least 5 projects going on all the time. Binders and hard drives full of backed up music, ideas, writing fragments, drawings, schematics, and more.

If this doesn’t sound like you, just be humble and stop. If you can get past the drug addiction (two weeks), then see if you’re creative. It’s way more rare than you think.

>>33534985
I hate social situations. Your entire armchair psychology projection is not what I need.

>>33535014
Nta, but thing with passion, I find, is that if you've never doubted if it was actually a curse, you've never genuinely been passionate about something

>>33535007
I remember when I was younger, I could focus a lot more when I was on adderall, but now I can't focus. I'm 99% certain that part of this is my thyroid condition because if my levels are even slightly off then it'll have bad effects.

>>33535029
I'm not sure then, this might need to be something you track on your own. Keep track of your levels, how much adderall you take, and which days are worse than others. Start a journal if you need to.

But if the adderall isn't helping you at all now, at this point in time, it might be a good idea to get off of it --- especially if it's making you anxious

It sounds like the anxiety might be a barrier to doing anything creative as well. I had a similar problem (I have OCD) where I'd be so afraid of creating something bad that it would make me anxious to work on anything. Maybe this is contributing to it, but I could be wrong --- I'm not you after all

>>33535059
I do feel like that is a factor, I'm afraid of making something bad because I know I'm completely shit at it. I just sent an email back to my psychiatrist about the anxiety but they haven't responded yet. I'm not sure what else to do. This has been ruining my friendships and my mental health for nearly 3 years.

I can't keep track of my thyroid levels on my own without a blood test. My next test I think might be coming up soon, but I'm not sure. They told me it was close to perfect, but I still don't feel focused.

>>33535080
Then yeah it probably has nothing to do with your thyroid if it's still the same. I'd say it's probably the anxiety that's paralyzed you, so you should probably see about getting off the adderall --- it might be worth a shot

>>33535014
I have a ton of ideas but I can't get them down. Even in notes. I used to be able to, but now I can't.

>>33535026
Agreed. If you’re not being ostracized or feel like leading a double life, you’re not doing it right.

I’ll give you an example. I was homeless in PDX and made a whole network of friends by frequenting 24-hat coffee shops and being a character. It worked, and I was able to get off the streets. These people never knew i played music professionally (I played at CBGBs, L’Amour Rocks, etc), so when I started to KILL at an open mic, one of the baristas was pissed. They had pigeonholed me as the homeless dude that they were “helping out” when in fact I was a talented dude down on his luck. It was as if I wasn’t allowed to excel and I soon found I want as welcome as I once was because I was now “competition”.

a) you need inspiration to be creative. you also need passion.
b) you need to enjoy doing the process so if you want to be a writer you need to enjoy writing regardless of what it is your writing about,
c) be consistent, try to some every day even if you don't feel like it. it's okay to drop a project and start a new one...
d) you need to put yourslef out there, what ever you create let people judge it and see it and comment on it... for art work i'd instagram and fb, and art comps.
e) being creative is not restricted to art and writing. I got my creative expression in coding programs for work, then it was also in cooking... and wood work...eletrconics...kite flying/making
f) set your environment up for success... if your an artist, have a place to paint or have a place to write that is always ready for you to jump on and start doing..
g) get inspiration from other people, pinterest, join a writing club, from history
h) learn your craft, it takes 10,000hours to be an expert in something. do some writing classess to they can tell you how to structure your work, lay down the foundation
i) try different forms of the same thing, poems, short stories, journalism, writing product reviews, novellas, erotic short stories, novels, haiku, dr seuss. a daily journal, a made up daily journal, study other peoples works and do your version of that,,, ie take the plot of a favorite movie and then rewrite in a different time period and era... a lot of plots come straight out the bible in the early years of hollywood.


try as many hobbies as you can, if something doesn't appeal then try something else..maybe come up with something unique, I've changed art styles about 10 times and now I switch and change between 4 of them.

>>33535206
My problem is that I can't make myself do anything. Even trying anything new.

>>33535111
I'm not sure. I remember when I had a stomach bug and was forced to throw up all my medicine, I felt like I was more motivated than ever to work on writing.

