im a tranny who's only attracted to women and when i talk to a girl i like and i find out she's trans i lose all attraction. does this make me and evil ultra rape hon beast machine 9000

>>82761029
I actually started with grinding for a year until I shat blood and got burned out with scribbling next to nothing for some time

it's a very deep visceral mindset thing. I really started improving only when I stopped getting all competitive and got playful and curious instead