>>82251625
>Was it arousing when it happened at least?
Well it was okay? I don't know I never got a boner. It was a weird experience. I think I just didn't care about myself or what others did to me. Maybe I had low self esteem. I did enjoy the attention though. Having people want to touch me all over was kinda nice. I never really had much luck with women so I think back then I was desperate to be touched.
>What specifically did you like about fucking men?
I never fucked a man. They fucked me. And I liked being dominated mostly and used. Having someone bigger and stronger do what they want with me was hot. The actual buttsex didn't always feel the best. It feels like you need to poop but it keeps going back into your butt. I think it's more the idea of being used and abused which was hotter than the actual thing. One time I went to some guys apartment I meant on Grindr and he was way stronger and bigger (I'm 5foot6). He fucked me and then wanted me to eat food. I became really paranoid he was slipping drugs into the food or something so I bailed really quick and got scared of men from there on out. I think perhaps I was lucky at times not to have been murdered.
