Thread 76518118

It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhale

Were you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as well

What are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.

Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own pace

We're ALL gonna make it

The motivation thread is open

Last week’s thread >>76489601

>>76518118 (OP)
get over it, losers

>>76518118 (OP)
Summer vacation is over and it's back to work today, it's been going alright but it's depressing nonetheless knowing there's nothing else to life than this. Working a dead end job that you don't actually hate but are miserably paid and destroys your body makes you wonder what the point of this all is.

>>76518118 (OP)
Sat on my morning commute today behind some hapa guy and his cute white girlfriend. Was sobering listening to their conversation, how much they seemed to be enjoying themselves. He basically came off like a total "nice guy", not alpha or Chad in the slightest, shorter than me, didn't look as fit, yet he's got what I wanted for years. Feels like I've screwed myself trying to follow all these autistic "getting girls" guides from the Internet. Anyway now my mood is ruined and I've felt a low level of envious rage the entire day. I'll probably hit the gym extra hard tonight just to get my mind off of it.

>>76518118 (OP)
I have really enjoyed this thread for years.
Thanks, gentlemen.

Daughter was born nearly 3 months ago
I love her a lot but it was a hard stretch but the past few weeks she has really calmed down and I have been able to scrape together my old life, I am planning to rejoin my gym this week after I had quit to focus on being with my wife to raise our child
I am looking forward to it lads
I have grown fat and weak, I can feel it
I must return to the iron

>>76518317
years?

>>76518339
I learned what I needed to learn about fitness years ago and so now I only stop by every once in a while to look at funny memes and keep motivation up. This thread has been around long enough that I recognize OP image and text still. Probably could look through the archive and find this thread happening a lot.

My goal is just not to get fired over the next year

No responses from the jobs I keep applying for, but someone from one of the hiring companies looked at my LinkedIn.
Still waiting for my ship to come sailing in.

I was thinking this morning that work really is the bane of my existence. There really isn't anything more demoralizing than being compelled to go to work. Like this morning I was engrossed in a book and was in a great mood thinking of all the directions the story could go and recalling events in my head to recap and whatnot. But then it became time to go to work and I could feel my mood start to slowly sink as I started getting ready. By the time I was in the car driving to work it felt like I had completely spaced out like I was in a completely different world and the fun thing I was doing an hour ago felt so very far to me.

I know it's useless to think about because ultimately you can't just stop because you need insurance/money but it feels so empty. I just want to do what I want and it feels like work is such a massive waste of time and stick in the mud. I never feel lonely but is it different if you have a girlfriend/wife or kids? Like something that matters enough to you that you can put up with work? Maybe that's just what I want but even to attain that it feels like work is such a brick wall that stands in front of everything you want to do. What do you guys think about work?

>>76518159
I’m in the same situation (minus the vacation). I’ve learned that we live for little joys along the way. Treasure whatever small moments bring you happiness since it’s temporary

i did not get the job, despite being told i was the frontrunner. they gave me feedback though, so i have something to work on. fwiw they felt i was strong technically so i just need to get more comfortable with the other lingo.
my lifting and running is going incredibly well lately. the runs are getting a little easier, going to start adding in my "long run" on the weekend and add a kilometer a week there. i dont have any distance runs currently scheduled but man i would love to be able to outrun and outlift my younger self.
football season is approaching, and with that previous goal in mind, i'm going to do a body scan before the season and after every four Eagles games. this time of year is always a bitch for staying on track with all of the holidays. i'll post results here for the lolz.
Wife seems to be doing better after the miscarriage. She's going in for the procedure tomorrow and then it's just a waiting game until we can try again. It's kinda wild how tough women can be with this kind of stuff, say what you will about any other aspect but pretty much anything related to reproduction is where they shine with toughness. it's all so sad. also sex is off the table for a week or so, in addition to the previous week or so, and i figured this would be a good time to get another sperm test done since i'm nearly 40. everything looked good last time (three years ago) but I want to test for DNA fragmentation. I basically look at it as a $500 excuse to jerk off.
also thanks to the anon who said he would pray for us last week. sorry to hear you and your wife went through that before. i hope everything is okay now.

I am still a 24 year old virgin. I am no longer a wagie. I am much less of a schizoid doomer.

Following something resembling a stoned heart to heart with a friend I made here in The Land of Smiles when he explained some of my issues from an outsider/insider perspective, I set about trying to strengthen myself by pursuing a fight, just one full contact fight here to toughen myself mentally and dig deep both in training and then the ring. I pushed myself on the twice daily sessions and my blood pressure and pulse were much lower as a result which I would find out when my luck would turn. Just a short time before the fight, I'd encounter health issues which would render me unable to fight and by extension train for some time till fully resolved. I was somewhat devastated since I put my heart into it.

Shortly sometime after, my friend went someplace else and when he came back, he made it seem it was one of the most important experiences of his life. I had been in a rough spot mentally but also adopted the fatalistic nihilistic mindset of I don't care what happens to me, I'll go anyway. So we managed to arrange for me to go.

>>76518118 (OP)
Beach condo anon here.
>2am wake up
>fall back asleep
>second alarm goes off at 215 get it
>awake for next 15 minutes before realizing I wanted today to be where I finally get it right
>jump out of bed try to dunk head under cold shower, turns out shower in new place doesn’t start freezing cold whatever it work me up
>floss brush
>go on 20 minute walk on beach
>3am have an hour to kill before I have to leave for work, game a bit shit shower leave get to work on time
It’s a start. I also didn’t jack off today. I need to sell my old home gym from my dad’s house and reinvest some of the money into some of those adjustable dumbbells. My adjustable bench would fit in my closet at my new place (or just double as my coffee table lmao), I could have used that hour to bust out some curls, bench, and rows. I’ve posted it but no one’s responded yet.


Found a 2 month old all black kitten on my walk. It’s semi socialized and was eating some cat food someone left out. I’m contemplating adopting him. I may get some cat treats on my way home and coax him. He wouldn’t let me within 5 feet but had his tail up and kept trying to follow me and interact.

>>76518691
I was accompanied by him and this Thai guy who basically escorted me to the pearly gates and let me in. I wandered around for a time, and inside and outside and I saw so many things that I can't explain them all. I felt all the things at once and I felt deep gratitude for the first time in my life that I basically had someone take me there and look out for my safety. I thought a lot about what I am or who I am or why I am and just settled in without any real anxiety till I had to finally leave which was the hardest part, but still done with a sense of inner peace. I realized I'm a bit of a creative and there's lots of paths, but creativity is one I've always dabbled in and around, so I might keep my options open there. And that I need to be just a little more trusting and open with social things to make it work. And to try in order to recalibrate things slowly so I can be more comfortable in my own skin and around others. I felt a certainty of sorts that at some point I'll make new friends, and adventure and make memories and also meet a hot girl or five to keep me warm at night.

>>76518708
Any time I felt a bit of hurt resurface, it was washed away by the river of calm I was submerged in, and the gentle hands of the two that were with me, pushing me forward in a supportive way just by being there.

I didn't think too hard about God or mortality or any of that, but I felt a placid peace towards the idea and when I went outside after a few hours in, it felt like the world was seen for the first time. I felt reborn after. Like I touched something really deep and it was just what I needed.

Coming down to Earth was the most nerve wracking part since I managed to make the ascent upward relatively instantaneously so the going down felt awkward. But I soothed myself, or maybe something higher up soothed me. It was a little rough at the end, but the questions it brought up during my journey, as well as after, gave me a lot to chew on. My friend and I agreed the answers are different for every person. But I found that the answers I already had were somewhat on the right track, and so I'm on the right track, but I need to trust in my own strength and judgement more, and commit a bit harder to the things I do, and also not worry about the frivolous things that worry me so often like a fussy infant.

I can't post my creative stuff here because 4kek is being gay about my IP, but I feel like there's a lot of beauty there that I can touch, because I saw the beauty of what others could make, and what was already made in the world for us to play with. I feel like I can create and shape and mold and write the story going forward but I need to be earnest. But I trust my judgement a little more now, and I trust my soul a bit mote.

>>76518700
I feel like I have this massive opportunity in front of me and I don’t want to waste it bros. I prayed for something like this. I wouldn’t have ever been able to move out even into a studio in the hood or someone’s spare room and I got super lucky. I need to get fit. I could achieve this stuff
>205 lean 6’2”
>live on the beach
>have successful social media related to fishing and cooking (my catches), can use that to launch a brand of fishing lures and start a small business
>if it all works out could possibly quit job and just focus on that
It’s a once in a lifetime opportunity I need to get my shit in order get fit again and just get organized and get after it. I made multiple pen and paper checklists in each room of my home to keep me on task and it’s working. Literally had to make my bathroom
Dunk head under cold water
Floss
Brush teeth
Wash face
Shit shave shower
Or else I wouldn’t get that 10 minutes of shit done for hours I’m so scatter brained

>>76518718
pretty incredible - keep it up anon. when i finally got my shit together it took a massive effort in the form of Exodus90.

when you finally start living the life you were meant to, it becomes hard to believe you were doing anything else.

I went out with a girl last Saturday to see a movie. A skinny, beautiful German girl... There are plenty of them here in southern Brazil... I have a surname, but I'm much more Iberian... I like what I see when I look at her, and apparently she also likes what she sees when she looks at me. But I couldn't kiss her... I wanted to, but she was sitting next to me, 1 meter away, not speaking, just exhaling air, and I could smell the breath of a rotting vulture she had. I went home asking what I was doing with my life... I decided to try to work with her and try to break her of these bad habits... because this seems like a period of depression where someone stays stuck indoors and doesn't care about such things. Next weekend, I convinced her to accompany me on a 3 km walk in the sun. Let's see how far I can get her.

>>76518508
it definitely makes a difference once you have someone else in your life. my wife was laid off a month after i moved in - and she's fucking loaded so its not like we were in a survival situation, but i will tell you firsthand my attitude at work got fixed fucking quick.

before the miscarriage i had a similar shift, basically i'm in a jeet company and seeing the little peanut growing in my wife's belly i realized that despite a "promotion" i was unlikely to last long enough to take paternity leave and this kid would be born to a jobless loser. i'm getting increasingly aggressive in my job search and skill stacking. i came close to getting a job that would be an amazing opportunity but unfortunately fell short.

family men are almost always the best workers because they have something to lose, and its not the job, its the respect of their family.

>>76518236
If a guy like that can get a gf, there’s hope for you. Try becoming the type of person others want to be around

>>76518118 (OP)
I will work hard, train hard, heal my injury and (not) kill my nemesis.

I'm Bumping this thread
1/?

>>76519269
We're all gonna make it bros, WAGMI
2/?

>>76519278
3/?

I’m a complete loser at 33 years old. This month I finally had a complete mental breakdown to my parents (whom I still live with) about how miserable I am, hate being alive and want to kill myself. I’m just so despondent about how insanely far behind in life I am, where I’ve pretty much experienced nothing good and have no positive memories, with no goals or hope for the future. I haven’t gone in to my horrible job this entire month, taking time off instead on borderline medical leave doing absolutely nothing for two weeks. And last Friday, my father had a massive heart attack. He has been in the hospital since then recovering, may be discharged within the next few days to continue recovering at home for however long that takes.

All this stuff happening at the same time seems like a sign from the universe that I do need to kill myself. Have a complete mental breakdown, do nothing but wallow in misery for a few weeks, father nearly dies to boot. I don’t know. It’s really hard to have a strong spirit like this thread suggests when you’ve accomplished and experienced absolutely nothing for your entire life and then when bad things happen, they just pile on and on like this.

>>76518118 (OP)
>were you thinking of giving up today?
I absolutely was and I wanted to play zomboid
>>76518331
My son is due December. I'm nervous about losing my life.
>>76518236
I'm a hapa with a german girlfriend

>>76518118 (OP)
Broke with my gf in last few months. Now she wants me to give her all the money she spend on the relation. I am scared she might report me or something that affect my life in the future.

Nonetheless, i have to keep trying to improve.

>>76519291
Bro Read this that I posted:
>>76519286
picrel is from someone else but gets the point across.
in your own words you're:
>33, loser, breakdown to parents about depression & suicide, feeling behind in life, no positive memories, no goals or hope for the future. taking time off to do nothing.
Bro the fact that your posting in /fit/ means you desire to be jacked and yoked like zyzz, ronnie, and the gods before them. that means you do have a goal. I'm sorry your father had a heart attack, that's horrible, but imagine what he'd think if you killed yourself brah, you killing yourself would be worse to him than a heart attack. not to mention selfish, he spend 30 something years raising you and you're gonna end it, that's fucked. you wanna get better, deep down there's a thing inside you that wants to be jacked and get pussy it's inside all us men brah. the key to getting that shit brah is little things every day brah. that's how building physical and mental skills work, I'll use myself as an example, for the past 3 years I've done jack shit so I decided to start playing piano and I told myself i was going to play a little everyday even if it's like one staff (that's the line the notes are on) of music. and you know what it's been one month and I've improved, I'm actually better now then I was when I first began brah, you gotta be willing to suck ass at something to get good at it. same with lifting, Piano, any skill you can learn. START NOW, you aren't getting any younger, NOW is the best time to get jacked and lift, FYI there's a million workout plans in the world all you need to do is lift heavy shit or yourself with every muscle, barbell training and calisthenics is the best, strat light work your way up. you also need cardio so either cycle or run or do a social sport that you'll enjoy. it's not rocket science just move your body. and each meat and veggies and some bread to. WAGMI Brah, Praying for your father's swift recovery.

