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> it's not surprising you wouldn't find many people attractive
I don’t think it’s that, I think I’m just weird. I didn’t get my first crush until 21. Didn’t get my first kiss until this year. Sure I can see a guy and think “oh he’s hot and now I’m feeling funny” but it’s very rare for me to feel anything beyond that. To get those proper feelings of attraction where I want to get to know him better and be around him more I usually need to have known him for a bit. Not always tho, on rare occasions I’ve felt it for a guy I just saw. Idk it’s a whole thing. It’s frustrating because I’m honestly lonely as fuck and a husband and kids are honestly my only real goals in life (obvi my career too but that more of a “since I’m alive I need a job and I like this one” thing) but I can’t really get a husband when I’m attracted to like 2 people a year