They haven't really blacked pilled me entirely just yet. It's more of my own nature that is the problem. I don't see myself being able to even get in a relationship it's too hard and complicated and full of stress. Luckily for me I've been able to put up with it so far most of my life and it doesn't bother me much. Unironically just having a close friend that is a girl sounds like a better time than one for an intimate relationship and how much work that involves getting and keeping one.