>>41396847
realizing this is it and it won’t really ever get better and i’ll never malefail again

Look at this shit. Look at this stupid bullshit. “Hey cutie, you’re so hot.” This shit comes up in my DMs every single day! Automatically! “You’re so pretty, wanna hang out sometime?” Every single day! And every single day I click “later.” You know why I click “later?” Because there’s no option to click “never.” I’d like to click “never,” I never want to deal with these bullshit, meaningless, superfluous- I HATE THEM! I HATE THESE STUPID CHASERS! Look at this shit! Every day this comes up! And you know what happens after you click “later” a few times, when a few days goes by and you keep clicking “later” and “later” cuz you don’t wanna fucking deal with it, you just want to put it off, this automatic bullshit that interrupts your peace, and makes you confront some horny dude you don’t care about, and you click “later” every day? Eventually, it takes away the option to even click “later” and it just says “These are your only options.” It’s basically putting a gun to your head and saying you can either- you can either fucking- you- you can either wait 11 minutes and I’ll be outside your house, or you can just, y’know, bite the bullet and agree to go out now! It doesn’t even give you a choice to say no! It just comes up, whenever it wants, automatically and says “Fuck you, we’re turning you into my fetish, no matter what you’re doing in 10 minutes and 47 seconds!” Look at this shit! I AM FUCKING LIVING MY LIFE, YOU AGP COCK SUCKER!!!! I’M DOING IMPORTANT SHIT! WHY DO YOU NEED TO DM ME? WHAT FOR? SOME MORE FUCKING VALIDATION FOR YOUR EGO SO YOU CAN KEEP JERKING OFF TO ME LIKE I’M PORN? REDDIT!!!! YOU FUCKING CHASER! I'M A LESBIAN!! YOU MADE ME A LESBIAN!!

I've been on Hrt for 14 months and I feel mostly the same as a person except that I can cry now?
When do i ascend to consciousness 2.0 but also sadly get the drawback of wanting to be fucked by men?