>>41044103
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>Anon
Carina I mean, my bad!
>>41050790
Exactly! And people like you make this general what it is.
>>41050556
I am glad you spoke up, Anon. It's a devastating set of circumstances, there is no point in trying to sugarcoat that. I am sorry it got so bad, and besides the drama and the attempts I would like to focus on a couple points for now. I understand that you on some level wanna give up. It is difficult, and hurts.. but you also weren't meant to go through all this alone, either. Nobody is. For now I am glad you are alive. And I would like you to feel welcome here.
>I met with another friend out of texas, when I came back I only went deeper into depression
How was the meeting itself? Was the depression because it is so much worse where you live?
>I can't put on weight for more than 2 weeks at a time, Ive been plateauing at the same weight for this past year
I would love to discuss that with you, I understand that it must be hellish, with dysphoria and all in the mix. I assume you're mtf? How are you approaching weight gain?
>I might be going truly insane.
>but then things feel inexplicably better the next day (after crying)
Well, crying is emotional catharsis and even though I am not qualified to speak about personality disorders I can tell you that even I, a nominally healthy person in his early 30s, have noticed my emotional state being dangerously tied to my health. A night of bad sleep, or skipping a meal, or lacking vitamins, all these things in the past have caused me (and others I know) to spiral. There are many things that affect us insidiously and we can try to work through them with you.
>>41055154
Wheat berries are essentially whole grains of wheat that are prepared as you would risotto or plov, that is you cook them in a stock usually with veggies and whatever else you fancy. Farro is the same but from a different grain of the same name! I like both.