>130 hours played in the past 2 weeks

I've realized vydia will never make me happy, the progress I make on vydia is just an illusion to fill the lack of progress in my real life. I might be the best at the vydia I play, so what? I'm still a loser in real life.

50k

I'm saving as much as possible while still getting paid because of a back injury from work. I haven't worked in like 6 months. I assume I'll get another 100k from work after my second surgery, and will end up with 150k but will never be able to work manual labor again. After that I plan on taking it easy for a couple years and then kill myself because of how much pain I'm in every day.

It's not that I'm lazy or stupid. I just don't know how to get out of this hole I've dug myself into. I wish I had someone to teach me how to work out, or maybe a few friends to go out and do stuff with, I have no one, I'm alone.

I'm about to go into the operating room and they'll put rods and screws in my spine. Pray for me, bros.

>>216029252
>>216029595
It's really sad.
The entire ummah is collapsing before our eyes...

>one chance at life
>born in yakutia siberia

>>723372384
Wish I did might find some soon

I'm about to have a spine fusion and I'm planning on killing myself after I get my settlement from a work injury. I seriously think I'll never be able to climb again, or hike up mountains. My life is so fucking over, bros. I want my last hike to be Rainier, and do it solo, I have enough experience but there's still the slight chance I will die, if I die I want it at least to be in a mountain.

>>516596543
the year is 1999 and Eiffel 65 plays for the first time on the radio

>get my first gf as a 28 year old virgin
>cute dorky 21 year old girl I met at my climbing gym
>non stop thinking about all the kinky rough sex we'll have
>finally get to lose my virginity yesterday
>doesn't even know how to arch her back properly during doggy

fuck my life, it was so awkward, she's into missionary and a lot of kissing. I want her to ride me like in porn, and I want to jackhammer her pussy from behind and cum inside her, she also makes me wear condoms which fucking sucks, the whole thing was such a let down.

>>82483444
>not even /pol/tards like him

This is so depressing, he died for nothing.

I just wanted a youthful fembot to love and care for, but I was born unattractive so all I get now is single mothers and leftover women. WHY DIDNT YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE FEMBOTS? YOU COULD'VE BEEN MY PRINCESS AND IM YOUR TOAD!

Outsider here. I ran out of food again.

>>33556380
I chronically stalk people like a federal agent, pretend to act like or mimic someone I meet, and tell others to just abandon me or ask if I'm a boring person, honestly speaking.

It been almost a year since I got rid of my group of friends, a diagnosis isn't gonna cure me being a shitty person. I was planning to kill myself after they called me creepy, but I keep on moving for some reason.

One day I jokingly made a tik tok account and made its focus raw military footage. A few weeks later I started adding sad songs to the footage, now I have like 800k followers. The thing is that I hate the military, especially after my oneitis enlisted as a reserve, and dated a lot of guys in there, probably got her holes filled up by God knows how many men.

>31 year old

how the fuck did that happened? it feels like I was 20 just last year

>>513265810
I'm seeing how this shakes out, there is some collusion going on I don't think the u.s.a is the last bastion it thinks it is

UK is usually the test bed, I think they will pass the bill rest of E.U will in 10 months time

I'm so fat the chair cuts circulation to my legs

I'm stuck in the flamer ghetto.

I'm a soft, sensitive caring guy and whenever I let the mask fall and people realize my weaknesses they stop wanting to be with me. I'm a man and I have no desire to transition or be the bottom in a relationship. This is a curse, because no one wants someone like me. If I ever find someone, I'll have to repress a lot of my personality in order to keep their interest.

>>28561591
>She pulls out of the car
>see an adidas pant leg step out
>uh oh.jpg
>she steps out fully head to toe in tracksuit
>fugg DDD:
>her face is oddly rectangular IE her features are a bit sharp
>she looks me up and down then smiles
>spot a bulge growing in "her" pants
>mfw

I'm feeling totally defeated and alone. I'm crying rn. I showed my weakness to someone and they don't like it. It hurts so much I feel like I've been stabbed in the chest. But I realize that being a grown man means you have to be stronger than this. But man does it hurt.

>>82140305
>>82140341
I never heard of this song until now. Thank you so much frens, I really needed this song right now

Growing up, my father always told me not to trust anyone, that everyone was bad. I pushed back against that, convinced he was wrong. I believed in being kind to everyone and helping whenever I could. But now, in my 30s, I'm starting to think he might have been right. Even the people I've supported for years turn away when I need something small, sometimes not even bothering to text back. It's becoming clear that most people only look out for themselves. Still, I'll keep choosing kindness, even if it's not returned.

I literally spent 5k getting the best pc gaming hardware just to sit in front of my pc and doom scroll aimlessly and feel depressed and anxious afterwards. What the fuck? How do you even enjoy vydia in your 30s anymore?

shaved my face for the first time in 15 years, didn't know I had a double chin

0 jaw line unlike before I gave up in 20s

can't believe I have to walk around like this

its too hot outside

anyone else with /chonicpain/ here?

I don't even think about anything else anymore. The only thing that crosses my head when I wake up is

>I hope my back pain is not that bad today


I haven't fantasized about girls or friends, or any of that sort of stuff, kind of sad how my life is nowadays.

>>510847462
not the poor motorists

they might have been late for work

A week or two ago I was in the park and I heard scuttling on the other side of a metal fence. The fence had tiny holes in it (the size of a pencil eraser). Curious, I went up really close to the fence with my face (like a couple of inches away) to peer through the tiny holes to see what the animal was. I then came face to face with a rat that was clinging to the other side of the fence. The rat had it's mouth wide open and at the time I assumed this is because it was breathing heavily because it was worn out from running up the fence but I've since learned that open mouthed breathing in rats means it's in respiratory distress. Respiratory distress is an end-stage symptom of rabies. I cannot remember if it was foaming at the mouth or not. The rat was also aggressive which is not usual for healthy rats but characteristic of rabies. I pulled away after a few seconds but at the time I had my mouth wide open in wonder. I'm think that droplets of the rat's saliva may have been expelled from it's mouth while it was breathing heavily/gasping because it was in respiratory distress and then crossed through the holes in the fence and into my open mouth. I think what if the rat had come into contact/gotten bitten by a bat with EBLV (bat rabies) which the UK has. Sometimes rats eat bats so this is plausible.

It's sad how I finally decide to come out of my shell at 29 and everywhere I go there's so much cute college pussy but I'm already too fucking old to fuck any of them. Every concert, or activity I do there's at least a few cute college sluts ready to be taken to pound town but I'm old, God, I wish I would've made an effort in my youth and not this late, it's too fucking late.

I'd eat stake everyday if I could afford too

my work got bought by another company and company is horrible

I'm exhausted

Can whites ever accept a non white into their circle? I desperately want white pussy and refuse to date girls my race, I'm light skinned, but I'm not American, I want a cute white American girlfriend, but we have nothing in common, I refuse to breed a woman who's not white.

>>211817323
>They are developing faster
I guess Latvia has been banned from the baltx