>>82882264
For me its a deep ache in my entire mind and body, soul and heart
It just hurts that I was denied a coin flip and now I suffer, and wasnt even given anything else to compensate
I think even being tortured or being a medieval peasant would be easier because in both I would have a life goal to aspire (save myself or work to not starve) and/or have a guarantee of death
Yet in this modern society I am a prisoner in my own flesh and room, with nothing to do and no grand goal to achieve
Its just a nihilistic emptiness from as long as I can remember until I die forgotten by the world
And I was not even granted the dignity of having at least a general body shape outline that wouldnt hurt anytime I look in the mirror or even just look down