>>76519286
WAGMI BRAHs
4/?

>>76519309
WAGMI brah, congrats on the son brah. don't play vidya brah, simple dopamine that takes not effort to get it brah. play and instrument or baka bro.
>>76519344
Nah you don't gotta pay her anything brah, she spent it on you willingly. so fuck her brah, go get some hotter chicks bro.

>>76519361
5/?

>>76519376
/fit/ iceberg
5/?

>>76519370
Thank you brah, i'm doing it for my son.

I was going to make some whinging post about my problems but fuck it, that's not going to do me any good. Anyone recommend a good program to build joint strength back up? I fucked up my elbow a few years picking an aftertreatment system up and when I started lifting again last winter I pushed myself too hard too fast and reinjured myself.

>>76519370
>Nah you don't gotta pay her anything brah, she spent it on you willingly. so fuck her brah, go get some hotter chicks bro.

I hope so brah, i still care for her, but i dont want to pay her for everything in the relation, but the thing that bother me is that she may report me or something.

>>76518666
What are your small victories, satan? I haven't had one in a long time, it's been a couple years since I spoke to a woman in a romantic way.

>>76518870
Boa sorte macaquinho. Brazilian women owe me sex, literally.
t. Tuga

>>76519380
>ascended: wall climbs, cardio
>mfw climbed walls and did cardio today
thank you anon

>>76518118 (OP)
I regret quitting my soul sucking office job last year.
>made shy of 6 figures
>enjoy heating and ac
>either working round the clock in office and at home or doing fucking nothing
>felt like a zombie the entire time
>quit because i somehow believe there's a greater purpose for myself in this world. protip: there isn't. not without nepotism and a silver spoon in your mouth there isn't
It really was the last bit of childhood optimism and desire for a better future for the world that got me to leave that shitshow but looking back no nearly 1 year later it was fucking stupid. Pic related is more or less what i feel looking in the mirror ATM. I've been lucky enough with job offers every 3-4 months that last, at most, a few weeks before I look for something better but I've done enough behinds the scenes work to understand there is no point in trying to save this broken system and the broken people it has spawned.

Currently trying to get in with my local Union but if they're gonna drag this out until September as part of some faggy hazing, make the rounds, ritual then I think I'll just go back to an previous company I worked for. Will I enjoy it? Nope. Will I take up drinking 1-3 beers a day? Yup. Will I make good money in a shit job market. Yup. Ironically, beer raises my heart rates from 60s to 90s but yet mentally I feel so much better. Sober much is a neurotic mess that can't stop overthinking.

On a fitness level, I am absolutely making deadlifts my bitch and can hear the zoomers talking about how impressed they are.

>>76519376
I honestly miss seeing the vergil poster
>>76519380
for me it's the overhead kegel

>>76518317
I have as well. I’ve been here since /MIS/ AUTISM ANON created them and I enjoy sharing my woes and triumphs with you fine gentleman

I was going to have a job interview today but the hr woman mistyped my email and it had to be rescheduled for wednesday
oh well

>>76519906
Assuming you don't already know, they're not hiring you and are giving it to you for data collection or pity. Take it for the interview experience if you need it but otherwise don't even bother calling to cancel

>>76519941
>they're not hiring you
well that's awfully negative
>Take it for the interview experience if you need it but otherwise don't even bother calling to cancel
I'll take it for the experience yes but also in order to ace it and get hired

>>76519503
From Hackenschmidt's Way to Live, the beginner routine:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dXMSUG-jfUc

>>76519952
Let me know how it goes later in the week. I want to be wrong but experience says otherwise.

>>76519309
> I'm nervous about losing my life
Not gonna lie lad but you will need to prepare to give some things up, at least for a time. A new born is pretty much full time almost 24/7 work, even with your partner with you (especially if she gets hit with the PPD)
Just assume you won't get to do much beyond sitting your ass on the couch and watching tv while your son sleeps on you for a bit, that's how my first month and a half went
But it'll be worth it when your kid starts smiling at you, you realise it was all worth the effort

>>76518118 (OP)
It is not much
but at least it is honest autism work
take the /sig/ archive, let's hope it will help at least one of you to reach a better future

The motivational folder is growing and I could update it.
But the main focus should be the /sig/ folder, it needs some better guiding for newcomers.
Until then, I hope you are not overwhelmed with the amount of content.


sigAnon files 01.2025
Main folder:
https://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA

for_my_anons
https://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/L7RDBDBC

Motivational pics
https://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/DmokwDhJ

sig topics
https://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/7nQyyRaS

other files
https://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/CnRA1T5S

I became a fat schlob over the past year and gained something like 22 lbs. I actually went to the gym consistently last year. im worried that when I lose the weight, ill still look like shit with loose skin. im 6 ft. anyone else go through something like this?

>>76518118 (OP)
>just got home from work
>some electrician company doing shit on the building
I’m contemplating asking them if they’re hiring, if they’ll hire someone with zero knowledge or experience, or at least for a card so I can call and ask later. I’m not as nervous about it as usual but something in my gut is telling me it’s a bad idea.
>pros of asking
It’s really no risk. It could get me a job earning my same wage or a bit more per hour and turn into a career. It may save me from my current situation
>cons
I could get embarrassed. People know I’m autistic within seconds of talking and hearing laughter after I leave the room isn’t an uncommon experience. I could also get hired and it may suck these dudes are working later than me, I did a 10 hour shift. So they’re either on an 8 hour schedule or doing 10+ hours. May entail a ton of driving

>>76520210
Yes I have loose skin and I’m not even done with my cut. My fat was alsmot all in my gut so the face is loose but tight enough not to notice. Looking at my ass and my gut though there is some obvious looseness to it. Kinda upsetting but a hell of a lot better than deeper and deeper stretch marks

>>76520115
>at least it is honest autism work
That's only what one can ask for.

>>76520228
>looked the company up
They operate 7am-7pm and do work up to 80 miles away from me. It’s not a big company from what I can tell. I’m not looking to drive that far.

>>76520007
you might call this outlook realistic (and I would somewhat agree) but it's also quite pessimistic and I can't be pessimistic when I can be optimistic and use the optimism to help myself

>>76520210
unless you gained the 22lbs in one month then you most likely won't have loose skin

>>76520311
thanks for the chuckle <3

>>76520115
>>76520421
what made you decide to post seperate links to each folder

just expanding the post to be more eyecatching?

also, is an update in the plans?

>>76518472
Same I applied for a couple of jobs I would actually like to have. Hoping to hear from them.

>>76519278
>i became hooked on the amazing feeling of fatigue and endorphines
Socrates would be proud.

>>76519380
What are spinal accelerations?

>>76520228
>>76520317
I guess I’m chickening out.
Idk why. Idk if it’s the nerves or maybe I’m realizing I don’t actually want that job. Idk what to do. I need a better job. Idk what I can do

>>76520438
I could just post the mainfolder, yes but no idea when and why I started posted the most important subfolders.
Maybe so people see the post and can see that there is different stuff.

There are plans, yes!
Adding stuff, OCRing all the pics, consolidating similar pics, reworking pics, writing a small PDF guiding through the most important things and steps and files in the archive.
But real life is a bitch. For now one has to dig through all of this by himself until I have the time to do things one day.
But I am still working on this baby, just a little bit slower now. Until the day I go to jail because helping other anons to git gud and independend is kinda illegal in these days.

>>76518689
I’m really sorry you didn’t get the job, at least you show potential. Incorporate their feedback into your future interviews. You’ll get a better job soon!
Your wife is an incredibly strong woman. Please do everything in your power to support her. You’re also doing a great job staying strong. One day you’ll have a child. I’m not anon but I’ll pray for you if you pray for me

>>76518118 (OP)
>I gotta get back to my workout schedule
>Monday's workout's done, now for tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and friday
>I gotta keep an eye on what I'm eating
>I gotta push the car back up the hill farther than my best now that I've let it roll down again

>>76518714
So you went on a drug trip?

>>76520694
deal

>>76520580
Good to hear, thanks and good luck

>>76519199
Checked for good goals

>>76519779
That's a sad but realistic truth that I've learned as well - only certain people can truly pursue their dreams. At least you're making money and improving your fitness now. You can still get back on track

>>76521206
>you're making money
Nigga what? If post post didn't make it clear I am currently looking for a job, not earning.

>>76521206
>you're making money
If my post didn't make it clear I am currently looking for a job, not earning. My money situation allows me to be picky but I'm at a point now where I don't care.
>you're gonna give me chicken and rice instead of steak and potatoes? fuck it, it'll give me gains either way
>i have to use dumbbells only instead of barbells? they work

I WILL MEET ALL OF MY WORK DEADLINES
I WILL HOLD THIS JOB FOR AT LEAST A YEAR
I WILL PASS MY LEVEL 3 CFA EXAM NEXT JANUARY
I WILL MAKE IT OVER THIS MOUNTAIN

Work continues to be extremely difficult. I’m working under rough conditions, I feel like I’m constantly under stress. I’m working 50 to 60 hours a week at a bulge bank and consistently feel like the stupidest person in the world. But I need to dig in and persevere. I have the strength in me to endure this job until something better appears. I will make it

Work sucks so much that studying almost feels relaxing. I’m so grateful to have a path out of this hell. Some days are great, some days are terrible. But they’re both part of the path to the summit. I can see my destination, I just need to move inch by inch towards it. I’m ready to see the top of the mountain

We may be in the summit or we may be close to the peak But keep on moving forward, no matter what the conditions. The top awaits us all

>>76521356
what work is thisthat you do at a bulge bank

>>76521386
I work in compliance.

i got sick over the weekend. nose stuffed. head hurts :(

>>76519562
I’m making time to study and haven’t killed myself. I fantasize about how much better life will be in a year

>>76519125
Thanks bro, just gotta beat this social anxiety.

>>76519309
Congrats on the son bro.

>>76518236
>>76521723
>sits on commutes leering at couples breaking them down by their race and talking about "alphas" and "chads", comparing how much better he is than the guy in the relationship
>haha yeah, all i need to do is beat this "social anxiety" and ill totally get a gf. my poisoned brain isnt whats restricting me. just my "social anxiety"

>>76521789
Stay mad Chang.

Damn, I want opioids.

>>76522297
I don't really, just a craving.

>>76518700
Day 2 trying to get my shit together
All the same but I called out of work today. I literally don’t know why. I just feel crappy and there’s nothing to do at work I’m overly caught up. It means missing a day of pay which is the only real issue with it. I just wanted a day off I guess. I’m going to try and be productive still. There’s definitely some stuff I can do around my apartment, some diy some tidying up.
The checklist system is working pretty well. I understand this is just a start and it’s small steps over time, but I have this nagging sense of urgency to find a new job. I suppose I should send some applications out today too. I just don’t know what field I could go into. Obviously I don’t want to work a normal job >>76518718 but I do recognize the necessity of one in the meantime. Are there any wfh opportunities I can do without experience? It would make those other goals easier to accomplish

>>76521299
>Good.

>>76520743
All admirable goals. Good luck!

>>76520761
More than that, I felt like the mushrooms gave me a new look at the world that I had no idea could even exist, and whatever spiritual corner my friends escorted me to, it was made up only of light and joy and comfort and gratitude for existence and all that's beautiful in this world. I'm less doomer pilled now and feel like there is still a chance to make it and live out my dreams to some degree

I think I'm gonna make it

>>76521356
You can do it anon the shit jobs make better ones feel that much better and give you something to look back on as a testament to your resilience, and it lets you think “well at least it’s not as hard as THAT job”


I have two kids under 2yo, the youngest is 6 weeks. Constantly crying and keeps us up at night, I’m always walking around trying to get her to sleep. It’s maddening. I WFH and end up helping a lot around the house because my wife basically has to sit there and nurse all day. I am not as involved in work and feel out of the loop right now, somehow I a, getting away with it. I have a decent job but the stress of not being as active or involved/feeling like life is out of balance is troublesome. This week I will get back on the saddle at work and make sure I eat enough to build muscle.

>>76521560
Feel better soon fren <3. Take time to recover and feel better. There’s no point in pushing yourself until you recover

>>76521395
Compliance is the part that i dislike most about my work. So i wish you best of luck in your matters.

>>76523092
>This week I will get back on the saddle at work
Nigga absolutely nobody at work will genuinely thank you for putting in the extra effort.
Your wife, and one day your kid, however, will appreciate all that you've done for them. Make sure you pick wisely which aspect of your life to prioritise here.

>started sending applications this morning
>indeed had my old resume for idk how long
>also indeed had its “indeed resume” which included every job I’ve had for the last 15 years excluding current job so it looked like I’ve been unemployed since 2021
>mfw
Fixed that. Applied to some helper trades jobs. And now I’m suddenly nervous? I’m afraid to get hired and know nothing. To be make mistakes, to be clueless. Like I’m gonna have to be super up front about it if I even get any interviews and make sure they’re on bored to train me and hold my hand at the start a bit. If that’s not a problem then I’ll do fine.


what job options should I explore? Preferably things that don’t require school, minimal human interaction something where it’s just “this is what I have to do this week/day shut the fuck up and get to it won’t have to talk to anyone until end of week when I email boss”

>31
>been lifting
>but balding now
>shaved head
>Went to bar alone
>get drunk
>cute girl walks up to me and starts flirting
>get number

I fumbled it texting but maybe I'm not so doomed

>>76523458
Fuck I’m having an existential thing borderline panic attack. Idk what to fucking do.