>>33535226
I have a feeling this is an elaborate CIA plot to waste our time by trying to help someone who just wants to kvetch about “muh illness”.

I think the only writing you’re capable of is complaining. Which still doesn’t give you an excuse because you can do Knaussgard.

This started as a question about art, and now we’re stuck talking about your drug use and illness. Django Rheinhart had two workable fingers, Raymond Carver was an alcoholic, Van Gogh was broke and schizo, so on and so forth. Sick of it!!

i want to write too but i'm too much of a lazy fuck and i've never done it before
i don't know how to say this and it sounds retarded if we become friends we could hold each other accountable to force us to write

>>33535372
I've been getting actual advice and support for this entire thread.

My psychiatrist changed their mind after I told them about my anxiety. I'm going to get an upped dosage of Duloextine. Hopefully that works. I'm not sure. I hope my thyroid shit gets fixed soon too.

>>33535594
>>33535306
Yeah like I said earlier, be active in tracking your symptoms and all that, because from what I've read the meds seem to be making things worse more than better. Talk to your psychiatrist about this stuff, especially if things aren't improving

>>33535609
What should I do in the meantime to actually get myself do anything? I've been role-playing a bit today.

>>33535023
You don't want to hear anyone's advice and so die alone

>>33535624
The others in this thread have some pretty decent advice

One more thing though: Are you sure that what you're experiencing isn't some kind of OCD? Like you've been obsessively posting about this for like two years now and you seem to be going through extreme anxiety.

I ask because I have OCD and had a similar obsession not too long ago, where it was more the anxiety that paralyzed me rather than my inability to pay attention.

It sounds like you're more anxious about this rather than inattentive --- because you say you do have a job, so you're obviously able to focus on some tasks.

I could be wrong because I'm not you after all, but maybe look into it. You might find that your behaviors fit the mold more than you think

>>33535646
I've never been diagnosed with OCD. But my brother does and my ADHD seems to operate very similarly to how OCD works. I'm super anxious about working on anything. I've had anxiety for a long time along with these kinds of behaviors. Even when I was on antidepressants. I don't know what to do.

>>33535541
Loosh harvesting. Stop creating posts and start writing. Here, I’ll give you an assignment if you’re serious:

Write a short story that’s 500 words characters.

That’s all you have to do. Otherwise, the advice is simple. Reduce drugs, increase output, stop whining/whinging.

>>33535691
Again, tell your psychiatrist about this kind of thing. Tell them that you've been obsessively posting about this for years. These posts definitely strike me as a kind of compulsion

If you do have it you most definitely will need therapy. I like NOCD, they helped me a lot

>>33535710
How do I even begin to explain that to them?
>>33535704
Give me a prompt. There's way too many options to narrow down.

>>33536448
>How do I even begin to explain that to them?
Just look into the symptoms and explain to them why you think you might have it. Tell them that these thoughts occupy you all day and that this compulsive posting (and whatever else you try to do to relieve it) is the result.

>>33527187 (OP)
you can pay me for creativity lessons

>>33536632
In the meantime how do I make myself focus on and do these creative hobbies?

>>33536448
> Give me a prompt. There's way too many options to narrow down.

PROMPT: 1st-person vignette about getting the mail and how it changed your life in an instant

Bump

I took my new dosage of duloxetine and guess what? I still feel the same, shitty tiredness as before.

>>33537780
There's some pretty good advice on this thread already. Do the prompt that the other guy recomended to you
>>33540650
Don't antidepressants take time to work?

By-and-large your problems are definitely going some time to solve. Don't expect a magic solution

>>33538048
No excuses

https://voca.ro/1Qx0tx8THTlc

I’m saying you’re not a creative person
>this should light a fire under your ass

>>33541363
I've literally been role-playing today.

>>33541299
I've been waiting for nearly 3 years for a solution. I'm out of patience for this bullshit.
>>33541363
>You're not a creative person
Then was I writing, and coming up with OCs for nearly 12 years because I wasn't a creative person? The past few days that this thread has been up, I've been role-playing. I don't have to answer to your faggoty, retarded prompt to prove that.

