>>940035652
You know what I first starting shoplifting I used to have to drink to do it. Not only to get loose enough to not be nervous but more so for the after math and feeling like a real like heel. Over time I just didn't need liquor at all to do it. For that part in my brain where the consciousness is has now been diminished, repressed, excised, excoriated from my psyche entirely. So don't steal or do....other.....antisocial acts no matter how tempting or else over time it WILL destroy your conscious and it's as frightening as it is liberating. No joke. One learns to "condition out" guilt and regret as it were over time. Why I can build such giant walls of denial that even I can't climb over them. It's messed up when you know you are doing it too and are introspective person to start with. It really is.