>>76522297
>>76522426
No you don’t. You’re an addict and think you do. Stay strong and beat those cravings!

>>76523458
>>76523543
The only thing you can do is apply and MAYBE someone will grace you with an interview. Also, stop using Indeed. It is a majority of fake job listings for data collection. I'd recommend ZipRecruiter. The job market is fucked and will probably remain so until the orange man is gone. I'm convinced libshits don't want any motivated white right wingers who could come in and dismantle every piece of bullshit they put in place they've been putting in place since the 90s

>>76523871
I tried to talk myself into calming down. Realistically
>apply
>get interview (if I’m lucky)
>get job (if I’m lucky)
>start, get experience get taught shit begin a trade school/apply for a local unions apprenticeship
>grin and bear being clueless and yelled at for not having 50 years experience on day one
>if company sucks job hop after I know a little of what I’m doing, repeat until good company then chill finish school/apprenticeship get good at job get licensed start making close to $30/hr
That’s all I have to focus on. Only way I’ll get past sucking at the job is by starting. If the hours blow, the company is full of nigs or just sucks I only have to deal with it for long enough to get enough experience that I can go into the next job not clueless
>orange man
But he said jobs are at an all time high! Btw super glad there are Israelis who on our tax dollar get paid to study their scrolls and also that all of Israel gets free healthcare (funded by our tax dollar)
I don’t think anything in our country is broken I still haven’t put out 3000 applications yet only about half of that clearly the system works
>libshits don’t want
They don’t. Could be the perfect candidate and if it’s straight white male, BAD! Think of a bunch of fleas on a drowning cat with the consciousness to discuss ideas out of their situation one says “if they stop biting it for a short while it will survive and they’ll all live” instead they see that idea as helping the cat who they hate for no real reason so they toss that flea overboard and start biting then blame the cat when they all drown

>>76523065
That’s the right attitude but you need to believe it

>randomly on a pretty good “high” very optimistic last few weeks, hopeful think everything’s going to work out for me and I’m going to pull off anything I try
>today wake up, feel strange, gut instinct says I need to take a day off
>existential crisis, panic, anxiety, and immense hopelessness for my future
I want to improve so badly. Idk what I’m going to do with my life. I feel so damn stuck.

Hit up an interview for a great little job earlier today. It all came together really quickly. I'd say it went fairly well. My only mistake was hitting legs hard two days ago, so I shambled into there like some sort of invalid or half-cripple. Gonna go hit up my fwb later, do some crunches, and get some more writing done. Life's not too bad these days.

bros am I the weirdo for accidentally glancing at a woman’s cleavage repeatedly? It’s not intentional but also, why in any setting where they’re supposedly not trying to fuck do they dress like that? If I started fluffing and scrunching my pants to show off my bulge I would be deemed some kind of pervert. How the fuck am I supposed to succeed in a job interview when the bitch conducting it has half her tits out but also I’m considered a creep for looking? It’s almost not even because I wanna look and more so just because of a “whoa wtf this hoe has her titties out at work”

>>76525233
even though it's tempting and the urge is strong you must resist your lust

I've seen a yt video recently on beating lust and they guy brought up part of the Bible where Jesus said not to fight your lust bo to run away instead
so in the job interview put your full atention on the interview
I've yet to implement this technique myself but it sounds promising

>>76525298
Yeah I would love to man it’s involuntary though. It’s almost OCD like. Like the best I can do is wide eyed straining as hard as I can without veins popping and that just gets me to the point I’m not even in the moment and I’m just in a headspace all worried about it. The only running away would be to stand up tell her to put her tits away and leave. I mean no offense when I say this but that doesn’t sound promising at all. If it was that simple I wouldn’t have this problem
>involuntarily looking at 3 mile long cleavage
>have you tried not doing that involuntary thing?
Not saying it like that to be a dick just further elaborating on what I mean

>>76523471
so there's hope for you :) if you made mistakes, learn from them

>>76519941
NIGGA WE IN THE WHITEPILL THREAD

>>76522681
Shit's stinging now that I'm back to unrusting my body but it's getting better
>Warmup
>Bench 135lbs, 1x5
>Hamstring machine thing, 97 and 105lbs, 5x5
>Squat, 95lbs, 1 rep before my hamstrings started stinging
>Farm walks, 45lbs, 2x6 minutes
>Cooldown

>>76525130
The best days will come, the worst days will come. Try to be productive, even if you are having a personal crisis. Your future self will thank you for being disciplined

>>76518689
Surgery is done. She’s fine. wagmi

>>76518118 (OP)
I found out I'm super blessed to be mildly intimidating... until today.
>Be me at gym
>Spic is pretending to lift a 40lb barbell but just sitting at his phone rolling it around with the nasty ass shit and piss stained soles of his shoes like a child
>Get fed up and go goody two shoes and call him out (I know)
>"Dawg that's nasty, are you going to wipe that shit when you're done"
>Doesn't pretend to nignore me, doesn't act surprised, goes right into escalation
>FUCK YOU BITCH WHAT YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT"
>"Dude you're 5'4"
>"I DON'T CARE HOW BIG YOU ARE I'LL FUCK YOU UP"
>Walk back to tricep extensions
>He's still yelling at me from halfway across the gym for the next 3 minutes
>"I WAS JUST MOVING IT YOU PUSSSYYYY"
>"FUCK YOU YOU WON'T DO SHIT"
My adrenaline was going, I did mma for years so a fight wasn't scary but a police report or the fact a slime was trying to start a fight because I called him out for being a disgusting wretch got to me.
Called up a local boxing gym and starting again Thursday bc of it.
Here's to aesthetics and justice lads

Had to see the ENT today for a follow up to my surgery. He pulled a giant scab from my sinuses, it was awful.

>>76526233
Beans love playing David and Goliath for some reason. I've told this story before where at my last job this 5'4" 40-something cokehead taco tosser (literally got busted for coke at a job he worked later and had a VERY obvious, obnoxious junkie laugh) decided he was gonna play grab-ass in the office hall and in front of my manager (who was a drunk and did nothing). Both times I literally held him in place like he was an angry child and moving him around might as well have been like moving a child as well.

Fuck brown people.

>>76526233
>>76526290
Forgot to add: I'm tired of hearing the bullshit that guys will respect you more if you lift. Maybe well to-do white kids who grew up in the suburbs and watched Full House and enjoyed it. Everyone else? Immediate dick measuring contest. Some younger women will try to fuck you but all of the older ones that aren't the stereotypical sweet cookie making grandma will scowl at you because you remind them of their countless pump and dumps.

>>76526297
yyyep, I have no problems even with drunks at bars, and Lord do I go to bars too often, but minorities get incredibly ticked off by my existence. I think it's because I have a good tan but I'm still visibly white and it makes them feel insecure.

>>76520007
Well, it went alright
I did quite well doing a sort of appeal to emotion by talking about something in my past
but I did quite poorly when answering a more technical question
I acted quite friendly (very unlike myself) and the woman told me that they will contact me by email within a few business days
Good experience though

So the resolution will come this week or the next

>>76526768
you made yourself fat, fatty
take responsibility and fix it

>>76526773
You're right.
I will lose weight.
I will marry an inappropriately younger woman.
WAGMI

>>76526828
>an inappropriately younger woman.
no such thing in the past
but there are bullshit laws now, well half bullshit half not but that's not a discussion for here

WAGMI

>>76526975
It is probably partly how I was raised, but as a 30-year-old there's part of me that even finds dating an elder teen a bit skeazy. Then I remember how gosh darn sexy they are.
WAGMI

Hmmm..where to start....
Ive been without a job for a year now, and things are looking bleak since for programming only seniors can find a job. Ive spent all my youthful energy, resources, time and nerves to finish a CS degree only for it to become virtually useless. You basically have to spent shitload of more time and energy to pick up marketable skills and i simply cant do it. I am physically sick of more studying cause i realise i wasted 7 years of my life studying for nothing and now my inner being simply refuses to study more. Theres no will for it left. I have been tricked by society into believing hard work pays off. You always have to do more, nothing is enough, you have to strip your dignity, your individuality into jumping through hoops how and when they say you jump. Livable wage is a myth, you either make a boatload while working 15 hours a day or you are left out or make pennies. In todays work culture if you dont hustle you are left behind to rot and i physically cant hustle. I just cannot. In every my attempt to pursue something im reminded by society how worthless i am to them.
Dad got sick and even though he is back home now and feeling better i know that part of his sickness is him stressing out because of my unemployment. My dad is a whole different story im not gonna get into now. He is a bizzare man, mentally ill ever since i knew him. No matter how much i try to help him, to advise him, to make him look at the bright side of things he simply stays the same.
I cant count on anyone except my mom. My dad is messed up, i dont hold contact with my relatives, i havent talked to my sister in 6 years and i have 2 friends who i am pretty close to but i feel like i cannot count on them

>>76527173
i guess i the only time i was sort of happy was as a kid. I would say when I was 8 to 12. I was riding my bike with classmates outside and playing footy all the time. Slowly but surely things started going downhill in my puberty. Puberty hit me hard and ruined me. Classmates started playing social games like adults. People were mean to eachother. Constant bullying by everyone to everyone. Awkwardness of male female relationships. Mates started pursing girls and I couldn't find my spot in that place. I felt extremely uncomfortable around women. Suffice to say I never had a gf. Then at 16 I started smoking weed. It was fun at first, we were laughing but realistically I was with the wrong crowd. Smoking that young truly messes you up. Some more, some less but i wound up with the short end of the stick. I developed mental illness and ended up without friends, without relatives and without sister. Adult world is extremely merciless and unscroupolous. Truly I believe I fell ill in major part because of that. In a big city you truly can't count on anyone. Money is everything here and i have no money.
What to do, what to do....

>>76525155
Congrats on your progress! You’ve worked hard and your life is starting to fall into place

I took yesterday, today and tomorrow off. I showed up today, and left at lunch. My stomach is fucked up. But it’s more so I just feel so fucking off. Idk what’s wrong. I feel as depressed as I did at my worst years ago. All I wanna do is curl up in a ball and sleep.
There’s also nothing to do at work. I don’t feel like pussyfooting bullshitting for 20 hours on top of having the shits and feeling this weird. I’m missing days of pay now.
I’ve applied to a bunch more new jobs, sent an email to a union to set up an appointment so I can apply to an apprenticeship for welding.


I really don’t know what I’ll do for a job. Would I like trades? Would welding be fun? Can I really just zone out and do my project for the day and be left alone until I’m done?


Idk what’s wrong with me. 3 days ago I started getting right out of bed and going on walks getting all my stuff done with a checklist like I used to to be productive and then boom >>76525130 it’s like I’ve been slapped back down to square one. I just hit a full 12 months of work after being unemployed for years, I’ve been losing weight, I’ve been doing the things I said I would and feeling great. So why do I feel so bad suddenly?
>>76526128
I’ve been doing applications at least. I just feel so horrible right now though and I don’t understand why. I feel like shit. I may go to work tomorrow even though there isn’t shit to do there

>>76527173
World is a cruel place, if you can, do migrate to Poland

Lifting, fasting and eating healthy for past year. Almost everything is going okay. Got a job, starting good university and in the process for getting drivers license. Only problem is that I'm mentally ill. All my friendships die, I'm autistic and paranoid and have eroge addiction (i prefer to support honest japanese rather than a jew). I don't feel much emotion since few months after bpdemon left me (she left me a year ago). I'm like an empty husk that does everything just by the force of the past momentum. Lost even more of life?hope? after learning history of central banking. The west is sick, and I'm certain of this after visiting china.
Anyways I will find joy in this life, and life will flow back into me. Please believe in me anons.

>>76528452
why poland?
i already live in a slav country
poles seem to be unhinged uncultured brutes to me

>>76525966
FUCK YEAH BROTHER
WAGMI

My ex wants to come over to my place for the weekend. We parted ways as amicably as one can end a relationship and I could use a weekend-long sex marathon but I don't know whether it's a bad idea because none of my exes ever wanted to hook up again after things ended. Like I'm less worried about myself and more worried about sending the wrong message towards her, like, I don't know whether she's trying this in hopes of wanting to start something again or if it's truly just sex and nothing else.

>>76519779
Update:
Welp, I did it boys. I'm in the Union.
>pay rate of a ce-2 @ $32/hr
>i have 6 months to pass my jman's test or else i will have to go into their education program for a year
>either way, pay after goes to $46/hr
>am a book iv so low priority but things ight happen
>need to study hard
I've spent the $500 to get all the material I need. The question is whether it gets delivered here without being abducted. The last 3/4 orders I've made online since Black Friday last year have been nabbed. If this shit goes missing, I swear to God I'm going door to door in my apt with my 9mm get it back and then proceed to sit by the mailbox with said 9mm every time a package of mine is to be delivered.

To all NEETs looking for a job, go Union.

