>>82301043
>How deep runs the regret?
buddy, you've got no idea. how about this: i was very briefly together with this girl a couple times FIFTEEN YEARS AGO and maintained the same social circle. she went back to my then-friend and i got to sit there and watch her be leeched on and more or less abused and try and kill herself but didn't do anything but be a Good Friend. loved her the whole time and since. didn't talk to her for 8 years, she hit me up out of the blue couple months back and i'm right back in love and fantasizing about life together. and it probably won't work again, though she's free of entanglements. all of my other relationships fizzled awful quick because they just weren't her.

couldn't just drop her out of my mind, couldn't sack up and "tread on" that cunt that frankly deserves a bullet (boy is it difficult to get away with killing someone well-known to you!) so i wasted my prime romantic years and am now.....still regretting at 33! yep! tread away. and throw up a quick prayer to the Almighty that my estimated chances of 5-15 percent end up in my favor.