I used a reference, I tried getting proportions right, I literally started with a stick figure, then with shapes, then with more shapes, then traced it all... ONLY FOR IT TO LOOK DISGUSTING AND UGLY AND HORRIBLE AND SHITTY.

I really FUCKING TRIED. I gave it ALL I GOT... It took me ONE HOUR for the SKETCH... My younger (and extremely talented) friend would have done this in 10 minutes... And she woyld have also probably done a BETTER version of this pose in 30... And then made it fully rendered and stuff in like 3 hours...

It looks like a MAN who REALLY NEEDS TO GO PEE... I wanted to draw a (female) anime character I really like kneeling down in a cute pose but I instead ended up making THIS ABOMINATION...

The anatomy is so wrong it's crazy... Is this a human or a deformed alien? Some 14 year old amputee without both arms could do better than me with his left foot BLINDFOLDED... This isn't art, this is a disgrace to EVERYTHING THAT IS CALLED ART.

I hate it. I hate how no matter how much I try nothing goes according to plan... Or hoe I csn basically not draw ANYTHING correctly, letalone color, render ir FINISH ANYTHING because nothing I do is RIGHT.

Should I just start over until it LOOKS RIGHT (there's no fixing this one) It looks way too 2D and nothing looks right...

Or should I just give up on art entirely and find a new thing to be good at or just commit to school because I won't do anyhing special with my life anyways as I'm a failure of a human being.