>>82251084
Oh, I haven't dated anyone. I'm not out of the closet, and I probably never will be. (I'm a Christian, so I intend on dying a virgin celibate) You'll have to ask some other anon about gay dating, but yes, when I only had a very limited amount of exposure to women, I would idolize them, and thought that they could be like one of my guy friends, but with the added benefit of sex/relationships. Throughout highschool and college, there were a few guys who I got little pangs of love for, occasionally, but I would always dismiss it as misunderstanding what friendship is supposed to feel like. It wasn't until actually trying to talk to women, and picking their brains to see how they think and see the world, that I realized that they all have the minds of toddlers (which is not attractive to me in the slightest). Lastly, I'm not sure if it's just because I'm a Christcuck and I make my life hard on myself, but if you're not actually gay, you do not want to be gay. It's fucking awful to be surrounded by so many men who deserve so much love and receive none of it from the world around them. It sucks waking up each day and knowing that I can't give them this love, and that they would likely be repulsed by how much love I have in my heart for them. That's all.