I think 90% of my problems are due to overfapping.
>issues waking up no matter how much I sleep
>energy is always low
>can’t get it up with women
>no drive or passion in life, any I get dies fast
>terrified of women, certainly and anxious with people in general
>issues with eye contact
>issues focusing and staying on task, like extreme and were never this bad before

>>76529608
I’m trying to join mine >>76528337. Unfortunately all apprenticeships started this month. But enrollment begins January for most around me. Just a matter of getting accepted. I don’t think welding is a lifelong career, or maybe it is, but that’s what wanna do.

>>76529644
Why welding? Either way, if you're desperate, you might have to work at Skeeter and Deeter's Shitshack Welding if it comes down to it.

>>76526248
I'm sorry about that experience bro

>>76529681
Genuinely man, I can just tell it’s something I can be good at without ever having done it. I’m sure I’d be bad at it starting out, but it’s the kind of hands on thing that I know I would have some natural inclination towards and hone very quickly.

>>76528542
I believe in you but you need to learn to believe in yourself. You can't change the world but you can change yourself. Keep improving until you can grow confident

>talking to gym girl
>half my age
>"see you tomorrow anon"
>tell her it is rest day tomorrow
>she says she works Friday
>tell her I'll see her then.

I am more excited that somebody is holding my gym goings accountable rather than the imaginary possibility I can bang some 20 something.

>>76529385
Don't let her back in your life, she'll only bring you trouble. Unless you want her to be your gf again, stay away. If you're really curious, try asking her why she wants to be part of your life again

>>76530324
Never say never, might not be imaginary.

>>76529637
So try reducing the amount you fap. Porn and masturbation are destructive habits

>>76518317
me too
>(you fucking autistic faggot)

>>76518331
>>76519309

>retards on 4chan somehow reproduced

is there... hope after all?????

>>76518472
i used a service called applypass, it sent something like 50 applications a day with AI

sped up my workflow. my biggest problem was just managing my time with so many fucking interviews and calls. it was pretty hectic, but worth it.

>>76519278
>>76520499

NTA but that mental switch happened for me as well. rather than pleasure from food it was pleasure from physical labor.

modern life is basically choosing where to get your pleasure from

>>76519344
>Now she wants me to give her all the money she spend on the relation

Broo.....
PLEASE do not get bullied by a girl you are NOT EVEN FUCKING. Please. Holy shit.

>>76525130
don't be so philosophical - something affected your body. the weather is worse, or you drank too much, or you ate slop.

think carefully, this pattern shows up more than you think when you are depressed. it was only recently when I started to learn to really think physically about my body. doing all of the physical maintenance tasks (like lifting, obviously) makes those sudden drops in mood shrink to maybe 5% of what it was.

>>76530676
As an ex-NEET virgin sometimes I feel weird with how far I've come just because I "started trying" kek

>>76518118 (OP)
Is it possible to forgive yourself for wrong shit and mistakes you made in the past? To lose the shitty feels associated with the memories?
>be 5/6 years old, sister gets a Quaker parrot
>really want one too so parents get me one
>immediately start rolling cue balls at it to watch it flap its wings and squawk
>realize this is wrong
>start getting chills realizing I’m being abusive and have probably inured the animal (seemed fine but I realized back then how delicate the creature was and realize it even more now)
>tell my mom what I did, say I feel bad and try to express I don’t deserve the animal and ask her to return it, she thinks I made mature decision and does same day it was brought home
I saw a video of a Quaker parrot and instantly remembered and got chills. I feel horrible. It’s been more than 20 years. Yeah I was just a little boy and little boys are psychopaths with prey drive towards small creatures but I felt and still feel horrible. Like what the fuck is wrong with me? I wasn’t trying to harm it I just wanted to spook the thing because I was retarded. Did it like 5 times before I realized how fucked up it was. It’s it possible to lose the shit feels associated with memories like that? To not get those same sunken stomach chills I had back then?

>>76529637
>issues waking up no matter how much I sleep
Yep, though it's even more of a problem now because I'll sit in bed an extra hour just jerking off and relaxing in the post-nut high before getting up
>energy is always low
Yep
>can't get it up with women
I've never gotten hard to women unless they're furry. Same thing for dudes too.
>no drive or passion in life, any I get dies fast
Extremely relatable. The only time I'm somewhat motivated is if it's porn related and even then it dies off pretty quickly.
>terrified of women, certainly and anxious with people in general
I've always been this way so I can't confirm if being a coomer has made it worse
>issues with eye contact
Same as above
>issues focusing and staying on task, like extreme and were never this bad before
Fucking spot on. I used to have fun doing assignments and schoolwork until I discovered porn. Very quickly did my thoughts get overtaken by all sorts of autistic fetish-related shit and now 95% of my mental capacity are about them. That's probably why it's so hard for me to learn new shit too because my neuroelasticity is so fucked from years of the same stagnant thoughts and fantasies.

>>76518118 (OP)

Im that anon who said that he met someone online and she really fell for me, so much she broke up engagement. We talked for two months now and set plan to meet up next month in another country.

But yesterday i decided to cut all contact with her before i really develop feelings if we meet in real life and i feel so bad. I helped her find some purpose in her depressee life. She started exercising because of me and going out again.

But it is something i felt i had to do, she is kinda walking red flaf even though she was hot.

>>76530455
>>76529385
Wouldn't it be fine if you told her something along the lines of "okay, but don't take this to be something more serious than it actually is"? That way you can have sex but also make your intentions clear towards her that you're not looking to reignite things. Though I guess just telling her no would be the absolute safest and most ethical choice considering women admittedly don't tend to seek out this sort of thing unless they're looking to revive a relationship, amicable parting or not.

Another day off from work. I probably would have been fine to go in today. I think I just needed the break. I’m still applying to jobs, one actually viewed my resume and responded (rejected). That local union hasn’t replied to me yet, I hope they do. I would have to set up an appointment for January just to apply to them. But it would be something like I’m looking for. Get paid to get trained and have actual raises and a livable wage to look forward to.
I think worst case scenario for me still involves moving forward.
>get new job
Just depends on if I can get something else in this job market right now
>stick it out for year, start apprenticeship next August for whichever trade I choose/union I get into
I want welding because it’s what I have the most interest in and because of that I know on the school side of things I can retain info pass my tests etc. it looks fun. I know it’s something where I can be excited to go into work, even if this sounds smoothbrained it would literally be “oh shit I gotta get out of bed I get to go weld today!” Sucks that the pay is shit where I am though. I know welding can go a lot of different directions, I’ll probably work in a fab shop at some point doing the same shit every day but I ultimately need something with new stuff constantly to keep myself engaged.
Other stuff still looks fun but like 60% of it is gay and that worries me as far as passing tests goes. I’m trying to fix my attention span and everything but this is just how I have to plan for shit in the meantime.

>have to shit really bad all week but can’t, have really bad gas but none will come out, feel super heavy and fatigued and start getting migraines from it
>have enough eat stuff I know will make me shit last night
>been taking a dump and farting for last hour straight
I feel better.

>>76530859
Yes. You were just a child and didn’t know any better. We all make mistakes and have to grow from them. What’s important is that you’ve realized your mistake and don’t want to commit it again. Now you need to learn how to forgive yourself. You’ve come a long way and will only go further

>>76532231
Thank you. It’s like I have to hear it from someone else otherwise I feel like I’m just excusing fucked up behavior. I know I was a kid I’m just incredibly frustrated with myself for not having the self awareness to realize it was wrong before doing it. Like I get it it’s the same as anything we learn, reading math crossing boundaries with other people sometimes yo you know it until you do it. But it seems so obvious to me after the fact and now in retrospect. I guess all I can do is continue not ever doing shit like that again. I hate that sunken stomach chills feeling a lot, feels like my skin is tightening up some weird mix of guilt and shame. Over 20 years later I still feel it

>>76531158
You made a mistake. She really loved you and was interested in meeting you. If you have an opportunity like that, don’t squander it

I can't even talk about my problems here they're too complex. Might as well say i'm just fucked. I'm too far gone. I'm so far up the metaphorical ass even if i climb out of it all i'm going to see is asscheeks. I'm just fundamentally broken and nothing can fix it even if i spend a shitload of time and money into it. I'm destined to die alone because i'm mentally ill and not the cool kind of mentally ill like BPD, psychopathy or narcissism
I don't plan my suicide because i know when the time comes i will just grab the nearest sharp object and stab my throat multiple times until i start gargling on my own blood. That's the manliest way to go right after harakiri or a gunshot to the temple.

>>76519994
Appreciate it Fren.

>>76520550
Late to the party man but being on call 12 hrs and having a large service area means lots of OT and probably a need for anyone willing to get dirty and learn.
>I'm autistic
I've never met a skilled tradesman that wasn't autistic, insane, or some combination of the two. If you can direct your autism towards being a good sparky they won't give a shit if you're weird. And if you are good and they do? Fuck em, your shit's right the first time.

I have lost focus and lost a lot of gains. This shit needs to stop NOW

>>76533142
Idk what I even want anymore man. Maybe it’s electrical maybe it’s welding idk. Maybe it’s not even trades. If I had to put my ideal job into requirements it’s
>no crazy commute
>reasonable hours (no waking up at 2am), would prefer a schedule like 7am-3pm
>OPTIONAL OT as often as I want it but not reflective on my value if I don’t take it (probably company dependent)
Like I want to be able to work 80 hours for a few weeks when I want or need to but not be then held to that standard and be seen as lazy if I don’t wanna work past 40 hours or cover shifts for the next month. That lets me take the amount of OT I know I can handle and avoid burnout
>new shit every week no monotony
To keep me from getting bored, to always have a challenge and shit to learn
>fair pay, needs to earn at least $50k within my first 5 years and be able to earn up to a minimum of $75k in a reasonable amount of time
Sounds like an apprenticeship
>good benefits PTO etc
Sounds like union maybe PTO being on the non union side of things
>active, working with hands building shit
It sounds like only trades meets those requirements only the commute OT and hours may be hard to get situated and I think those are just company dependent. I’m just scared to start, leave my comfort zone, be the clueless newbie and be embarrassed for being socially anxious and clearly autistic I know I’ll get ball busted and deal with the occasional junkie whose entire purpose is annoying others to cope

>>76532027
Good luck bro! Use your drive as motivation to buckle down and actually apply yourself

>>76520115
Been following the Mega archive for a while now and have reread a bunch of stuff several times. Changed a lot of things for me and I appreciate you putting all the good stuff together in one place.

>>76530859
you can forgive yourself

>>76533416
thank you
thanks you very much! <3
That's all I want to hear
that's all I need

a simple "thank you, this helped me turning my life around / making it better"
all these hours I put into it and a simple "thanks" is payment enough

keep it going my brother <3

>>76533065
If you’re going to die, try to live a little. A while ago I inspired someone suicidal on /MIS/ to go to Asia to travel. Why not take full advantage of your life if you’re not going to plan for a future? Ask out any woman you like, spend all your money on a vacation, talk to strangers at the bar. You won’t have regrets if you’re dead

>working out for 2 years
>on nofap for over a week
>see big butt blonde in a sports clothes shop
>beautiful face with the brightest eyes I’ve ever seen
>approach her before I logic myself out of it
>blurt out that she’s sexy af before proceeding to chat random shit
>she’s russian so we converse a bit in her language, compliments me over how fluent I am
>invite her to hang out next day
>have some ice cream and chill out on the beach front
>invite her back to my place
>proceed to pound that ass till my nutsack is emptier that a hobo’s wallet
>now have a hot casual sex buddy for weekends

And because I’m honest and not trying to pretend like I’m winning at anything like the rest of the faggots on this thread the above scenario is completely fake. The only place it could possibly exist is my dreams since I’m not the kind of guy who gets lucky breaks like that.

>>76533329
So you're angry about the state of your life? what are you going to do about it?

>>76533824
I get lucky breaks like that from time to time.
>dating psychopath BPD, moves away do long distance because she was first kiss fuck etc overly attached and she was manipulating to ensure it was that way
>dumps me on Valentine’s Day, had spent weeks nofapping and taking cum load supplements in anticipation to fly and see her
>sad so smoke some weed, in dgaf mood just being a dick to people for fun
>reply to this hot girls gym Snapchat story saying I’d be her personal trainer and give her some intense cardio
>Mfw she says okay where are you
>Mfw she drives to me, we spend the night like a couple she puts herself in my arms leans head on chest lots of kissing
>she gives me atomic power suck action omega level sloppy throat goat supreme head with the vacuum seal, pulls cock out of her tonsils and makes me spray all over her face and tits, jams my shlong back down her throat and swallows the rest, starts touching herself while rubbing my cum into her face and tits
>gives me a hickey
Was amazing. Didn’t go anywhere else because some loud mouthed kike chick saw me with the hickey took it upon herself to contact the girl and start telling her I was bragging to people about what happened. Literally didn’t tell anyone a word, found this out years later. Now she’s seriously dating some older dude in his mid 30s.

