Thread 82132608

how yall holding fellas, today i went to buy some clothes because some 24 year old girl at work said i dress like a college dude, im 34 and made me think i do need to change my wardrobe, curious how i was never told this before it made me feel really bad

>>82132608 (OP)
Someone told me I needed a haircut once I just stared at them and they apologized but I didn't stop staring, they mumbled something and walked away.

Are you in a relationship with this coworker? Then why do you give a fuck? She doesnt sound nice or like she cares about you. If she did for example she would offer to go out with you to pick clothes even if she wanted to friendzone you.

>>82132608 (OP)
still no gf
cant believe im 30 bro

>>82132608 (OP)
>Someone didn't approve of my appearance.
>Therefore I must feel ashamed and change myself in a way to earn their approval.
You're easy to control.

>>82132608 (OP)
I'm trying to quit drinking. I'm exactly 1 week in now. It's getting much easier. I'm going to enjoy how much longer my paycheck lasts now that I'm not drinking more than half of it away.

It's not easy, but I quit smoking crack cold turkey in my 20s. I'm more than a decade clean off it. If I can get clean off something like crack, I can stay off the booze too. I got this.

Pic unrelated

>>82132608 (OP)
Never change yourself because some cumhole told you to. NEVER! big mistake!

>>82132660
but it hit me because its true i dress like im in my 20's still, probably why no one takes me seriously

>>82132696
i really want to look better, vagina npcs are nothing to me, took it bad because i know its true, i think most people dont tell me things upfront because they are scared i might snap, i have a history of street violence and people at work know that so they might think im the same as before

>>82132688
You got this. I'm taking a "dry month" from moderate drinking but wondering if I should just quit entirely. I'm one week in, too, and it feels like I'm barely even started with detoxifying. I still feel hungover, but also like my brain is tingling. Did you feel anything like that?

>>82132688
sad to hear, im about to fuck the shit out of a 24 modelo pack, probably will make some mojitos later when im drunk enough, i cant imagine my life being sober its boring as fuck and people suck also spending 50% of your paycheck on alcohol dude there are cheaper options

>>82132819
I felt like I wanted to die on day one, but right now I feel fine. I think I got most or all of it out of my system. I stopped before I graduated fully to hard liquor so my withdrawals were not that bad. I realized how much that shit was destroying my life and saw the same patterns beginning that I had smoking crack so I said "fuck that"

Day 1 was the worst, I woke up with one of the worst hangovers in my life and had to go straight to work. My job is an all day affair too, I don't get home until 12:30 am

>>82132888
More than 50% once I start drinking I don't stop until I have no money, or pass out. I'd wake up to my apartment being destroyed, my loved ones either pissed or crying because I drunk called them and said horrible shit to them I can't even remember. Sometimes I'd even wake up learning I borrowed more money online to keep drinking. It's destroying my life. Everything I love and value in the world is slowly getting eaten away when I get drunk.

Glad you can drink and stop without doing horrible damage to your life, I can't. That's why it's called an addiction. The only way I'm gonna fix my life is to stop. Enjoy the drinks though.

>>82132608 (OP)
I just turned 30 and I finally do not care about women anymore. I have spent so much money on fat girls and something finally clicked in my head that it is not worth it. It feels harder to motivate now but also liberating.

>>82132608 (OP)
Pretty shitty bud, lost my job, my house, no prospects or projects. Have been slacking on working out, trying to do a creative project right now but zero motivation. The one that hurts the most is that I squandered a relationship that was so good and had so many good things. However I have discovered that I have avoidant attachment so I'm working on it. Currently on Semen retention trying to beat a PMO addiction and it's going well. Yesterday I reconnected with an ex and I want to talk to tell her i'm sorry. It's part of the process. WAGMI

Any other oldfags researching ways to make it out of destitution come across ticket scalping? I made a few posts, but it's really intriguing to me. There are surprisingly few videos about it and I want to talk about it with someone.

A lot of people say bots dominate the business, but it now requiring unique, real North American mobile numbers (not VoIP) seems like it cuts down on a lot of it. Internationally too, a lot of places like India are gatekept, because it also requires a couple hundred USD to start.

>>82132608 (OP)
I almost groomed a 19 year old. Something I would never have done when I was in my 20s or 30s

>>82133695
Are you sure it was grooming? She's an adult after all. And I feel like there must be intent or a plan to manipulate. Getting along with a younger person because you are so socially stunted isn't grooming.

