One thing I want you to ask yourself, is really what the fuck was she doing to you when she blocked you? Can't people have the freedom of speech without turning into an esculated problem so much? It makes no sense. Maybe instead of going hard on yourself and women, you treat dating like it is fun, like it is meant to be. Relationships are supposed to be positive not negative. You go in demanding she be there for you, she never will, because that is slavery.