>>76533944
I honestly doubt shit like this works. I mean DMing random girls on Insta/Snap and getting laid? How?
>dating some dude in his mid 30s
I’m early 30s so not too far off kek though I don’t get sex

>>76533969
It’s the only time it ever worked, I knew her before hand. She was a friend of a friend who I met a few times but never really said anything to. She told me that night she had been waiting for it. The thing is she also said she had a date that night who she flaked on to come be with me. I think I got lucky and just happened to be the better option

>>76534018
>>76533969
I should add we were like 21/20 at the time. 18-22 year old college girls are super easy. They’re experiencing independence and freedom they never previously had and current media all tells them fucking different dudes is empowering. It’s a numbers game with way better odds than most dudes realize. At least they were when I was those ages. I just had to be lean and socialize a bit and I would inevitably stumble my way into a hookup.
I may go back to a community college for a semester or two when I turn 31 in a couple years and see if I do well

>>76518118 (OP)
I work 55+ hours a week from Monday til Sunday, and my fucking parents still watches me like a hawk if I drink any alcohol.
If it weren’t for fitness (and meditation) giving me the “feel good” hormone, I would have shot myself at some points.
Well, and the occasional drinking outside.

I think it's time I join the gym again boys
I used to workout religiously and browsed here, then I got a 9-5 and my life went to shit
Stopped working out, stopped eating, started drinking more, lost basically all interest in life

I tried joining one since I started two years ago before but didn't last even a week. Hopefully I can stick with it now
The issue is that sometimes I have this motivation that I have now, but then I wake up and it's all gone when that alarm rings

My mother just disowned me. She also manipulated all my siblings into cutting off communication with me so now I am truly alone in the world. Truth is they barely picked up my phone calls or responded to my messages before, only when they wanted something, so I guess it had already been happening for a while. Normally when people get disowned it’s because they are a drug addict or abusive or something, but my family just kind of don’t like me. It’s so petty, I don’t even feel that bad about it. Anyone else got disowned from their family?

Maybe I’ll thrive without them. Lifting, running, I must grow stronger.

>>76534327
>Anyone else got disowned from their family?
Not disowned myself but disowned my own family now for almost 2 years. Made the decision at 28 when I knew damn well at 18 I wanted nothing to do with them. I just wanted to believe that there was always a higher meaning behind the word "family" for every family.

If anything, I'd say your next step, if you're like me, is to identify the ways in which they messed you up and figure out how to overcome those mental short comings.

>>76533510
nta but I’m insanely grateful for that mega :) I cant wait to send you more images at the end of the year

>>76534327
I got disowned once by my grandma because my cousin sides got jealous, spread lies, and wanted the money from my grandmother ( I live with my grand parents)
She disowned me for a week for that even though I lived with her since I was a baby.
Then, my grandfather calmed the situation down and brought me back.
Honestly, the whole situation just made me more apathetic.
Didn’t even cry when she died

I got a job but right now it's so boring I wish I was a NEET again. I got a whole 2 hours of work today so I sat around the office browsing the web on my phone for another 6. My supervisor essentially said that's what I can expect for the next 2 weeks.

Today's the first time in five years of lifting that I thought my arms actually looked decent, poasting
(yes I am fat, no I'm not cutting anytime soon)

>>76530859
>>76532606
Happens to all of us. The older you get, the more you remember those cringey memories above others.
You need to actively forgive yourself. Nobody remembers it. The bird forgave you, or didn't care, and you have already seen it as wrong. Even if it's just recently, it doesn't matter. You didn't know any better, now you do. You couldn't know before knowing.
I talked to my mum about some of those stuff I had on my mind and she showed me pictures of the event: I had made it a lot worse than it actually was. Probably same for you. Our memories are darkening the picture.

Bump

>>76518118 (OP)
TGI Friday

I’m the anon who chickened out talking to the sparkys. I just bought them water and asked about working as a helper, they said yes. Sent my resume to the foreman’s wife. Just waiting to hear back.
Potentially got a new job.
I’m scared. I know it’s hard backbreaking work. They said it will be a lot of ditch work at first. But I’m excited. Foreman said he’d buy me tools over time if I’m there long enough, they’d teach me and I’d move up over time.
They said I could start part time to figure out if I really wanna do it so I don’t lose current job
I’m terrified but this is the goal I set for myself. I get this job I get past first few months and I’m home free

>>76534133
Do you have enough money to move out? That might be your best option if you’re that unhappy.

>>76533693
>just be miserable alone and mentally ill overseas lole
normalfag tier advice

>>76536458
It’s funny, you’d sort of think that the typical NPC normie advice wouldn’t be parroted on 4chan of all places. But with how much the “dude just solo travel (usually to Asia) bro” normie advice is given to lonely and miserable people on here, I guess even here isn’t safe. I mean, at least to me, it’s just kind of surprising that people actually believe that someone who has lived their life in the same area and hasn’t been able to connect with people or make anything worthwhile of their life, that by traveling somewhere overseas alone, suddenly this person will do a complete 180 in their personality, start talking to everyone, meeting tons of people, doing fun activities, etc. Maybe I’m just too far gone and depressed, but I don’t think I’ve ever heard a success story of some depressed lonely loser going overseas and everything flips a switch.

>>76533894
>So you're angry about the state of your life?
not my state in life in particularly. in fact I am in the best state of my life right now at least in terms of my future financial prospectives. was really focused on that part of my life for the last 1-2 years. was wort it but I am one of those people who cant put 100% effort into every aspect of my life, its usually one thing at a time. now that this part of my life is sorted out I need to get back into fitness related things.

>>76534371
Why didn’t you like your family? For me, I’m okay with the disownment because I was verbally, physically and mentally/emotionally abused growing up. They don’t like me because I’m misanthropic. They think I’m antisocial because I have no friends.

>>76534588
My dad could possibly calm the situation down but he has dementia and has no power in the family anymore. I’m pretty apathetic and indifferent to this situation right now dunno if that makes me a sociopath. I’m bummed at the fact I won’t get any inheritance I was mostly interested in my family’s cottage anyways but there are 4 kids and I’m a neet versus siblings who make $100-$400k a year.

Becoming an "unc" has its perks. I'm no longer cool or in with the slang, but it's much easier to put on muscle and I feel much more confident than I did in my early 20s.

>>76536492
30+ years old suicidal depressed virgin with BPD, ADHD and aspergers, sub 6 feet sub 5 guy with norwood 99 who haven't left his house in 10 years after getting a blowjob from a ladyboy in Thailand:

I've been living with my fiancee for a year and a half and my patience has finally ran out. She refuses to do household chores and I've been screaming at her every other day for the past two weeks. I don't know what to do, she's a good person otherwise but I think this is going to kill our relationship. Washing the dishes is not a big deal, I don't understand why she won't do such simple things, but I no longer care about her. I wish she'd just fuck off for a week or a month or whatever I don't care about her I'm done with fighting over fucking dishes and keeping things where they should be.
I wanted to have children with her but that poor baby is going to die. Lazy cunt can't wash a fucking dish and is going to take care of a newborn. Fuck I regret meeting her so much.

>>76536619
>not even married
Break up retard

>>76536492
I always thought the logic behind travel was that it would give a sense of confidence like “hey you know what at least I did that, and I did it alone.” And also bring a sense of satisfaction like “well this shit sucks but at least I can say I’ve gotten out of here and seen other parts of the planet” and then also that sometimes we just need a change of scenery, like if you’re miserable and you never change things up you’re just gonna stay miserable. I don’t think it’s meant to 180 someone just give them enough of a boost that they can then apply the boost to making other changes, hanging in there a little longer etc.
That’s what I always thought the logic was. The main flaw I’ve found in it is
>most people are miserable at least in part due to money problems
>dude just do this expensive thing and don’t work for 2 weeks lol
Even the cheapest travel is expensive.

>>76536796
>anons guide to becoming happier
If there’s anything I have learned in my 30 years it’s that we need several things. A.) struggle. That doesn’t mean be poor or injured, it means have an objective and tackle it. That could be lifting, fixing up your apartment, that sort of thing. Always have a struggle you’re actively working on. The human brain wasn’t built to sit 16 hours a day and stare into screens and live around 100,000 other people like ants it’s meant to live in small communities of a few hundred people where every day you have meaningful work to do (struggle) in order to survive, shit like hunting foraging making shelter occasionally bigger shit like handling a bear issue.
B.) move a lot. Again, we need to move not be sedentary. Take a male stray cat that’s dominating the stray population fucking all the bitch cats has those huge wide cat cheeks, has no fears always gets food one of those Chad cats that doesn’t even have to worry about rivals, neuter it and bring in indoors feed it dry kibble. It’s not gonna be the same cat. Same shit. We evolved too fast for our own good. Walk, lift, run use your body.
C.) have hobbies you like for no reason other than you think they’re cool and fulfilling. It gives you something to look forward to.
D.)have your social network. Inb4, yeah trust me I know this is the hardest part it’s what I’m currently working on. Everything else probably comes first. You only need a few people. A few buddies and maybe a gf. Unfortunate reality is it’s practice, trial and error until shit just clicks into place. It’s like dating, sifting through trash having failed attempts until you get the right one.

>>76536796
>>76536799
F.)define real goals. Think of what your life is lacking that’s critical (your own place, a car, hobbies, better job etc), then think of the non critical stuff you want just because you want it (big assed milf who wakes you up with grinding her fat ass on your wood while saying “oooohhh good morning papi blanco I have waffles and espresso waiting after we get out of bed”)
Even all of this won’t truly cure depression but the difference it makes is huge. Easily brings you to a 6/10 in terms of happiness vs being a 1/10. Being content is far better and easier to endure than being miserable.
It’s far easier if you start with pen and paper and write down
>what’s good in life for me
>what’s bad in life for me
>what do I need in life right now
>what do I want in life right now


And I mean it can be physical tangible shit like a car or women, it can be relationships, jobs, health, whatever just write it down. Think think of who you want to be in 5 years. Think of how did you spend the last 5 and what you will do different to be who you wanna be in 5. That was my mistake it was always “damn another year wasted” I made my lists and starting thinking about how I can look back and think “damn, I made the most of these last 5 years”

>>76534224
Welcome back bro :) we miss you in the gym. Waging really does destroy people mentally but having goals outside of it will help you live. Even you don’t feel like it, just go

>>76534597
At least you’re making progress in your life. You can’t be a neet forever. It’s nice that you have downtime. The alternative is working nonstop 8-12 hours a day

>>76536796
I get that but at the same time, people honestly think that traveling solo will change something in your brain. Sure it’s something different to do to get you out of a rut or whatever. But it’s such an extreme change that you’re putting yourself through that I can’t help but think it would be even worse. If it was a small trip like maybe going to another city or state for a few days on your own, that’s one thing, an incremental step. But just dropping everything, needing spending thousands on airfare, hotels, food, activities and amenities, probably in a country where you don’t speak the language and don’t know anyone, and think you’ll just “sink or swim” or are more likely to succeed instead of massively failing seems like a pipe dream.

>>76536537
>Why didn’t you like your family?
I pretty much went through the same experiences you did except the physical thought I can't shake the feeling I got fucked up when I was too young to truly remember. A lot of it came from understanding my unconscious side that made me realize how bad my mind was messed up because of them.

>ok so you don't like socializing and are always mistrustful of people
>this happened because your parents were so full of shit where they'd constantly be blowing smoke up someone's ass 1 moment and talk shit when they were out of the door. especially each other
>they kept trying to install these values they themselves didn't believe in (case in point my dad flipping out, because my mom also found out when i did where 5 stashes of porn were)
>you never could be honest about things with them because when you were actually honest it resulted in humiliation or yelled at for wrong think
>this is also weird because they forced you to read shit in the library and when you ask questions that go against what they say, again, you're in trouble
>they nonstop scream argued from 6th grade to senior year and the 1 and only time you confronted them, your dad disappeared for like 2 weeks. granted he did that on the regular
>hey you remember when your mom said, "1 day your son is gonna be strong enough to beat your ass" to your dad? yeah a lot of families aren't like that
>turns out as a result you coped by spending too much time in video games and cartoons because they were the only thing that congratulated you for doing things your way instead of tearing you down
>also, as another coping mechanism to combat the mental torture, you developed a fantasy world that had a lifespan from 6th grade to senior year that had god knows how many stories that you can still visualize the scenery to this day perfectly

>>76536948
It does you’re right. I actually totally agree, people should recommend traveling on a small scale. Like a state over a nearby city etc. only a few days maybe a week at most. And the most could be made. Go approach randoms make small talk have a daily routine you normally wouldn’t like go to a coffee shop and ship your coffee for an hour hit on random bitches around the city etc etc. nothing to lose. Accomplishes all the same hsit while being what it should, a small step in the right direction towards fixing stuff

>>76536984
>>76536948
Because at the very least it removes you from the familiar environment that has all these ties to everything being pissy. Like if you come home every day while being miserable whether you notice it or not every small thing around your house is a reminder tied to those shitty feels so they amplify. This is true for your commute to work, the people you deal with etc

>>76536975
CONT
>ANY form of confrontation scares you because you always think the other person will blow up in your face AND because you carry the ability to be as ugly
>you also acted like a fucking fag because it was the only way to please them. "you're just like sheldon!" kill me
>your mom taught you learned helplessness and how to be a professional victim. pure coincidence she was/is a fat fuck as well
>your dad taught you have an ego about everything and be right about everything even if you don't know the first goddamn thing about what you're talking about. probably why you like 4chan so much
>neither of them taught you the value of a dollar and your dad was/is a typical boomer spending money of everything he can
>doesn't help growing up in a hoarder's shithole. every time you go home to visit you will feel uncomfortable surrounded by all the junk
>your dad is also a massive drunk and you completely understand sam hyde when he says the dangers of alcohol
>you internalize ALL of this and think this is how everyone is. you walk with a scowl on your face because you're miserable. you act out in retarded ways. you think you're smarter than everyone when in reality you're finding anything to cling on to in order to give you some kind of hope. you get attached to people and jobs with such a deep passionate desire because you desperately want to have hope for a future in any regard
>the older you get the less you can rely on them for anything and the more they start to try and squeeze you for money. your worthless father drank himself to where he can't work anymore and expects you to pay for anything and everything
And to complete this big gay blogpost:
>any time you try to change yourself as an adult, they immediately try to belittle you and establish dominance. same shit as everything listed above to where it isn't worth tolerating at fucking 28. let them die alone in their own personal hell
I'm 30yo and I have to think I'm 20 as I learn how to be my own person

>>76536975
>>76537005
Actually, 1 last thing I wanna add:

Basically i never learned how to be my own person, develop my own interests, and even be able to learn what I genuinely like and dislike besides vidya and gym. I am now petrified with anxiety to try new things because every fucking time I'm reminded how much time has been wasted and that my youth is gone and never coming back. I will never have that childish wonder about things nor the youthful drive out of pure dumb ignorance of what the world is really like. Fuck, even saying "what the world is really like" makes me question if the world sucks or if it is my mindset due to how I was raised that leads me to think like that.