>>82133746
Her brain isn't even developed yet for another 6 years.

NightwaIk anyone?

mom has been gone for a few days and i didnt do anything special with that just slept and cooked normal food. guess im actually old now

>>82134866
i prefer walking just before the sunrise starts

>>82135056
I wish my mom left for a day or two. She's attached to me at the hip but I care about her.

>tfw 33 khv
If I lose the weight (around 80 lbs) and nothing changes, I'll just rope myself.

just threw out 8 grams of weed
mazel tov

>>82132608 (OP)
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_mkpi6HUQcZ0SvgXonH3AIJ4RScJMk0hFg

It's not going well internally. I need distraction

>>82132608 (OP)
Don't listen to thr manchildren, you're doing the right thing. Girls like it when you act your age. Make sure to hit that.

>>82133695
A 19 year old can't be groomed, stop falling for roastie bullshit.

>>82132608 (OP)
The 60 year old woman in my unit block probably wants me to go bang her but shes a mentally ill hoarder who doesn't wash. She probably thinks I'm a normie.

>>82132608 (OP)
Wanted to start drawing recently, but after joining a discord, i got turbo mogged by some 20 year old kid. I know i shouldn't compare, but my god, seeing some fucker who is almost half your age doing better than you in hobbies you care about makes me wanna blow my brains out. Wish i didn't waste my 20s

>cumming doesn't even really feel good anymore even skipping days between faps, decent diet and exercise, no meds
Yo what the fuck

>>82132608 (OP)
I am also 34 and dress the exact same as I did in college. I don't give a fuck. You should only do this if that girl is actually expressing genuine interest in you, which I doubt

>>82135505
There are little kids who are better artists than us, I personally wouldn't be bothered by a random 20 year old. Plenty of drawfags on 4chan and no one cares.

>>82135505
can you show me a few draws of yours im also going for a draw for a hobby and im trying to improve fuck everyone, dont stop trying anon

I'm 40 and will be needing to commit suicide in about 1 month out of necessity.
Is there anything I should experience before it's over? I've had sex, done most drugs and traveled the USA.
The reason why I need to do it, is because I have a psychotic relative who has been chasing me across the country for years and the government will not grant me a restraining order. This is because I have traditionally been gainfully employed and this relative is otherwise a ward of the state, usually prostituting on the street. Whenever they find me and I show them away, they will start committing petty theft and assault and saying I made them do it. It's made my life a living hell that can no longer continue. I could do something besides suicide but honestly life is cold and miserable even besides this nuisance. So I think my mind is made up.

>>82136242
why not leave the country, change your name, make it hard for the stupid bitch to find you

>>82135219
well done, that shit is bad
i'm living near the edge because of it

Going to be 40 at the end of the month and I'm still on this chickenshit ass licker website. Jesus Christ how horrifying.

>>82135205
Yeah it didn't help. It's still you under there after all.

>>82135505
>doing better than you in hobbies
Good, you deserve this for caring about muh hobbies past the point of them just being things you do for fun.

>>82136242
Why not just kill them instead?

>>82132750
>but it hit me because its true i dress like im in my 20's still, probably why no one takes me seriously

And? How the fuck do you dress in your 30s? I'm 33 and I wear the same shit I did 10 years ago, you know why? Because I'm not in some white collar job, so dressing up seems like it's ovr the top. If I were a doctor or lawyer then yeah, wear suits. But otehr than that it's just the same shit I would wear to the gym, because anyhting else would look ridiculous.

When was the last time you saw guys dressing up, who didn't have a fancy office job? Do you not think it would be weird for a girl to meet a guy all dressed fancy only to have him say he works min wage or is a construction worker or some shit. Besides I'm not goig home to change clothes after work because that means I use twice as much clothing, meaning twice as much washing clothes. Fuck that. Wear casual shit, go to the gym, go home, wash clothes, repeat.

>>82136561
>It's still you under there after all.
Thats the worst part. I want for someone else to emerge.

>>82135532
Fool! you were suppose to achieve that in your early twenties!

>how yall holding fellas
36 yo wizard
Always tried to keep myself busy, be it with video games, hobbies or something else but it's getting harder by the day. Pretty much all I do is aimed towards escapism.
I have a good job, and I could put down a payment for my own place but what after that? Work 9-5, then kill some time, have dinner and go to sleep?
Friends are getting married and having kids, I'm pretty sure soon we will stop seeing each other. The thing is I feel a resemblance of a desire to have this, but I don't really long it, and even if I did, I'm so far dettached from people that I have no idea where to start.
I'm at war with myself. The comfort and safety I always wanted is slowly killing me. If I look back the times I enjoy most were those of uncertainty, like when I got fired and had to live on scraps while studying programming on my own.
I feel like just settling for a small house and embracing the grind would be accepting defeat, but I don't even know what a victory would be for me either.

