>>942379308
you sound a bit better off than me.
>37
>haven't dated for over two years
>before that dated and cohabitated with the same woman for 12 years
>severely depressed, tried to kill myself when she wanted to open up the relationship
>spent nearly a month in the psych ward on suicide watch
>got out, moved back in with my mother
>lost my job
>friends abandoned me
>had to move out of childhood home into shitty two bedroom apartment with mild roach problems
>been job hunting for a year while also getting a security license
>spend pretty much entire day watching anime or youtube while sporadically job hunting and doing a bit of 3D modeling for fun in blender
>only leave apartment to take dog for a walk
>have only actually felt a desire to live for the last couple of months
>no idea how to do it

I need a win or I'm giving the fuck up. I can't keep living like this.