To actually end on a positive note:
For the love of God, NEVER be afraid to cut out your shitty family.

I’m finishing up my third week of basically being a NEET today, combination of mental breakdown taking off two weeks and then family medical issue being off this week and potentially next. I have done literally nothing for three weeks. I have never been more depressed, worthless, and wanting to kill myself as i have over this time

>>76537053
Try 9 months.

>>76537099
Try 16 years!

35. No education past high school. Never held a job. Live with my mom.

But alas. I still feel motivated to hit the gym - gets me out of the house.

Take it away fellas
https://youtu.be/TSgZZ3iQpTE?si=bIp2p-8HsqndsZXA

>>76537099
>>76537120
That’s what I fear will happen to me becuase I need to quit this useless job where I’ve wasted a decade of my life. If these past three weeks are any indicator, i know I would just proceed to do absolutely nothing while rotting and wasting away. I’m just terrified of the prospect of applying for jobs, knowing I’m not qualified for anything and that no company would want to hire a useless retard like me

>>76534604
Mirin’ your arms. How did you get them so big?

>>76536357
So I am very proud of myself for talking to those guys as nervous as it made me, and I’m excited to potentially have a new job.
However I have some worries
>1.5 hour commute
>potentially gonna get started at lower pay than I make now
>what if I’m not cut out for it
Mainly the commute because that’s all that is guaranteed so far. I hate driving where I live.


>pros
It’s a foot in the door in the trades. A step in the right direction.
Even if pay starts lower than I make now it will ultimately go higher.
Will probably lose more weight.
Scheduled should be a bit better. I have a 4 day work week but can’t do anything with my time because no one my age wants to do shit on the weekends anymore and I have to get up at 2am, this job is 9-5 sometimes 7-3 but I only get a 2 day weekend.
>cons
Commute
Lower pay for while
Hard until my body adjusts


I’ve at least accomplished the goal of pushing myself to ask.

>>76536606
Based unc. got any advice on aging gracefully? I'm dreading turning 30 in a couple of years

>>76537540
Just stop drinking, doing drugs, playing vidya, and trying to fuck like you're in your in your teens/early 20s. Note: I am not some puritan faggot saying you are never allowed to do these ever again but if you're getting sloppy drunk every weekend. you're up until you only get 6- hours of sleep, or trying to get with every woman you see at 30+ you're fucking lame. No amount of money or status will ever change that.

>>76537620
>try to fuck fat bitch
>couldn’t get hard
>try again with cialis
>same thing
>try again with a more shapely built for breeding hour glass build fat bitch
>same thing again
>try to fuck 5’4” 90lb bitch
>diamonds
>try to fuck 5’7” 110lb bitch
>diamonds
>try to fuck 5’3” 110lb huge tittie having bitch
>diamonds
I wish I didn’t have this problem. I find the thick and chubby bitches hot I just get turned off when I see them in bed. The only way I could stay hard was by pinning one down in doggy and being super rough while thinking about being some kind of prehistoric cave man who just killed a rival tribe and took their queen as a trophy. My life would be easier if I could pursue them. But I won’t even bother knowing how it goes. I want to be rock hard before foreplay has even initiated the way I am when I’m with a skinnier chick and I know I’m about to fuck like at that point where it’s 100% going to happen.
>wahhh I get too much pussy
No that’s the problem I don’t, it’s rare I can pull an in shape hot girl.

>>76537649
>>76537620
Didn’t mean to reply to you

I hate my job and thinking about work makes me want to die. I work in senior healthcare sales and its so fucking slimy. Salesmen in Independent living are the fucking worst and will knowingly move in people who are not fit for the community and then desperately push super expensive home care on them. Hugely unpleasant, small souled cretins. It's also an extremely small, female dominated industry and it becomes difficult to tell people off, especially as a man. I think working around sick and dying people for 10+ years has fucked me up, I understand that I will die, but the dying and financially stressing my family/not being able to afford it keeps me up at night.

Trying to find a way out, but I need the insurance for my wife and kids. Thought I had a new job in the bag but they promoted internally, only to call me to offer me a job that would require a 2 hour commute which they said would not work for them. I might get fired soon anyway because I don't push the way they want me to. Going to car dealerships this weekend to look for a job. Thanks for reading my gay blog.

>Don't really know what I want out of life
>Don't really know what truly matters to me
>Don't really know what I'm working towards, if anything, or if I'm just spinning my wheels
>Don't really know what compelled me to type this up in the gym parking lot
It's accessories day, boys.

>>76537689
so you think being a car salesman is less slimy? lol

I'm really depressed. If we weren't living in clown world, I would've found some moderate success and settled down and started a family. But I had a shit childhood, spiraled into me trying to entrepreneur my way out of it, and hit the wall. I'm very down.

I've lost a good 20 pounds in the past couple months but I just have no idea on what to do to unfuck my life. I'm not trying to demoralize, just feeling very low.

One day at a time, I guess.

>>76537689
I worked in healthcare for a short period and I saw some of the same. It made me really, really, really pissed off. It’s all about money. No one cares about helping people. Even in the EMS setting you got most firefighters just wanting to boost their image with the job and also get 20 days off a month. Pharma side is obvious. Any sort of smaller clinic side of things is just about money. The only thing which may be a genuine service is free HIV/AIDs testing and even that is usually a business racking in hundreds of thousands a month if it’s state funded. Most doctors are retards who know how to take vitals (easy), google shit and refer to books, and refer you to someone who knows more. Specialists are often just in it for the money and will do procedures knowing it’s not optimal for the patient because it means more money for them. Let’s not even get into the insurance side of things.
It’s a very fucked up and corrupt field. It would be like if I got super powers, told everyone I would protect this planet, and then all I did was jack off all day and promote crime so I was seen as necessary while charging everyone a ton of money to continue doing so. Except sometimes a smaller superhero is born and when he finds out my gimmick his soul is crushed and he no longer wants to do the job.
It’s a souls crushing industry if you’re in it for helping people.
>sick and dying people
That’s what put me off too man. I couldn’t handle it. Started worrying about my own mortality and my parents getting older. It still fucks me up thinking my sister will pass one day. I know I will lose my parents some day, they’re getting up there. It makes me very hollowed out and depressed to think of. I can’t be around death like that, I would dwell like this every night.
I wish you luck on getting out bro.

>>76537739
so whats your point thinking this about healthcare? it pisses you off that people who are supposed to help people want to make money?

how do you feel about almost literally every other field where the only goal is to make more money but doesnt even have the backdrop of helping people as a reason? finance, tech, marketing, pretty much all sales, everything? where everything is about capitalism and making money, but their fields literally do nothing to help anyone at all and in fact are regularly taking advantage of people and society as a whole?

>>76537719
Over homecare for mostly broke, dying seniors and their broke/greedy/stupid/non-existent family? Absolutely. The product I sell is an aide and the service they provide. I'd much rather sell a car, way easier to be upfront about that and try and upsell instead of dealing with someones dying family member and a 20k/month pricetag
>>76537739
Thanks man. I spent my entire 20's surrounded by slow decline and death, which certainly gave me an appreciation for my vitality, but gave me blinders about the closing years.

>>76532093
just fart your problems away, my brapping friend

>>76536619
like the other anon said, just leave her. if you shed the laziness within yourself, you don't need to deal with other people bringing laziness into your household.

it's like someone bringing cocaine into your house. even if they are doing it and not you, it is disrespectful to bring it into your house.

>>76537760
>this turbo dothead being willfully obtuse because he feels personally laighted over my critique towards the field his shit skin father forced him to go into
The point was clear for any non shit for brains. I never explicitly said nor did even slightly imply, insinuate, or say anything to which you could draw the inference that “making money is bad.” In fact the money part was only half my post so it’s straight goofy that it was your only hang up. I’ll let you mentally convulse between trying to maintain feigning ignorance to try and make the non relevant point you’re going for and realizing what my point actually was. In either instance I don’t care about you lol
>>76537771
Yeah man it’s brutal and it’s not for everyone. Also get a load of this moronic faggoid above you trying to twist the objective by claiming he missed the point lmao. “I-it’s not corrupt to force elderly people into care policies they can barely afford that likely won’t benefit them which would still earn ceo man a fat net profit at half price I-it’s le business!” meanwhile you just know that little rat shit has never run a business in his life lmao

>>76537811
what you complain about with healthcare is the same in literally every other field and industry. you just get angry about it because the mystique of "helping keep people healthy/alive" doesnt exist in those other industries.

>>76537828
Name 5 other industry’s that specifically under the guise of helping people exist as a gigantic grift in which those same people are actually getting fucked over on a hardcore scale and I will concede
>he didn’t care about my ad hominem
I’m starting to like you

>>76537857
>>76537828
And to further elaborate I could respect the hustle if 1 people weren’t getting the shit they don’t need but rather it was focused on optimizing people rather than making them worse off often times and 2 everyone was up front about absurd costs for greed reasons

>>76537857
>>76537865
of course healthcare is a gigantic grift. this is america. almost every industry is a gigantic grift. again, you seem to hold healthcare to some higher standard of moral superiority that because they are supposedly helping people, they shouldnt be allowed to grossly profit, but every other industry that also grossly profits and exploits society is apparently not worthy of the same criticism, while not even having a slightly positive effect on society the way healthcare does. at least healthcare has a little bit of benefit to everyone, unlike every other industry.

and with respect to these elderly living facilities, im not trying to defend them, but the reason why they are so expensive is because of all the labor that goes into them needing to live there. having to pay for all the utilities, pay for the facilities themselves, pay for the round the clock staffing for their medical needs, pay for the custodial staff who clean the rooms, the laundry staff, literally everyone. i know its a big grift and big fuck you to these people who worked their entire lives jsut to have to spend all this money to last until the end.

im curious, if you feel this way about human healthcare, what are your thoughts about verterinary care? i ask because i've always found the dichotomy between the two to be pretty funny. with human healthcare, people rage about the ridiculous costs of everything and how its all a ponzi scheme scam but then sing the praises of being healthcare workers because you get paid a lot. whereas vertinary medicine, the staff arent paid nearly what human healthcare staff are paid and they suffer from it but no one seems to care.

>>76537909
Dude I once worked for a medical company owned by like 4 dudes who each were making net profits of $500k in a bad month. We can use all the reasons in the world to justify anything which is inherently wrong. The fact is we know what’s morally correct and what’s not. Your question to me is why do I laser in on medicine when I was making a post replying to an anon who specifically mentioned medicine. It’s that simple. I related to him and tried to show understanding that I’ve seen the same crap. Was I supposed to reply with
>yeah that one corporation buying up all this residential property and selling it at absurd markups is sick haha
?
>vet care
But that’s not what we were talking about, see what I said above. I’ll share anyways: I know for a fact the vast majority of vets do not make that much money, and so they don’t have the kind of incentive to lie to patients and push unnecessary procedures or do things which will just ruin the animals life. Drugs/supplies have stupid markups which is why vet care is expensive.
Forgive me here I’m not trying to be belittling but I’m not exactly sure what your point is if you don’t mind clarifying?
I don’t see anyone singing praise for human healthcare workers quite the opposite. I think you would be surprised at how incompetent most people in medicine are. But even then it’s mostly a thankless job. And why wouldn’t it be when so&so discovered that their braindead family member hadn’t been bathed in months at his facility and has mold growing on his legs, or when sucky mcdickballs was told he couldn’t get the better back surgery that would let him be normal again and instead only get the fusion because his insurance said no
>inb4 well insurance is a differ—
No it’s not.
I’ve seen about the same amount of praise given to everyone as you would see in a retail job. Maybe 1/100 even says thank you, maybe 1/5000 shows actual gratitude. Most see it as you’re doing your job

>>76537909
>>76537963
Like dude doctors push for certain procedures over others to save insurance money so they can keep their contracts. You could be an ideal candidate for a surgery that will let you have your life changed and have the doctor tell you [this other option] is ideal for you instead

>>76537963
>>76537968
yeah you can ignore my completely unrelated thing about vet care. i just brought it up because i always think about it compared to human healthcare and how it almost feels like veterinary care/pricing is what healthcare should be more like, as opposed to the ridiculous ponzi scheme grift that human healthcare and insurance is.
>medical supply companies
yeah, those are some of the biggest offenders of being greedy pieces of shit. its really disgusting to see how healthcare is discussed in society. basically everything comes down to people talking about either how much salary they make, or how much whatever they sell (medical devices, pharmaceuticals, etc) can be profited from. its an absolutely disgusting industry.