Sorry for the wall of text anons, have a good one.

I'm thirty in 3 months and my cock has never been smaller in my entire adult life.

No matter how bad you think it is now try to enjoy it, because it's going to get worse.

>>82138588
Good advice. Need to appreciate what you have now

>>82136574
That's what I meant by I could do something else but I don't have anything left to do in this world anyways, that I can see. I've done it all. This way I won't get too old and wrinkly and dying in an AI controlled facility.

>>82138588
37 here. Can confirm this is completely and utterly true. It will NOT get better. Your body turns to shit. People your age have families and barely interact with anyone else. Your life becomes a pointless stable grind as you just wait to die.

Also, reminder that the actual middle age is 35. Everything after 70 is just walking death.

>>82132608 (OP)
That's rough OP, but it's good you are taking initiative in improving.

Right now, I'm a bit in the bottom for the last month or two: barely leaving my home, having a hard time concentrating at work, no energy to do shit...
Today I showed some small initiative with taking out the trash and cleaning...but fuck, I just don't want to be alive anymore.

>>82133999
FFS, who invited the reddit roastie?

>>82138588
ofc its getting worse, thats why Im turbo depressed.

>>82138102
>The comfort and safety I always wanted is slowly killing me.
That's the problem for most people here. You let your comfort zone kill you, and as an adult there's nobody to forcibly drag you out of it. What I find strange is that you didn't get any kind of mental breakdown at your age. I got one in my late 20s and got a gf because of it. I couldn't enjoy escapism anymore. Maybe that's the difference. You still have the ability to run away from yourself and your choices into anime or vidya.

>>82132608 (OP)
Sounds like you need to wear a shirt and trousers at work. Perhaps black jeans. You can't go wrong.
When I was hitting 30, I started to do that. Though after my one failed year at wage-cucking, I mostly went back to wearing what was comfortable.

>>82139669
>What I find strange is that you didn't get any kind of mental breakdown at your age
I did. It happened when I was 21 and I fucked up at college big time. It was a legit mental breakdown to the point I couldn't think straight for some weeks. Went to the shrink and was on anti depressants for a while. But the think is, it never solved anything. The doctor and my parents kept telling me that I wasn't thinking clearly, and at the moment they were right but what actually caused the breakdown was seeing things clearly. I was an adult with no direction in life, no passion and nothing to look forward to. I went to college for the same reason I went to high school, because "I had to", but I didn't care about it at all, and I just studied for a couple of weeks to pass the exams and that's it.
After that I felt different. Depression turned into detachment. I went from being hyper focused studying, to the point of dreaming about it, to barely thinking about it, and rarely getting nervous.
I got no resolution, I chose to turn my head on my problems and I've been paying for it since then, slowly losing myself by the year.

>>82132608 (OP)
30 and this upcoming week I'm gonna go to every electric job in my city and ask for a job. 4th year apprentice that took 2 years off. Been looking for a job forever and white collar is so fucked rn it isn't funny.

>>82140002
Ah so you got your mental breakdown too soon I suppose. For me it came after college, I already had my diplomas but was khhv and had bad health issues and I decided that it was either death or gf. Luckily I found one and got to experience love, intimacy, closeness for a few years. Sadly we are not together anymore. But I would advise against idealizing the normie life too, you'll see some of your friends have nasty divorces for sure, and there's a lot you don't see too. Still, I hope something pops your comfort bubble (you're probably gonna have to do it yourself though) and that in the resulting chaos you find something worthwhile, probably a lover, let's be honest. I have examples in my family of people who got to an advanced age without ever experiencing love. It's not good. Maybe that's partly why a fire got lit under my ass as I approached the big 30. Anyway sorry for answering your blog posts with random ramblings, have a nice day/night.

>>82132608 (OP)
I get matches on dating apps but literally all of them end up ghosting or unmatching me, even the ones who text me first. I used to be able to engage in these texting games for days and nights in my 20s but in my 30s I just go to asking them out after 2 messages and it usually where they drop. Am I permanently unable to charm a woman from this point on.
It's fucked up because on paper I have everything that makes a man "desirable" materialistically but I can't even get a date so even gold diggers don't know that I exist.
Even with the few dates that I managed to get (once every few months if the stars align) they all went like shit, something about dating apps just kills a lot of the magic and just feels awkward.

