>>82881168
no. the dread and terror come only when I realize I have to do all the things I already did and keep doing, and even harder and more humiliating ones, all for pretty much nothing, again and again and again and no "self-improvement", not even becoming some Chad billionaire with perfect mental health, would make it easier for me. society suddenly not being predatory hell and people stopping being worse than animals won't make it better for me, either
>>82881193
creating photos of yourself is a contribution of yourself to the world. the world isn't entitled