>>76523092
Thanks of the encouragement. I can’t wait to look back on these days and smile knowing they’re over.
Stay strong! Your wife and kids need you to be there for them. Just remind yourself that they’re grateful to have your help. Like me, you’ll make it over this mountain soon

Been watching The Sopranos again.
At the episode where Tony and Gloria go to the zoo.
Remember how last year an incredibly cute girl wanted to go to the zoo with me, but I sperged out, frightened her off and it never happened.
I feel bad for both of us to be honest.

>>76537982
I see what you mean. I love animals but it would make way more sense if vet care was the one where small procedures cost human prices under the guise of being this good hearted helpful entity. It IS the most typical business thing, human healthcare. “Create a need, offer way to fulfill that need.” Whole reason we have people on drugs that don’t work which cost like $1000 a pill even though they cost cents to make, the organ donor issue, even more recently we saw a lot of this stuff with Covid which was just a massive cash cow. That’s actually a prime example. Problem was made, “solutions” were made to fix it. Even if you knew what it all was you had no alternative and you had to at the very least go get tested to travel or go to work in many places which if you had to pay out of pocket was easily like $200 even though a box of those tests only cost like $500 for 50 from the medical manufacturers.
Just seems really wrong that not just the money but the morality behind it all. They could at least just be in your face about it “HAHA THIS COULD BE FREE BUT SIGN HERE SHMUCKO PAY $700 FOR A NONINVASIVE 5 SECOND PROCEDURE THATS VERY EASY TO DO AND USES $5 WORTH OF SUPPLIES”
Healthcare in the US could be free (oh idk, end subsidized universal healthcare from the US to Israel and give that to US citizens). On top of what you experience and see working in that field, it’s just one big morally compromised entity. It’s not just death and miserable people you have to see and even help people get scammed. It’s rough to witness it. There’s a ton of people in healthcare doing it under the guise of some kind of hero when the reality is they don’t care about people at all and have no hang ups on taking advantage of people or seeing people suffer

>>76539051
Anon, the only thing people base their morality on in America is money. You have to be willing to sell your soul in bits and pieces to obtain more money. Even if you know what you're doing in wrong from a moral, logistics, operational, perspective that will cause decay. Doesn't matter. Money always has and always be the only thing that motivates Americans to get out of bed. Europe used to be a mix of the 2 but they became too Americanized and started importing stinky browns to fulfill quotas and, simply put, pure fucking greed.

We MIGHT see a turn around when we are elders but to expect anything different for the next 20 years is foolish.

>>76539322
>mix of the 2 of morality and money*

Starting bachata classes in a couple of days. I'm a bit nervous (that's an understatement of the year) because i never visited dancing classes let alone partner dancing classes. I'm going to be incredibly awkward to women but a guy i'm working with did bachata for like 13 years and he said it's fine. He also warned me about random erections during the dancing but said it's okay as well. I dunno why i added this detail i think it's kinda funny.

>>76537691
Sit down and think about what you truly want. What do you want to accomplish? Then think about the small steps you can take. You don’t have to succeed quickly, but setting short term and long term goals will give you purpose

>>76539322
Yeah you can see this in how frequently either the most really important jobs to society’s function are actually the lowest paid, and also how fields and industries that are some of the most moral and helpful are also some of the lowest paid, while usually the most cancerous and even harmful jobs, fields and industries are usually at the top of the common person salary food chain. I understand the logic of skilled vs unskilled labor, that easier and unskilled labor is paid less because you don’t need skills to do it. But the real point is that a lot of the highly paid “skilled” labor, mostly in white collar industries, while they do have specialized knowledge and abilities, is actually having the least effect and benefit in society as a whole, while the low paid unskilled labor or just low paid industries in general are actually the most important. It’s really a shitty process.

>>76539322
Oh absolutely. I don’t deny this. My only point is it’s gross to see it in a field like medicine while also experiencing the other demoralizing intricacies of that field. Seeing it happen all day every day for 72 hours a week on top of the other constant soul crushing shit is just an abysmal time. It makes you wonder what the fuck you actually signed up for.
>sell soul for money
I realized this a while ago. My goal is to be able to make $50k net profit as passively as I can. That’s enough that I can be relatively comfortable, push to grind it to being more if I ever have to (meet a woman start planning for a family etc). My goal isn’t to be rich. It’s to have finances handled so I can enjoy life.
>>76539567
Some sales nerd will say you’re wrong. Which isn’t to say sales isn’t a skill, but the guy selling software to other companies earning $90k base and $150k after commissions isn’t contributing to the world nearly as much as the pipefitters and welders ensuring we all have water and sewage/plumbing who maybe can break six figs if they work 80 hours a week (depends on area tho I heard those guys get average $50/hr in some states).
I know unions and such but I wish trades don’t band together and plan to pool money and resources to set up for mass striking. IMO if you’re destroying your body doing that dangerous nasty shit no one wants to do you should have an average income of six figs off 40 hours.

>>76537738
You can’t change the world, but you can change yourself. Focus on improving yourself one day at a time. Even if they’re small victories, they still show growth

Stay strong anons :)

I wish I could learn how to do stuff for myself. The only ways I’ve ever been driven in life is thinking it would get me lied (means almost nothing to me these days), anger and spite. I just did a bunch of research into service engineering jobs because I have some interest in that sort of work but mostly because I noticed someone I hate is doing that so I wanted to do it better than them and I had to stop myself and realize that’s not living my own life and wouldn’t be sustainable to wake up every day and get after it. I can’t seem to be fucked otherwise. There isn’t anything I actually want. When I wanted pussy I only had to promise myself if I did the things I would get laid and I would wake up every day and rush out of bed yo get started because I believed it. Everything in life feels so dull. I have no purpose nothing that gets me going. So I can’t even get started on improving. I need a vision but I am blind.

>>76518118 (OP)
>fell for "the showing weakness to a woman" meme
Off to a great start this week.
I hope I don't fuck up my workout too next week.

>>76541819
There is no greater purpose. A lot of autists and browns will say I'm blackpilling but everywhere in the world is about to become a third world within the next 5 years and there is no avoiding it. Literally lie, cheat, scam, and steal whatever you can and get far away from soiciety as possible.

>>76541956
>no greater purpose
Than what? Doing it for myself? I understand that but despite this it just doesn’t matter to me. Which is pretty damn ironic considering that things like hate and spite are driving factors because that kind of implies I think I’m more deserving of success than those I dislike.

>>76538512
Don’t fumble chances like that next time. You’ll only create more regrets if you keep making the same mistakes

>>76534574
thanks my brother

>>76539355
Good luck! I hope you get a gf from this activity. If you’re really worried about erections, wear tight briefs

I appreciate these threads. Keep your heads up anons. o7

>>76518118 (OP)
I found a job I may enjoy that mostly meets my criteria.
>engineering technician
$50-$80k, can make six figs with OT, opens door to go engineering down the line if I want to (but I’d rather be the ones building and testing shit instead of planning stuff and designing behind a screen), only requires an associates and maybe some field specific certs and I have most of my associates done so I’d just need a few additional classes. It’s working with my hands but also doing some technical stuff using some design stuff some computer based trouble shooting. There’s a lot of fields I could go into, I would probably do stuff with boats though. Would probably be some mechanic work, welding, soldering, just building shit and testing it. Could open a lot of doors in that field alone, could open doors for other fields. Gonna give myself until after December to plan and get lean.


Could probably do the classes online while I work full time and have them done within 2-3 semesters depending on if I do part time or not.
Part of me would like to, if I’m going back to school, actually do on campus classes so I can socialize and maybe get some pussy. I’m 29. I live on my own now. If I lost the rest of my fat and looked even close to how I did at 20 I should definitely have an easy enough time meeting some girls. Back then I got laid just existing and asking. Would probably be best that I lock myself in the library after class for a couple hours anyways so may as well go in person. It’s just a small additional bonus to help me stay motivated on this. Nothings decided yet, but so far this sounds promising.

>>76544877
Is this wrong, that I don’t care to make much past $80k? I just want to be comfortable, have enough to build my savings and also have some fun. The option is there to go back to school and get a bachelors go engi like if I met a woman and we wanted kids and I needed the extra money. But it’s just me, I don’t want to be corrupted by money. I just wanna be comfortable, able to occasionally buy myself some cool shit or go on a trip.

>>76544877
>>76544900
>double dub posting
Here's the thing: $80k is barely above a poverty level. I want to believe Trump is going to make a difference and lower prices ((((experts))) need not respond) but I am cautious at best. The fact of the matter is that inflation is growing at a crazy rate. $80k would have been the answer to all my prayers 5 years ago but now has the purchasing power of dick. You can't even afford a proper home unless you wanna live in the hood.

Basically, what you make is good enough right now but it will start to taper off in terms of purchasing power. If you wanna live the comfy loner life then you won. If you wanna do anything more, especially like starting a family, you will need more if you want to maintain the same level of comfy.

Also, how is it $50k-$80k? If you are making $50k how do you work enough OT to make $100k?

>>76543405
I don't know how many chances like that I'm going to get, but I know, man. I have to assure myself it would've just been a waste of time so I don't feel too bad about it all. My car feels soiled because that's where I fumbled it.

You guys get a slingshot yet?

>>76545354
I make $35k right now. I’m poor. In my circumstances I get by paycheck to paycheck maybe add $200 to my savings if I’m lucky every other month. $80k right now would let me be pretty comfortable. I would be saving like half of that. That’s why I chose those numbers. Rent an apartment.
My goal is all about contingency. It’s about savings.
>wanna go back to school full time and be an engineer (assuming I do this engineer tech thing)
Hopefully I can have 2 years of expenses saved by then and work part time hours even if I have to quit job to work retail to do that
>shit hits the fan get in car wreck etc
Again, savings
>wanna retire?
Hopefully I have a certain amount saved.


That’s what I’m trying to plan for, while also trying not to sell my soul to money. If I needed $80k to just get by the number would change a lot, it would be $160k. This may be C student mindset but I just wanna live life and not stress about shit that doesn’t truly make me happy. Money DOES bring happiness but that’s more so only at a certain point of comfort in my opinion and I’ve determined that point off me is fairly low compared to most due to my specific circumstances

>>76546556
>>76545354
Oh and what I was reading was more so about if someone in that field is clearing $80k and they work OT they can earn over $100k. That requires enough years experience to be earning that much. Early years pay average is about $55k, so would require like an additional 20 hours a week to achieve $100k which in all honesty isn’t bad if I could do 10-12 hour shifts

>>76545354
i make 136k now and i was easily living better at 100k in 2018. i really wish some of those covid cunts got hanged

>need to twist body to reach ass in the answer because lat pump
achievement unlocked

I WILL MEET ALL OF MY DEADLINES AT WORK
I WILL STUDY HARD
I WILL PASS MY LEVEL 3 CFA EXAM ON MY NEXT ATTEMPT
I WILL MAKE IT OVER THIS MOUNTAIN

I’ve made mistakes at work, but I’m also making progress. I think I’ll do much better next filing since I understand my job a lot more. I just need to continue growing and surviving. I’ll be decent at this job as long as no new regulations are passed. I need to remain optimistic about what could happen

Studying has its ups and downs. I’m doing better than last time, but by no means is it easy. Yet I feel like I’m growing a little bit everyday. I have over 150 days until the exam. If I learn from every question I’ve gotten wrong and continue applying myself, I will pass this exam. I’m ready to reach the summit.

The man you are today must brutally mog the man you were yesterday. No matter how many times you stumble on the path, keep pushing forward! WAGMI

>>76547168
Anon he was replying to. That’s another part. I COULD go for something where I have no work life balance probably get like $40k more per year but then I’d just hate my life. I don’t want to feel like I’m earning money I can’t spend while paying rent on an apartment I don’t get to enjoy. It doesn’t matter what the job is at that point I’d begin to resent it. I know my limits with burnout. I’d rather earn less and be sustainable and happier and just have my needs met.
Ironically I’d far more prefer to earn $50k having no life whatsoever working for myself than anything but that’s easier said than done

>>76547395
it wasn't work/life balance - i was working harder and longer for that 100k but my dollar wasn't raped to death. I had a larger bonus, rent and food weren't nuts, and i was doing a job that i loved.

inflation and covid and offshoring fucking murdered that. now my life blends together in this bullshit remote work era and i have to spend 2k a year on a coworking space so i dont murder my wife after i destroy the toilet

>>76541907
It’s a new week, let yourself start over fresh

>>76547542
>just had a great workout 10 min before this post
Well, thank anon.

