Thread 40932741

I've been on Hrt for 14 months and I feel mostly the same as a person except that I can cry now?
When do i ascend to consciousness 2.0 but also sadly get the drawback of wanting to be fucked by men?

>>40932741 (OP)
get your labs checked and keep your testosterone supressed and estradiol good and throw some progesterone into the mix and give it a couple years and your brain will rewire.

>>40932752
This was when I was on Een 10 every 10 days. Now I'm on the same amount but 8 days.
Also gonna start prog In december cuz thats 18 months from starting.
Someone recomended me that 18months should be the latest that i start it.

tbdesu i don't think there is such a thing
changes to sexuality are definitely real and that happened to me but you're not becoming a new or different person nona you're just changing your external appearance
i think what some ppl may interpret as a change in personality (or "consciousness") is a natural and involuntary reaction to the world beginning to treat you differently from the outside. you sort of learn to fit the new groove of life, i guess. but you don't become anyone you're not.

this is just my two cents, though. maybe somebody else has three.

>>40932741 (OP)
you're faketrans sorry
I legit started feeling like I was dropped into a strangers life at about 6 months at the latest

>>40932741 (OP)
make friends with women

>>40932993
Its hard. I can barely hold 2 female friends and desu im not that interested in keeping in touch with them hardly more than once in 2 weeks.

>>40932831
Feeling as if you are becoming a new person is faketrans. I always felt myself to be a girl while you felt yourself to be a boy becoming a girl. We are not the same.

>>40932741 (OP)
>I've been on Hrt for 14 months and I feel mostly the same
you will grow a female brain in your ass in the next few days

>>40934052
^_^
So happy to get 2.0

>>40932780
That T is pretty high nona...

>>40932741 (OP)
I still can't cry because iwnbaw

>>40932741 (OP)
It’ll all happen once you start prog

>>40932741 (OP)
you get out what you put in. start working on your emotional awareness and ability to read subtext. if you go loopy and start hallucinating, this is normal. you have been selected to be a spiritually sensitive tranny and youll get used to it if you read vaguely occulty things and enter into autistic pattern recognition mode.

>>40934046
This

>>40934046
well I feel like there's the boomerhon version of omg I'm a girl now teehee
and the tortured midshit version of finally I am a fucking human being again

>>40932780
your estrogen needs to be like 3x that nona

>>40936690
That was like right before injecting again

>>40932741 (OP)
What the fuck are you talking about?

>>40936674
accurate assessment

>>40941317
when you take estrogen long enough satan swaps out your brain parts and makes you like men

>>40932741 (OP)
never retard that's honscience i've been on HRT since 17 with great levels and I just grew up like a normal person
stop being a misogynist

I don't think you ever get it, normal people don't have a tape playing in their head "im a man im a man im a man" or something. If it works you just kinda, get comfy and that's that.

>>40941407
> I just grew up like a normal person
> posts on the 4chan fag board
of course.

>>40936674
y'all really start injecting estrogen, grow tits and all of a sudden all of life's problems are solved, huh? interesting...

>>40941480
testosterone suppresses emotions which makes being a repper an even more soul-crushing experience. once you're finally relieved of that burden you experience life completely differently than before. it's a midshit thing mostly.

>>40941567
then why have I always been a histrionic, vain faggot crybaby although my body runs on testosterone?
> inb4 levels
They are fine, slightly elevated even. I checked.

>>40941567
i was dissociated my entire life before i started e at 22
now im acutely aware of the immense pain im in at all times
im too scared to quit hrt but i wish i could go back to feeling nothing

>>40941588
were you repressed? did you deny yourself at all? i mean everybody's experience is different but some people grow up incredibly repressed due to upbringing/religion/culture stuff.
a lot of midshits are former repressors who went all in on hard denial and fucked themselves up pretty bad because of it. it's why they're midshits in the first place, it took years for them to even try to be their authentic selves.
>>40941649
case in point, it's rough out there for some of us tranners
(i hope you heal anon these things take time don't give up)

>>40932741 (OP)
The last drops of your manhood are stored in your prostate............... you know what to do

>>40941936
>i hope you heal anon these things take time don't give up
ty
im not going to make it but i wish the best for you

I wish it did change my mind .

>>40932741 (OP)
Yep when???

>>40941649
same with dissociation but honestly I would never go back, I'm glad I can finally feel the pain of my fucked up life, it's still so much better than neverending apathy
like on purely objective terms was my life better pre-HRT? sure
but I'll happily feel the hell I'm living in now because it's finally real you know
idk probably makes no sense
hope things get better for you though

>>40932741 (OP)
what if you're an npc with no consciousness at all