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Are you the OP? I wanted to throw my opinion into the thread if that helps.

You've been given some great advice here, mainly centering around this: You've screwed up by telling your gf about your fetish/addiction. Don't beat yourself up though. Life is for living and for learning. Everyone makes mistakes, and you did the right thing by being honest about your fetish here. You couldn't have known about this mistake you made because as a young man, you expect relationships to be an unconditional, magical, Disney-esque thing. But they aren't. After the honeymoon phase, they become more pragmatic.

So the other anons are right. You have to always show strength to women. You only show weakness in a "I had this setback and I am dealing with it like this" kind of way, where you minimise the problem and maximise the solution. Finally, certain things just have to be kept to yourself because they are just disgusting for anyone to hear. You did the right thing by basically confessing on an anonymous forum - it's the magic of the internet lol.

So overall, you've lost this girl, but trust me bro, you will overcome this. Long story short, I was once the guy who thought I could be alone forever after losing my first GF. Fast forward a few years and I have a real diamond of a gal.

As for the addiction - it might be a long painful road to get over it, but I would advise this above all else - NO /D/ SHIT. /H/ SHIT TOPS. YOU DON'T NEED TRANSFORMATION STUFF TO GET OFF. Just tell yourself: "I WILL STOP LOOKNG AT DISGUSTING THINGS, WEIRD SEX THINGS, AND ILLEGAL SEX THINGS. Because it is wrong, you know it's wrong, it has to stop. Aside form that bro, best of luck.