>>24638895
1) read testimonies on the semen retention subreddit -- just fucking read the posts and make your own mind up.
2) read the book 'The Freedom Model' -- addiction LITERALLY doesn't exist. it's made up to make a small group of people lots of money.
3) read the books in picrel in order, to become employable.
4) and watch this video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hfFLPDAae2g
I sincerely hope this helps! but I won't care for any sentimental resistance. you should make your own mind up. listen, I'm a fuck up as well, not as bad as you, but I do also have it bad. these are all resources that have helped me. if you resist on the basis of death culture and being socialised into falling for modern memes that cause learned helplessness and the rejection of metaphysical substrates, then that's your prerogative