Thread 942379308

How do I stop being a fucking loser /b/?

>28 male
>115kg
>6k debt
>only go outside my house to go shopping or work (minimum wage)
>only have one friend really
>have basically a break down if I'm around more than 3 people
>can't even get along with people on discord
>tried killing myself 5 times but fucked up each time
>Only ever had 1 gf who cheated on me
>tried gyming for a year, gave up because crowds
>got no hobbies anymore, everything is too expensive
>jump at my own shadow (literally)
>yellow teeth depression

pic unrelated, just like Emily

I don't know what to tell you Anon, you're below the lowest of the low. How do you manage to fail to off yourself 5 times? How do you manage to get 6 thousand dollars in debt if you don't leave your house? I can understand being extremely antisocial, but your intelligence has to span beyond different methods of jerking off. Maybe you should call your Mom or something, you need to find an outlet somehow

>>942379308 (OP)
change your habits and make some effort to gain skills and self integrity, or embrace your faults and learn to be happy for who you already are
it's not bad to be shy, and so what if you're scared of life?
embrace those facts, and move on. they shouldn't make you unhappy
learn to be comfortable in your own skin, and you'll do fine Anon

>>942380580
I mainly just keep waking up after alcohol and pill combo, dunno how i'd set up a noose since modern houses just suck for finding something to tie around. In debt because I keep buying stupid shit to give me the 5 seconds of happy juice. Calling mom is an idea but our relationship ain't the best, I treated her like garbage when she was in the loony bin, don't forgive myself for that. She reaches out to me ever now and then but I'm always cold. dunno why, I do love her

>>942380670
I've tried, I really have. But every time something knocks me down. I can go maybe a month of being happy then boom something happens and I just retreat. I want to tell myself to grow up but every other part of me say "just avoid people or go quiet"

>>942380884
why let the happening harm you? why do you let it bring you down?
maybe you are too invested in emotion and the things driving your emotion
i mean bad things or good things happen, but they should not disturb you to such a level that they ruin your "peace of mind"
sometimes horrible things happen, and a time of grieving or reflection is normal, and necessary, but if you're letting desire and loneliness (guessing) get the best of you
and that should change
even if you decide to be alone, there's no point in wallowing in it
and
if you're not happy being alone, then go socialize, and stop caring what you imagine others think of you
and even if you hit rough patches in life, like most of us do from time to time, don't let it stop you
meet life with a calm smile, and don't let yourself be excited or depressed by irrelevant happenings/happenstance
that'd be my advice, but some people love wallowing in their own misery
it becomes like a drug to them, and they'll find any excuse to retreat to it
if that's you, fine. embrace it and accept it. make peace with it, and accept it as your "home". the place where you belong
that's your choice too. it's always your choice

>>942379308 (OP)
you sound a bit better off than me.
>37
>haven't dated for over two years
>before that dated and cohabitated with the same woman for 12 years
>severely depressed, tried to kill myself when she wanted to open up the relationship
>spent nearly a month in the psych ward on suicide watch
>got out, moved back in with my mother
>lost my job
>friends abandoned me
>had to move out of childhood home into shitty two bedroom apartment with mild roach problems
>been job hunting for a year while also getting a security license
>spend pretty much entire day watching anime or youtube while sporadically job hunting and doing a bit of 3D modeling for fun in blender
>only leave apartment to take dog for a walk
>have only actually felt a desire to live for the last couple of months
>no idea how to do it

I need a win or I'm giving the fuck up. I can't keep living like this.