>>76518118 (OP)
Ok, i dont want to be a wagie anymore. What type of business i can create that does not demand all my time?
Laundromat, storage, AI (i want to learn how to create something)
I WILL NOT BE A WAGIE ALL MY LIFE.
I WILL BE FREE.
I WILL BE HAPPY, HEALTHY AND FIT.

I am still a 24 year old virgin schizoid doomer. I am no longer a wagie.

I feel weird now. The mushroom trip a week ago was fun and quite insightful, but now I'm closer to emotional baseline. I moved on from where I was last staying in Thailand as it was time. I'm at what is effectively a hippie resort for Westerners. My friend and I parted ways after smoking one last time. It's weird though, I feel all down and sad now for some reason, especially in regards to the past and future. I feel worried. When I see posts like this, it sure doesn't help as it digs in and reminds me of the painful past. I feel like even if I succeed now, it'd be too little too late. And that I'm running out of time.

Some things do inspire faith. After our respective trips, my friend and I opened up a bit, me about being incel and him about other stuff, and I was surprised at how relatively well recieved the info about me was. And I tried to open up a bit and socialize more in general following the trip.

I still fear I may be doomed in the end as I've had a continual lifelong streak of bad luck. In any case, I will fatalistically try anyway and maybe try to hit on some girls at this new place I'm in, and I'm also working on a hentai VN game since even if I can't retire, I'd rather draw anime girls for coomers indefinitely so I can wander the world indefinitely than end up in a cubicle cuck position.

https://x.com/draws_tc?t=wS4JOrX4vciR0LwmPgqs0w&s=09

>>76547542
Clippy you bastard

Wife's surgery to clean up the miscarriage went well. Now we just wait until her cycle starts back up and we can try again. Going to have my sperm test this week, should have results by next Monday. I don't think that was the issue but it's at least something I can look into.

had my annual physical and bloodwork done last week. blood pressure is elevated but nothing serious. Everything else is working better than it rightfully should after abusing my body for two decades.

At 105 pounds on OHP, which is a PR for now. Taking my time on bench and deadlift, but should be hitting my PR on bench (170) in a few weeks. Added a km to my "long run" on Saturday for the first time and had no trouble. 6km for now, hoping to get that into a 10k.

inlaws booked a shorehouse for the next month and honestly kinda pissed because i dont need four weekends of resisting shitty food. guess i'll reframe it as an exercise in willpower.

Speaking of which, started reading ten pages a day. Finished Reframe Your Brain by Scott Adams, beginning Inner Excellence by some guy. What a tough habit to pick back up, its so bizarre to just focus on a book it almost feels like I'm training for that. Almost done studying for a data management exam, should be taking that in the next two weeks.

Another interview this week, would be a nearly 50k boost in salary. Don't know why they want to talk to me but should be interesting nonetheless. If anything it might lead to more interviews and wearing those suits I'm getting tailored.

definitely copying and pasting this when the thread gets nuked in ten minutes.

>>76547559
How much mushrooms did you take? I took about 3.1 gs earlier this week, my friends and I went on a hike. First time tripping during the day, so after the comedown wore off I felt strange for a while. It wasn't a bad feeling, just a little aimless.

>>76518118 (OP)
Thank you for banning me, janny. I can now focus on studying more. However, when my ban expires later this week you better believe I will continue to call out niggers, jeets, cunts, and trannies when I see them. You'd think after this site getting hacked earlier this year they'd tone it down but they seem to have ramped up their "no fun allowed" policies.

No matter, this site is dead in spirit. It's nothing more than literal Discord trannies and browns posting coombait-lite and posting double digit IQ retardation.

Fuck nannies
Fuck trannies
Fuck niggers
I hope the next time /qa/ takes down this site it's for good.

>>76547656
3g exactly. It was great and insightful like I said, but the feeling doesn't last and some things catch up to you, some things you can't run away from. It's getting late so I should get to bed. Hopefully tomorrow I can have some fun experiences in this new place I'm in

>>76547634
Congrats on your strength! It’s impressive that you’re still hitting PRs. Adopt a positive attitude towards your interview. They wouldn’t be talking to you if they didn’t want you. Good luck on it!

>>76518118 (OP)
I have been unsure of living for a while now. But I do know that pic rel is true. So I wait.

I do soccer refereeing, both as a hobby and for extra money, and busted my ass all weekend doing games. Was out from 830a-6p on saturday, and from 830a-7p on sunday by myself. And it was a hot weekend, mid to high 80s both days. Made over $1200 which will likely never be financially matched again, but I called out work today from general fatigue and especially with my legs. Even though I'm sitting here not working on a Monday, and who knows if I'll be recovered by tomorrow, it feels a lot better knowing that I worked hard and need to recover leading to being off rather than just not doing anything

>>76547198
Congrats bro!

I discovered the secret to not feeling like shit, mentally and physically: fasting and HIIT sprints. It knocked the bitch right out of me.

Obligatory WAGMI

>>76548100
I don’t know how high the ceiling is for me but I want to know I reached it

>>76548518
I didn’t know that but I might follow your example. WAGMI

Stop listening to doomers and especially zoomers. They've not accomplished anything in their lives. Why are you taking advice from never beens and could never bes?

>>76548100
additional this

>>76548175
I’m glad you can enjoy this feeling. There’s a certain joy in physical exertion, especially if you work a sedentary job

>>76549053
Stop taking advice from fags who have never had to deal with a job economy where there were 15k jobs made to 1,000,000 layoffs.
AKA: (You)
Zoomers struggle harder than any other generation in our lives.

>>76549396
No they don't. You think you're special but you're not.

>>76549399
The only time anyone came close to this were 08 millennials. They have to lie about numbers it is so bad

>>76549424
The world existed before the 1980s.

>>76549431
And when was the last time pre 80s when the job market was this bad besides the Depression?

Also, are you vaxed?

>>76549053
Agreed. We have to believe that we’ll make it

>>76549443
People did a lot more with a lot less a thousand years ago, even a hundred years ago. You're spoiled by civilization and are trying to be a victim. Grow up.

>>76549603
>answers neither question
I accept your concession, you glownigger. I cannot wait for Muttmerica to fall. Your propaganda is weak and you know it.

>>76549623
>Buzzwords
You're the only one that's ever suffered from joblessness. Enjoy nothing.

>>76549631
So what's the actual solution besides generic shit that brown people post?

>>76549713
Nta but what exactly is your problem? Phrase it in a “Anon I have this problem what’s my solution?” Kind of way
>jobless
Honestly man if it’s that you have multiple options. Disregard any of the lies BS you hear like trades nursing/EMT trucking. Those are shitty jobs that will crush your soul while also having the same exact problem as every other field of not actually hiring.
I would look into every single field and the various jobs. Think about your interests, then think about common problems relating to them and find jobs that fix those problems. Just business 101, create a problem sell the solution. Find a job that way. And you should have some natural competency for it.
>already have degree or certs can’t get hired. Make AI create the resume. Lie on resume, friend as reference, claim it was a startup company that shut down.
That’s really the only option. The game isn’t fair playing a game you can’t win is stupid but playing a game you can’t win with cheats is based.
You can also try calling companies who never hired you and asking for specifics about your upcoming interview, do it enough you’re bound to get a company that’s hiring and believes you and gives you interviews. Most will know you’re full of shit. Do research on who’s who in tge conpany

>>76549825
>don't do trades or nursing, the only 2 jobs hiring
Anon, at this point there is no other choice besides these. I've been looking for 9 goddamn months and can say the summer has been a drought and much worse than even this time last year. At first it was good, below average but good, but orange retard is preventing any company from expanding because muh tariffs.
>just lie right to the company's face
That's a great way to end up on a blacklist. Tell me what you do and how you got it and I'll judge whether or not this means anything.

Guys I think I have a date.
Me and this woman, who is 44 to my 35, am going to go walk dogs from the shelter at the park and later that night get sushi.
She owns a big house and has a decent career and I'm a rentcuck who's trying to get out of his.
I've worked with her at the animal shelter for a year and a half and she's well aware of my autism but she's in her "I hate people" phase right now but wants to walk dogs with me.
what is life

>>76550078
Oh right, why this is /fit/ related
This is right after she saw my calves for the first time because I was helping out with a concert but didn't have clean pants and wore shorts.
She commented, "I think you're whiter than me..."
But in retrospect maybe that's the excuse she needed for mirin' my calves.

>>76550078
>>76550085
do you work at the animal shelter, or volunteer just walking dogs?

>>76550094
I used to work there on weekends but now I just pop in once per weekend to just volunteer.
Unless your shelter is poppin' I would not go there to meet girls. Most of them are there for 2-3 weeks max while they do their community service hours and then they're gone.

>>76550085
Are those your calves? If so, how fat are you? Not even trying to be a dick but those look like fat guy calves and shorts

>>76550085
>>76550078
Cute doggy :3
Just give it a chance. Even if it leads nowhere, you can say you tried. Women are mirin’ you now

>>76550154
200lbs but used to be 240
they are absolutely fat guy calves but it just kinda happens when you weight that much and do 15k-20k steps a day for work walking around outside. Also genetics.
>>76550158
I could sure as hell use the oxytocin boost so I'll just have fun with the day and evening.
no one said "date" or "go out" but like hell if I know how this all actually works.

>>76550175
If this is current you, don't fucking do it unless you want to actually have a friend and PLEASE understand how male female """friendships""" work.

>>76550078
>35
>44
>”dating”
Holy shit people are BROKEN

>>76550207
>don't fucking do it unless you want to actually have a friend
I think having a friend would be healthy and good for my gains. I am in no position to date right now to be quite desu with you senpai.
>>76550220
Monday's indomitable spirit, fren

How do I even undo years of loneliness, isolation and ostracization? Flying to the other side of the planet hasn't helped much
>>76550228
Good luck.

>>76550175
Whatever. Just go in with a positive mentality.

>>76550310
start with seconds, minutes, hours, days.

>>76550310
>>76551537
this but unironically + get a slingshot

>>76549907
My situation is much better than yours but I’m a step ahead of you. I’m a merchandiser. Essentially a stock clerk who works for a company with products in various locations. Got the job because I wanted ANYTHING to at least be able to say currently employed in my resume to boost chances at getting a better job. You should lie and do that get some bullshit job revise resume so you have the current job in place of the fake one. Or just say you’re doing DoorDash since they can’t fucking verify that.
>what km about to do
I looked into military I looked into unions and trades some anon in a different thread a few nights ago recommending I look into engineering technician. I posted about it in this thread earlier. I can take online classes while I work and probably be done within 6 months, would likely start at $55k. Still researching supposedly actually isnt hard to get hired many fields many opportunities. But thats the same shit they said about trades and medical.
>trades
Unless you get into a company where you 100% only have 40 hours and only taking OT when you want it doesn’t reflect on you (make you first to get fired when boss man wants to hire his nephew) I wouldn’t do it man.
Not to mention, I’ve applied to hundreds of entry level helper positions and never got a call back. These faggots are demanding a helper has 3+ years experience. They all bitch and moan about how no one wants to work trades but come to find out they don’t fucking hire for the position meant to give you experience unless you have certs and experience.
>nursing
If you’re willing to go through the school by all means. Just don’t go ER and you’ll be fine once you adjust to the sleep patterns, if you do. But it will still suck. Alternatively you could do travel nursing and bust ass for 4 months making $60+ an hour then fuck off for 3 months then take the next contract and so on.
Similar shit, claims to be in high demand but low and behold fully licensed and nada

>>76550154
bro his knee is fat he's an obeast

>>76550310
Keep on trying and putting yourself out there. Even if you suck, you’re getting better

>>76518118 (OP)
Concession time. I'm 2 selfies away from opening a dating app profile.
I'm 15% bf, hideously ugly (maybe not objectively but this is how I feel) and a virgin.
Mistake?

I got completely rejected by the perfect (for me) woman, and I was feeling optimistic for once. I'll funnel my frustration into my workouts, but it'll take me a long long time to get over her.
What's the healthiest way to go about this? I don't think that sleeping with random women would help, and I'm not the kind of guy that can easily find a gf so I don't know how to fill the void that I'm feeling right now

WAGMI

>>76552005
If you have zero self esteem and are mentally weak then yes it is

Bout to start retardmaxxing

>>76551713
Oh look, another fucking nobody is telling me what to do. I should've stayed off this website after soƴjaks became popular.

>>76552293
White people save themselves. You're a retarded third worlder that needs better men to come save you. Here's an advice. Kys. You're worthless, the world would be better without you in it.

>>76537035
>>76537005
>>76536975
You might benefit from ACoA (anonymous support for shitty anon with shitty family and internalized bs).

>>76538512
>>76545508

if it hasn't been too much time, you have a decent out

>It's not you, I just feel that zoos imprison and mistreat animals, so I wouldn't feel right about going.
>How about a movie?

>(don't choose a movie that has animal abuse btw)

>>76548518
i have been on and off the proverbial train many times and every time I get back on I "rediscover" this exact fact

it's interesting how my own body can "forget" certain things that my mind used to know. humans are a LOT dumber than they realize.

Thread hit bump limit and about to die. It's almost Wednesday but I still think we should create another thread.

>>76553182
well this one was a leftover from last week

>>76553182
Maybe we need /SIG/ back or a /fit/ motivation general