>>82250888
>think of 1 (one) thing that you want and put in a little work every now and then when you feel like it towards achieving it.
Doesn't sound retarded. The most I've been happy these past three years was a few months ago when I finally decided to get a job to buy a new computer after my old one broke.
It felt nice finally working for something, and I enjoyed researching the different parts and actually working towards that goal. But by the end, the motherboard came broken and I couldn't figure out what was wrong with it so I had to send it back to RMA and it was shipped back broken and there was this whole cycle which after a month which left me feeling nihilistic again by the end.
But now there's nothing really that I want to work for, and it feels demoralizing planning a future when it all seems so bleak, when there's no one to work for. I cope by blaming picrel