there's no point for me in this life anymore, i don't feel suicidal i just feel empty. i tend to ruin all the relationships i go in jjfkdlajkfljsalfjkdlajsfkl

but i think i'm genuinely am at fault most of the time though, something i need to work on myself. i just cant get myself to do it, and what i mean by that is just its a never ending habit or loop. ill always be looping no matter what no matter the person i'm completely useless as-well i have no hobby's or interest to do things... i think that's what pushes people off. i have nothing to bring to the table.

i think me being alive is gods biggest prank.

also, life is cruel without sound