>>76519309
> I'm nervous about losing my life
Not gonna lie lad but you will need to prepare to give some things up, at least for a time. A new born is pretty much full time almost 24/7 work, even with your partner with you (especially if she gets hit with the PPD)
Just assume you won't get to do much beyond sitting your ass on the couch and watching tv while your son sleeps on you for a bit, that's how my first month and a half went
But it'll be worth it when your kid starts smiling at you, you realise it was all worth the effort