>>33541299 #
I've been waiting for nearly 3 years for a solution. I'm out of patience for this bullshit.
>>33541363 #
>You're not a creative person
Then was I writing, and coming up with OCs for nearly 12 years because I wasn't a creative person? The past few days that this thread has been up, I've been role-playing.

>>33541712
>The past few days that this thread has been up, I've been role-playing.

Well played

>>33541712
>I've been waiting for nearly 3 years for a solution. I'm out of patience for this bullshit.
Well have you considered maybe not posting the same thread over and over again and actually get psychological help? Like I said earlier it seems that there's more going on underneath the surface than meets the eye

>>33528984
Lmao

>>33541842
I've tried a telehealth therapist before and that didn't work.

Stop self bumping howie

>>33541781
So then are you going to get off this whole bullshit about how I secretly don't like doing it and give me advice?

>>33543323
I think you should get a full psychological evaluation so you know what's actually going on. Until then, I think you need to recognize that making the same post over and over again every day is not healthy, and it's very much not helping whatever mental state you're in

That'll be my last piece of advice to you so the thread can die already

>>33543523
So no advice?

>>33543556
If that's your takeaway from what I just said then I regret trying to help you lol

Ngmi

>>33528122
>Whenever I'm on meds in the morning, I feel too tired, too shaky, can't make myself even play a video game.
>If I get off my medicine I feel like shit.
Legal drug addict. You are being abused by an industry.

>>33543681
Sage your shit retards

>>33543556
Every time I make a thread and don't respond for a bit, someone makes a post pretending to be me.

>>33543426
Your attitude is the problem.

>>33546140
What should I do to change it?

Bump

>>33546524
Your mind is tainted and this reflects in your physiology. May god help your soul

>>33547297
Stop with this pseudo intellectual, armchair psychology bullshit. Give me actual advice.

>>33547300
Give actual advice or fuck off

>>33548540
Yes. Please do.

>>33527187 (OP)
I've been writing on and off for a few years, and while I do struggle with big procrastination I have still gotten like 80K words into a story on several occasions. What I do is put headphones or white noise on and have a power session in which I come up with ideas. Could be notes in a notepad, but could be notes in a text editor on my laptop, but the idea here is to just generate ideas. When I have enough of an outline for a story, like broad "parts", I then pick a specific part, which doesn't have to even be the beginning, and do the same process there: grab that part and generate more specific ideas for it. This produces an outline that's more specific and just for that part. Eventually you get to the point where you are ready to write a chapter, let's say 500 words or 1000 or so. You can then do this breaking down process one more time, now coming up with an outline for just this part. Here too you can go out of order. Sometimes I don't know for sure how to start, but I know what happens halfway through, and I just write a bit there. Keep going until you've filled out the chapter.

Another idea is put your phone away and put your laptop into airplane mode and go somewhere else. Like go on your balcony if you have one, or go to a coffee shop. Or set up a small desk in your closet.

>>33527187 (OP)
>>33527248
For me, getting creative was simple. Or rather, it just happened naturally.

I was about your age, maybe a bit younger, and I felt like I hit a dead end in life in the sense that I didn't see a way to progress further whenever I looked around.

But I got out of it in a very unexpected way. How, you might ask? Well. I binge watched all of the Pokemon anime movies in a row and watched as much episodes and specials as I could.

And then. I started writing pure unfiltered Pokemon fanfiction on fanfiction net. (No I will not post it as it had served its purpose. Make some of your own)

Well obviously I spell checked it and edited the phrasing and the paragraphs to make the reading process flow well and correctly. But you get the point.

Once you get the hang of it, everything in your life will start going fine.

I guess this isn't really good advice per se but I can only tell the truth, right? It worked for me so maybe it'll work for you.

>>33527187 (OP)
Watch Mad Men and try to copy Don Draper's creative process.

>>33556495
Nice necro bump dumbass

>>33527187 (OP)
Just go to /ic/ to learn to draw

>>33552230
I've never been able to finish a single multichapter story in my entire life no matter how motivated I was to finish it.

>>33549763
I already did. You’re not creative, as you can’t stand the process. You just want the accolades about creativity. Which is why you fail.

Stop trying to be creative or say that you. Until you post results, you’re delusional.

>>33558441
Oh, okay. Here's something I just did today.