>>96474849
You are distressed and angry. And you act under a compulsion that brings you to places that you hate, causing you to become more distressed and angry. But by an act of will you can stop this anytime. Imagine this like someone shaking you a lot, except it's you yourself who does the shaking, and suddenly you're out of the rut you were in. Why not spend those precious hours of your life somewhere you actually want to be? It doesn't even have to be on the internet. You can go outside. Take a 4 hour walk, feels good. Play an old DOS game you haven't played for ages. Try and cook a dish. Pick up and read a book you once considered interesting but postponed.