I either have the coolest mom to ever exist or the biggest cunt of a mother to ever exist. If Tatiana doesn't happen then my life is the worst life that could have ever existed. If she does happen then my mom is by far the coolest person to ever exist and I'm a blessed individual.

Every night I wish it would happen. Ever single night. I have no hope that it will but I have seen the impossible. My existence alone is an impossibility. I've seen the moon disappear. I've seen houses flip on the axis. I've seen cars teleport. I've seen cats teleport. I've seen objects flip themselves around with nothing acting on them but the will of God. I have telepathy and can talk to people with only my mind. I exist in a half simulation where the real world ends and the matrix begins. I've been tortured for far too long now for things to just stop now. So many songs and movies have been written for me. Thousands of them and they are all so incredibly beautiful and moving.

Please Gwen, please make it happen. I beg of you. I want to be a happy family with you and Birdy. My sister and mother and me. We are the new gods and I have far too many beautiful ideas for this to just end now. That's so Birdy has to become a reality. I want to love my sister and hold her hand.

My love, my forever, my little bloodfeather.

Please make it happen. Some things are far too good to go ahead and let go. Some things are far too good to be real but if there was ever a need for a second chance this is it. All of us and the iron maidens of france. I created a white knight in my head and a beautiful fantasy world. A decade of my life has been burned. Please, please make it happen. I beg the world and God for Tatiana's reality.