I wish I put more effort talking to girls in my teens and early 20s instead of avoiding them. Even learning how to talk to them as friends would've been so much better. Now being a 30 something man who can't even hold IRL conversation with a woman is pretty much a mark that you can't shake off. I am currently debating taking the prostitute-pill. I can probably try SEAmaxxing but I don't see a point having kids if they won't look like me and knowing that my "wife" just considers me a calculated financial choice

Ive recently realized that I dont try to pursue a relationship because it doesn't register in my mind that someone I like could be attracted to me. In my head the entire relationship timeline is me recognizing Im attracted to someone, being indecisive and letting the possibility of a happy future give me false hope, and then inevitably being rejected.

It just doesn't make sense to me that I could ask a woman out and her be excited about that, so at some point I just gave it all up and accepted Id be alone.

Ok should I suck off a qt trans girl today? I'm just really stingy with the money.

>inb4 gay, fag etc. I'm way past that. I'm already past of fucking tgirls and it's boring (all for money ofc).

>>82140284
>Anyway sorry for answering your blog posts with random ramblings, have a nice day/night.
Nothing to be sorry about anon, thanks for replying.
Hope things go well for you too.
I know rambling here is ultimately pointless but sometimes I just need to vent and maybe hope for that brief connection with someone that knows how it feels.

Hmmm, let's see.
>almost 33
>living with parents in an apartment with loud subhuman neighbors over my head
>doing a 4 month IT course so I can go work as a tier 1 support drone for minimum wage
>have no chemistry with the few people I do meet
>people freeze me out without explanation, making me feel like an outcast
>never had a gf
>want to leave my country but never even been on a trip by myself in my own
>I'd have to hide where I'm from or risk getting even more hate for things I never did and have no control of

Pic related is literally me.
I used to get through the day looking forward to enjoy the afternoon, went through Monday to Friday to enjoy the weekend, and enjoy vacations.
Now everything feels just the same dread.

>Matched with another old foid.
>Like all the others, she says nothing.

>>82140427
Same here.
Over the last few years I lost the little confidence I had left. At least then I was in my 20s, looked young and was fit.
What girl is going to be attracted to a 36 yo balding wizard with a beer belly?

>>82140863
>balding
>beer belly
You can still correct those things if you want it badly enough.

been trying to cut back on soda, was doing well until like 2 days ago and just gave up and was pigging out on snacks again

I'm feeling totally defeated and alone. I'm crying rn. I showed my weakness to someone and they don't like it. It hurts so much I feel like I've been stabbed in the chest. But I realize that being a grown man means you have to be stronger than this. But man does it hurt.

>>82140223
I hope you bring plenty of resumes and your firmest handshake with you.

I'm 32 and I've tried dating, installed one of local europoor dating apps and I've started getting matches, about 20 and like 10 likes from girls I didn't like. I didn't expect it in the slightest, but there lies the problem - I talk with those girls and I feel NOTHING, I'm forcing myself to talk with them, I've proposed 3 dates, they all accepted and they were all fine, but alas, I felt nothing. I simply don't care. I'm an imageboard user for like 18 years now, I was single my whole life and I'm so accustomed to that it's scary. I don't even crave sex, I just want a partner that would understand me when I'm old and fragile, but that requires mental work I'm not used to do. I have a great job, pack of male (already married) friends but I'm aware that I don't live in a stasis and things will slowly crumble if I don't change myself.
Anybody feels like this?

>>82140427
Well that's because that's exactly how it works now. They can just go on their phone and get someone marginally better faster than ordering a pizza.

>>82140900
Already tried fin and dut, no results. Not sure about a hair transplant.
Beer belly is a consequence of balding, because I stopped caring.

>>82132608 (OP)
Never had a gf crew. Mad horny rn. Im gonna beat off to reddit and twitter porn

>>82141118
No one wants to hear this but girls actually aren't all exactly the same. All you've done is met three you don't want to be with.

>>82141159
There's no viable way to find a schizoid GF because there's simply not enough of them and they hide themselves

>>82141176
You know what? You probably won't ever meet her. I did, and she wasn't single. It's the best and worst thing that's ever happened to me.

