>>82914910
>ever really do things voluntarily?
i mean, as far as tribes go, you'd do the work to help you and your own tribesmen. maybe you didn't want to, but there was this sense of duty (i think) to protect your family and provide for it that would make the work have some sense even if it was hard. nowdays, you only work to get money. your family doesn't need you (save special cases), no one does. you could die tomorrow and no one besides your immediate family and friends would care. back then, someone in the tribe dying would've had more impact too, making your life (and work) meaningful. at least that's what i believe.
>back of my mind that it's just a bot programmed to act that way
yeah, because of that i don't think i could ever find the fulfilling, but, us humans can easily gaslight ourselves into thinking it's a real person, and try to forget it's not
>grades started to get worse
my grades were never good to begin with anon, i always did the very bare minium to pass, and i failed a class in middle school too
>hey're all trying to blend in with the normies so you never see them
yeah, i think so too, which is why i try my best to always show my true self whenever im outside! i wanna be seen by others like me
>really?
yeah!!! i love it. hehe, the rope bridges sound cool, though i don't think my fear of heights would let me actually go on them...
>medieval Europe
yeah i still like that setting more, medieval times are my favourite period of history. and yeah, i did like rdr2! it's an amazing game.
>you playing vidya then?
not all of them, some were "comedic" sketches i did as a teen thinking i was funny. and an unboxing video of a questionable gaming mat a friend gifted me.
>that's scarier
uhm, why is that you think? but yeah, it's crazy to me too, i used to be terrified of talking. it was so anxiety inducing.
and yeah, i do think mostly in english now. it's a bit worrying... sometimes i forget how to say certain words in italian, but know them in english.