>>82138102
>The comfort and safety I always wanted is slowly killing me.
That's the problem for most people here. You let your comfort zone kill you, and as an adult there's nobody to forcibly drag you out of it. What I find strange is that you didn't get any kind of mental breakdown at your age. I got one in my late 20s and got a gf because of it. I couldn't enjoy escapism anymore. Maybe that's the difference. You still have the ability to run away from yourself and your choices into anime or vidya.