Thread 40681801

I'm a soft, sensitive caring guy and whenever I let the mask fall and people realize my weaknesses they stop wanting to be with me. I'm a man and I have no desire to transition or be the bottom in a relationship. This is a curse, because no one wants someone like me. If I ever find someone, I'll have to repress a lot of my personality in order to keep their interest.

Try finding decent people first, no ?

ok bro

>>40681801 (OP)
no you could very easily not suppress yourself and then get taken advantage of and strung along by someone who wants to use you as a flesh puppet, don't worry be your true authentic self

>>40681810
What do you mean? This is how it goes whenever I find someone, they realize who I am and then they start losing interest.

>>40681820
But who is going to want a sensitive guy like me?

I'm sorry I'm just going through a lot right now and venting. I'm being stupid I know.

"WAAAH herres some emberassing info make fun of me soijak . jpeg"

>>40681801 (OP)
what weaknesses?

Can you be my boyfriend then?

>>40681862
need a sense of security or else I start to feel bad, self-doubting and in need of reassurance at times, clumsy and awkward

>>40681801 (OP)
>because no one wants someone like me. If I ever find someone, I'll have to repress a lot of my personality in order to keep their interest.

this is what i thought; (minus the boy stuff obv)

but then i met my beautiful wife and she loves me exactly for who i am and shes the most wonderful person in the world; even though she has a bpd issue sometimes she makes up for it 10fold with how angelic and loving she is to me all the 98% rest of the time

i want to tell you to not compromise who you are for anyone; but i recognize my own experience growing up where very few girls could be into me because i was so feminine and shy and gentle; i didnt have barely a shred of the confidence and personality i do now

so given what straight girls tend to say they want in someone; i feel like your going to have a hard and lonely time; even among transgirls (though i think fujo type girls might be more amicable to your kind; but that requires you be pretty feminine/androgynous yourself)

im so thankful im not straight; and im thankful to be trans too because even though much of the world hates us atleast i found real ultimate love that very few people in all of human society will ever know; and i know i could never have that as a straight person of either gender

its not why i transitioned at all; but it is something i can call a blessing that was well worth the wait

good luck op; love is all that matters

>>40682336
Thank you for the effortpost, I'm happy for you. You're trans though and seeking someone who desires that. I'm not trans and would never want to be, it's not who I am and on top of that would be impossible because I have a very masc body lol despite being sensitive. I'm just a sensitive guy and nobody seems to like that. I can mask but the feelings will be so painful to never express and I will feel alienated too. Sometimes it seems I am not meant for this world, I feel incredibly alienated and sad.

>>40681801 (OP)
Trannies have male brain so they will love you if you'll be nice with them
You are in right place dude

>>40682391
i felt the same; even trying to meet other transgirls

everyone is so small and petty and the same; everyone cringes at everything and very few people are pure in any sense of the word

i was strung along by someone who couldnt love me; i couldnt escape her pull for 3 years until i met my wife; i nearly died

i kniw i dont belong in this world at all and i never did; but now that i have reached my heaven and am loved the way ive needed since i was a child; and; just as importantly if not more; able~ to love in the way that is natural and free and full to me
>deathly impassioned overwhelming Limerence love equally obsessive and intense and all consuming
i see that i did find where i belong; wherever my angel is; for she brings my soul not just to her heaven but to my goddess too

i know its a long shot for you; it is for most people these days- they are just too shallow to realize how bad things really are with how distant and fragile and conditional most relationships have become

but i hope very much that your wont give up

my advice is to do what i did; look in places people dont think to; like games or even this board; and stand out for your qualities; be relentlessly persistent in your screams to the stars and prayers to whatever being you worship- if you do; with a mixture of luck and perserverence it is probably possible to find someone who could make you happy and appreciate you

but i dont think you find them through usual avenues; you need someone different because you yourself are quite different

best of luck; thanks for being the way you are

blessings )*

>>40682509
You say this but it's not really true. Maybe they're "male" brained but they want to be treated like women and that's not something they can change without repping. I'm able to relate to trans more than a biological woman but at the same time the problem is still there, they don't want a sensitive man like me.

>>40682539
I appreciate it, thank you

>>40682990
Who on the whole earth does wanna insensitive man...
Yeah i wanna be treated like woman, but i have my own opinion about "womannes", i wanna be loved not be punched into my face or something related to this..
I mean, i know some trans women are masochistic yeah, but not all of them i guess
My bf never got angry on me, never beat me, and i love him..
Im mentally ill tranny, i already have brainworms from my parents treatment i dont wanna become more broken.. if i have an abusive relationship i will kms

>>40683105
Of course you want someone who will be empathetic to you, but is it ok if he is vulnerable and shows his weaknesses to you though? He would treat you well, but he would need reassurance himself and go through his own emotional issues.

>>40683147
Yeah, it's okay, everyone have problems and bad times sometimes
When my bf is annoyed or upset i try to help him, find a way out of his problems
I love to cuddle my boy so he can feel himself safe

>>40683272
nta but you're a real catch, lucky him.

>>40681801 (OP)
No idea what you're on. I think soft sensitive guys are cute

>>40681801 (OP)
when you finally get one of those coveted pieces of tail, you try desperately to keep it, not to protect it! but to horde it. to keep it away from the other wolves and jackals circling your territory. and then you realise, all too soon. that you're not good enough. that maybe there was a jerkoff called darwin after all, and you never acknowledged his existence because you're really what you feared you were: weak, passive and ultimately made to be broken by the ones made the fittest. and through your weaknesses you built up a poison, that poisons others around you. that you love. and the only true justice was to let those dominant jackals feed on you. survive off of (You)

>>40681801 (OP)
unironically quit masking it, it'll filter out the people who are incompatible quicker
>>40682087
ah OK anxious attachment style. This is totally an ok thing to have, and an ok thing to be in the process of repairing. Look into self regulation techniques and learn more about how to communicate this stuff with a partner. I've found someone who is really good with me about my attachment bullshit, but also I handle it really well and communicate it well
Good luck anon,

>>40681801 (OP)
you are a bottom. nothing wrong with being a bottom. you need to get over your bottomphobia
>I don't like bottoming
you can also go the asexual route, but you'll need to be the one who cooks

>>40684700
this is the gayest thing I've ever read on this website

>>40681801 (OP)
I would like to.be with you

>>40684737
Thank you anon I appreciate it. I will research that.

>>40683272
>>40684640
she really is, good on you anon

>>40684700
That's how I've been feeling recently lmao, trying to stay afloat and not let those thoughts win but it's hard I feel totally defeated lmao. Also I recognize where that's from.