>22 years old. Just graduated college.
>Guys never showed much interest in me until maybe senior year
>Went out with one dude who tried to touch me up on the first date when I wasn't comfortable, told me he liked me, then treated me like trash.
>He lived in my apartment building and would run around with his frat brothers. Would smack each others' bare asses and call each other gay.
>Treated me poorly even after things ended.
>Crashed out over this. Taught myself guitar and applied to so many jobs I landed a legal assistant role right after graduation.
>Had a situationship who refused to commit to me but tried to pursue physical things with me.
>College friends never prioritized me. Never fit in much at parties. Spent most of college alone.
>HS friend group fell apart. My best friend moved away.
>Had to move back in with parents because my job only pays $20 an hour and is technically temporary (but keeps getting renewed). Have been trying very hard to keep me but may not be able to keep me forever due to technicalities with personnel.
>Hate being trapped in a 9 to 5 with little payoff in improving my life.
>Tried Hinge. Mainly dealt with crazy people.
>Father is crazy.
>Hear him jerking off at night through our shared wall.
>Is drunk all the time and keeps me up on work nights.
>Makes weird comments about my body and the way I dress.
>Starts arguments/screams all the time. Calls me retarded, bitch, etc.
>Used to bang on my walls/door and would pull my pants down and spank me when I was young.
>Screams at me and tells me I can't move out.
>Mother is anxious and enables him. Would not let me drive anywhere (despite the fact I have a license) until this summer.
>I want a boyfriend, friends, and independence. How do I get that?
>Have $20,000 in savings along with the income from my job. Should I just get an apartment? Or maybe travel away for a few months while I look for a new job? I feel like it would be difficult to move back to my house if I fail.