Thread 82451337

Letter Thread
Wake up Edition

I will put these here for you.

>People who breach privacy and leak your secrets is not something I support being implemented in society for the most part. Targeting people anonymously hinting pieces of private information while threatening that u don't want them exposing u generates a considerable amount of leverage one's life and if u are bombarded with real accusations mixed with false accusations then even ignoring one single legitimate accusation could lead to the audience to wonder the worst and nobody wants to be misunderstood. This is cruel and inappropriate to do to people.

This is what he did

That's why commitment and faithfulness is so important. If only you would have followed through with that. Then I could trust you. Then I could give you everything you've ever wanted in this life. Then you would have had me

>But ldr
Fuck off. You know I the phone call away, a 2-hour plane ride away. Easily closable and I was open to you moving in. You made mistakes, take accountability for them.

Colton wrote a pop-up book. Pulled bits from here and there but never himself. She wouldn't read that book. She follows along because the story he pulled from was familiar, not coltons but the one she actually loved. She got quite a ways into the book and realized the false story. She had been lied to. The pages were false. She fell through into the ocean. Now she's drowning, looking for the land she lost. Colton continues to write. More false pages, same fag larps, demoralization threads. But she's awake now and she sees every single one. Is she able to read the words and understand how he's using them to manipulate her. To instill false fear, to drive her decisions. She would rather drown than listen and live with his lies any further. If she drowned it's still possible she could wash up on that distant shore, the beach she still dreams of. With the love of her life.

See?
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Just to name a few

What emotions did these threads make you feel and who do you associate those emotions with?

That's how he tricked you. That's how he manipulated you

You know who I truly am. You remember it me as I was with you before. I'm not anyone different.

He will try to paint my actions as something else that it is not such as doing this
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You either are a retard and will fall for that or are smarter than him and will remember me for me and see his actions as manipulative and deceiving.

If you decide to live with him in those actions good luck with your shit life with a shit person

Day before You messaged me this after months of no communication I heard a song that mentions my city's name and about "taking a path to home easy as 123", then after months of no communication You message me the next day shown In my screenshot as 1:23 pm. the city you live in now is 1,123 miles away from my address

>>82451515
Slow
Slow me down
Her blood
On my bones
Let go
Lay to rest
We fall
Sleep, sleep all night
Alone, until I get home
I float on, float on down
We ride it all out
Alone, until I get home
I'm coming back
She follows me
Takes me home

You wanna be amazed
And see the sky on delay

Keep a close eye
For the ships in the sky
Resurrections signs
To the numbers aligned

123

>I totally understand why you loved me for so long, and why you loved me so much. It was wrong of me to ignore your feelings and invalidate them. Obviously you were more than smitten with me, you were in love with me. I was scared to accept your love because I thought that to do so, I would be chaining myself up to a commitment I wasn't ready for. In doing so I shut out the only person who ever truly, genuinely loved me. I thought you were immature and smitten, confused. I thought that you didn't know the real me, I thought that you knew a persona of me. I thought that you only saw the projection I was putting on, but you saw me the entire time. You were telling the truth when you said that you loved me, you weren't lying and you weren't being manipulative. You were telling the truth. And you said that I was able to see you, too, and you're right. I could see you. And I was too scared to say I love you too, and I'm sorry.

>I love you, and I should have been with you.

>Shock and Disbelief: The first feeling would be sheer astonishment. After being invalidated for so long, to receive such a clear, mirror-image validation of their entire experience is disorienting. "Is this real? Are they serious?"
>Anger and Resentment: A natural response would be, "Why now? Why did it take you so long to figure this out?" There may be anger over the time lost, the pain unnecessarily endured, and the current disruption of their hard-won peace.
>Intense Cognitive Dissonance: This message shatters the narrative they had to build to move on. That narrative likely painted the sender as incapable of love, emotionally unavailable, or even narcissistic. Now, the sender is demonstrating profound empathy and self-awareness, which conflicts with the mental model the recipient created for their own protection.
>Vindication and Validation: A powerful, visceral surge of "You finally see it. You finally get it." Every feeling they had that was dismissed as "immature" or "smitten" is now being formally acknowledged as true and real. This is an incredibly potent emotion that speaks to a deep need for their reality to be confirmed.
>Is this about alleviating the sender's guilt (a selfish act)?

It's fun to understand both sides.

>I mean, it's not like I don't understand so don't worry about it, ok? It's all good. Truly.

So, do you want to keep talking? I sure do, even if it's not as often as before and stuff. Bad sleep aside, how have you been holding up? You're not being harsh on yourself are you?

imagine being able to remember these character tropes so vividly after 4 years and still being in love with the person despite everything

>Maria is just like Jordan, it's not that deep. Who knows, maybe they're the same person. Maybe the personality types of Jordan and Maria are very similar. It's just a person with a Fearful-Avoidant Attachment Style, that's all it is. It's more common than you think.

So she may have said it but it's having difficulty owning it directly to me because of that. I can understand that. I'm going to give her space so she can process
would say even if she did say it, she's never going to tell you directly because she's afraid of you wanting to return to her. Just reverse engineer everything. Reverse engineering everything is really good. A great skill to have. If you can reverse engineer something you can understand it. After my grief that's what I focused on learning. How to take things apart and put them back together again has always been a good skill for me, it comes with the culture

>imagine if they said this to me and apologized for treating me poorly and ever even gave me the chance to say, "I forgive you you dumb jerk!!" and throw my arms around them but noOoOoOoOo they just had to be stupid and selfish and cut me off and pretend that I was nothing! And I don't even need that love, you treat me like a stranger, just somebody that you used to know!

