>>213989260
It's hard to maintain. It's so good you keep doing it and stay up two or three days in a row and soon you're just starting at walls or out the window for hours before you realize it. Then you crash out for like 18 hours, dead to the world. Unwakeupable. Then you usually want more when you wake up because you've never been so lethargic and groggy. Then it all starts again. Some people can handle it but those of us with addiction issues won't put it down. I'm glad I got out when I did. I was losing all sorts of shit in my life as I was zoned out and tweaking. Always late. Making stupid excuses. Everyone knew I was fucked up. It was a nightmare at the end. I met people who shot it up too. What a bunch of paranoid assholes too. Always freaking out when a cop would drive by. Trashy fucking people. I started becoming a little trashy. That's why I quit. Yet some days I think about it. Like it might be fun for a weekend. But I have responsibilities and I can't. And I know better. I can't ever just do a little bit of the drugs. I have to do all of the drugs and then get more.