>>82222681
Charity Therapy, anyone?
Im a straight guy but i figured i come to you guys to ask for advice since you guys are less judgemental & more accepting. I think im in the closet, and knowing this really makes me conflicted. I dont want to be known as a fag / submissive. My ego fights this reality everyday because im attracted to woman and desire that women see me as strong / masculine. I hate the feeling of watching a girl im into, be visually attracted / aroused by another man thats better than me. But i also hate the narcissistic parts of me that sinks my teeth into the acts of me getting praise and instead of being grateful for it, i let it boost my ego. I honestly dont want to be like this, i find it feminine and unattractive. Is there still a way to be masculine and have women respect you, truly, and also be a little gay? I think the only way to overcome this, without making me bitter, is being secure / successful in my own life. Im a pretty boy & soldier type. pic rel. I've hustled all my life to get myself financial set for life & retire by 30, but it hasnt come yet. Other than having fun as a creative, i dont know what i would do if i was financially set. Part of me wants to get a very youthful and attractive & cute girlfriend & have TONS of sex with her. Im healthy & my libido is very high. But i swing both ways, 85% women 15% men. My fantasy is to shoot porn in my master bedroom that i spent a lot of money decorating & making it perfect, and invite a bull over. Im picky, so i essentially need his dick to be nice, a certain thickness, and atleast 9.5 inches long. I want to shoot very specific very hot videos of him poking my wife, and then me. I would probably be very turned on the first time since i keep repressing this side of me. But the only reason i dont actively seek this is the humiliation / disrespect that constantly gets spewed on here by bitter people trying to de-humanize & sissify people like me, so i discipline myself & just fap. (1/?)