>>11954263
What do you want me to say? That I "know" you would enter into a loving and supportive homosexual relationship with an anonymous guy you've spent months defending online? There are no guarantees in the game of love. Maybe he would break your heart, or it might be the best thing that ever happened to you. That's why I'm saying, "I don't know". What I do know, is that if you really love the guy that much, then you shouldn't let distance and the impermanence of the internet become obstacles. Find him, by whatever means necessary. Expose yourself to him. Literally: just walk up to his house, knock on the door, push your erection against him and tell him how you feel. You have nothing to lose. With any luck, you might have the best anal orgasm you've ever experienced by the end of the encounter. At worst, you'll one day die knowing you followed your heart's desire in the face of all odds.

Of course, the ultimate issue is that you're actually just an obese guy talking to himself on a niche messageboard. It seems like the only solution here might be to suck your own penis.