>>82141201
It's OWARI DA over

>>82141118
I know exactly what you feel. Right now I don't feel like I want a gf, I feel like I should feel I have a gf.
Last time I tried was 3 years ago when my last friend that was also single got one and after a while I just decided it wasn't worth the effort.

>>82136687
how is not enjoying ol' reliable fapping a fucking achievement
It seems like I enjoy less and less shit as time goes on and I'm not even depressed

How many people here are KHHV NEETs with no friends and little contact with family? Is there anyone living the nightmare scenario?

>>82141239
I know I'm completely broken now. I felt impossible confidence around her. If that's what I have to fake to make it? I don't stand a chance. My only hope is one of those "I can fix him" types who actually means it because there's no way I could ever be with someone without explaining what happened to me. But then I would never want her to know she's my second choice I'd leave with no hesitation if I could go be with the other one.

>>82141301
No just a virgin, thanks.

>>82141301
I wish I had no contact. It's so embarrassing just being what I am.

>>82141301
I am all that and bullied at work

>>82132608 (OP)
I remember reading somewhere that guys take the clothes from the period they were most happy and dress that way forever. That certainly seems true to a lot of men out there that dress like they are seven, in ill-fitting shorts and tshirts with cartoon prints on them, and it's true for me as I still wear jeans and hoodies to this day.

>>82141301
I'm a 31 year old virgin but I kissed a girl once when I was like 10 and I've never had a job.

>>82141516
I just wear stuff that is comfortable and I use it till it's torn apart.
During summer is mostly cargo shorts, plain shirts and flip flops. Girl at work called me out and I told her to mind her own business and so did my boss.

My bone density is thinning so my left leg hurts all the time now.

>>82133695
I'm about 32 and I'd fuck an 18 year old if they approached me, I don't approach women below 25 anymore.

>>82133695
You can't groom an adult unless they are literally mentally disabled.
>>82133999
That study just stopped at 25 years old. The study shows that your brain continues to develop until AT LEAST 25, not that it stops at 25.

I wonder if my peepee will still work when robot waifus are finally invented?

>>82132608 (OP)
31 here, lost everything and have to start all over again. It just shit life, no expectations or anything.

>>82132608 (OP)
Mid 30s. Hit $1M finally. Job is competitive/high-pressure but I think I'll be able to hold out at least a couple more years. Still daydreaming of early retirement and working on my dream vidya every day.

Keepalivea

>>82132688
8 months without a drink here. I did AA for the first 6 and that helped a lot, even met a femanon there. It's a bunch of normies not going to lie, but it did help. I feel much better without slamming 30 beers every night. Its really hard at first, but it gets easier. And yeah, I actually have a savings account now, it doesn't all get spent on booze. You can do it.

>>82141301
No, I am trending in that direction but "lucky" enough to not fully be in it. I live with my mom and similarly incel older brother. I have online friends, but that's it. I haven't had in-person friends since college 12 years ago

>>82141301
thats hardly a nightmare scenario, get out more kid. people with families out tehre murdering eachother

I'm delusionmaxxing and LARPing as an independent game developer. I can't be persuaded otherwise. It doesn't matter if advances in technology make my craft obsolete or my games bomb, I will just keep making games.

>>82143333
i have neetbux for life and literally impossible to happen to me
i should just gamble my savings at this point and risk it

>>82140982
Sucks man but we all learn that lesson sometime. Nobody tolerates any sort of weakness in men, including shrinks, which is why the suicide rate is so insane. Hang in there

>>82145326
Very based I'm doing the same thing

Got some PTO and I'm already demoralized lol. I keep trying to journal about what a happy or productive day would look like and I'm coming up empty

>>82141301
That scenario is virtually impossible outside of the first world, the neet part I mean. You just need a job at least to eat.

I got fired

I hate that company

>>82146658
I'm gonna fire these nuts on your chin

>>82132608 (OP)
How does a college student dress? Hoodies?
>>82136653
>And? How the fuck do you dress in your 30s?
Go to a public place and look at what your peers are wearing, probably dress shirts, belts, work shoes (not running shoes), I don't really know. Google "young professional clothes"

>>82132608 (OP)
Hate people yesterday.
Hate people today.
Hate people tomorrow.

>>82132608 (OP)
How do you dress compared to your friends
>inb4 no friends

>normie
>Just started playing Elin

>>82140223
Oh, you poor bastard.
Unless a miracle happens, they will all laugh you out the building.
However, I wish you well, anon.