I have an entire imaginary existence that I retreat into nearly every second of every day. It's not that different from my real life except I have a partner who understands my emotional needs and supports me while I have to deal with bullshit and pain constantly. I've thought about looking for a real partner but they'd would definitely not even put in half the effort of my imaginary one. They used to be female, but then I couldn't stop imagining them cheating on me. Even in my dreams I can't see women as anything but unfaithful whores. So I turned them into a man, which feels safer. And he can defend me from bullies. Anyways probably gonna kill myself soon, thanks for listening
