>>82422705
>the guy i love, i feep like i cant get a proper read on him, and it scares me a little sometimes
Is it not possible to straight up ask him some things that could soothe your worries? I'm not exactly sure what you need to be reading, after all, but in general I've found that erring on the side of being too open with my thoughts tends to be better than letting everything stew.
Then again I think it's important to admit that I don't worry very much to begin with, so it might not be a fair comparison. Do you think you could talk to him though?