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Adderall withdrawals are extremely depressing. You will also feel incredibly demotivated and irritable for days. The pharmajew keeps lying to you to your own detriment. You WILL crave just one more pill or relapsing unless you definitively realize the connection between your own misery and these drugs.

One of exfriends is a world-famous musician. He died and was resuscitated after taking too much cocaine while on tour. This was ten years ago, and he couldn’t hack being sober, so he went right back to the drug that killed him. If you go to Carnegie Hall, chances are you’ve seen him.

What’s funny is that he was taking cocaine and a myriad of substances to be creative, but he just couldn’t do it. He was a classical musician through and through, and no amount of chemical inspiration would ever make his music ever sound like anything than, what I dubbed, “girlfriend music”.

Creativity also leaves clues. In addition to writing and music, I also consistently made interesting drawings, came up with unorthodox plays when I played football that worked, devised elaborate revenge schemes on my enemies that evaded detection, learned how to cook by improvisation, wrote several books in a 24-hour period (each), took my dates on adventures like shredded paper dumpsters, created my own instruments, so on and so forth.

On top of this, I have at least 5 projects going on all the time. Binders and hard drives full of backed up music, ideas, writing fragments, drawings, schematics, and more.

If this doesn’t sound like you, just be humble and stop. If you can get past the drug addiction (two weeks), then see if you’re creative. It’s way more rare than you think.