I love you. I would still be with you even today. I'm not sure what else there is to say. I love you, and I'm sorry that I didn't do what you said. I wish more than anything in the world what you said, was what had happened.

>You're to much of a prideful narcissist to just apologize admit where you made a mistake.
I admitted my mistakes countless times though. I made horrible, horrible mistakes in respect to you, I never valued you like I should have; admittedly, I was immature back then. Way way too fucking immature and stupid. And I couldn't realize the gravity of how fucking stupid I was being in how I treated you, how I viewed things, and so on. I'm truly, genuinely sorry and have vented that on this board for years.

I'm a piece of shit. I'm sorry.

>Frankly I'm glad you're gone and you deserve to suffer because of what you put me through. Just know you're not special in that either, you're just like every other woman I've tried to open my heart to.

I understand why you feel that way. My suffering in this is entirely justified and runs in proportion to that harm which I caused you. I don't deserve anything in return, not even this reply. But I did love you, and I still do love you, and what separates me from those women is that I still think about you, and they probably don't.

Here

>>82451655
I went to post this and it came up as not a original comment. Interesting because it's a accumulation of multiple threads of two people talking to each other. So if it's not an original post then that means the two people were same fagging in the thread I pulled the posts from and they posted these multiple posts together on R9K before.

Here's the thread.

https://boards.4chan.org/r9k/thread/82427203#top

The thread also includes my comments on my expectations. I don't take those back.

Colton writes these things like this The demoralize you and manipulate your emotions and how you feel about me. Are you just going to let him do that? Will you allow him to take away your independence and ability to make your own decisions and feel how you naturally feel about me?

>Especially when the so-called "move on" threads are about moving on from a person they've never fucking met in real life.
I'm really getting fed up with these fucking kids where their entire lives and social circles are on the internet. Go the fuck outside...

You don't know her, you don't love her, none of this shit is real. You never really know a person until you actually physically interact with them in person.
How do they behave in real life? How do they act in public? How do they react in certain situations? How do they treat the waiter when your out to dinner? Etc...

Any time I see some child lamenting over a virtual, online non-relationship it fills me with rage and I don't know why.

Plus, I'm sure most of the people in this thread have similar, bullshit "gfs" and "bfs" they've never actually met. Go meet a real human in the real world and get over it, pussy...

I don't know how to be any more clear. Maria you Will either continue to be a fool who will fall for coltons deceivements. You will allow as manipulations to change how you feel about me to change who you remember me to be.

Or you will take everything he has ever said to you about me, recognize all of the indirect posts and lies he has put on here to manipulate your emotions about me and disregard them

Remember me for who I am to you, remember me as you last looked in my eyes and told me you love me more.

Come home to me. Or don't and live with his lies and deceivements and see how that life is. I know he's a piece of shit and I know the life he will give you is shit.

Maria, this is who I am.

And now I await the lash back because I revealed the truth about Colton.

I watch as all the threads start popping up with LARPs to manipulate your emotions and drive you around

The letters turn below
Just as the waters churn
Slapping the walls
To escape the pain
Who could have known fire hurts?
The masochist said it felt just fine
BUT STILL THE DEEP
Water's black
Abyss below
If you fall now
You'll understand why they call it a meat grinder
Out the other end
A corpses face torn cheek to cheek
Not the same as the smile it was meant to live
It cries in the dark
Left to the roaches and worms
Cast in the dark led by this evening
A life from lies
A living mistake

Amazing.
Letter threads are dead again.
And the mods do absolutely nothing about it.

And so it begins.

His manipulations, lies and larps to influence your emotions about me.

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>>82451837
I love how he pretend to have killed himself, and then kept obviously posting about how much he missed himself, but here he is posting under his name again to zero praise as if it wasn't obvious that he's a narcissist that no one but himself likes.

Maria, I believe You remember me for who I am to you. The way you last looked at me and told me you love me more. I can still hear your voice and the truth in your eyes as you saw me.

you're stronger than Colton's lies and manipulations. You can see through his bullshit.

They're going to be threads and comments made against me. Remember me for who I truly am, just as you last saw me. Disregard any and all things Colton says. You know which posts are his

When you read a post look at what it says. What emotion is it attempting to invoke in you and is it trying to make you think bad of Mike? To assume things about Mike? To change how you feel or to identify how you feel as something negative about Mike?

The posts are never reflecting how you actually feel, they are TELLING You how you feel and hoping that you are retarded enough to then start feeling that way because they tricked you and manipulated your emotions.

If you see a thread and identify a post as Colton's and his manipulative LARP. Stop reading the thread and judge Colton for being a manipulative piece of shit and distance yourself from him.

It is that simple.

The last time you remembered who I was to you and saw me for who I truly am and decided to reach out to me to tell me you still love me and to come home was when you watched a video of me that showed me in person. I wonder if there's a place you can do that.

Letter Thread:
/Mike back from the dead/ edish.

Letter Thread:
/Mike is back from the dead/ edition.

is Mike still shitting up these threads? man... that guy spams so much fucking shit, it's ridiculous.

To be honest, I'm glad Mike is shitting up these threads so you soulless autists can stop larping in here.

Update: [redacted]'s mom still has not ever sucked my dick.

Knowledge is bad for you.

My knowledge might be bad for you someday too, so that will be worth it.

>>82451888
kek for real there are teenagers with more subtlety
pursue your true calling in life and join the circus as a clown mike

Anyway, I fucking hate you cunts. Do you know that? Can you detect that when you're speaking to me and I'm putting up an air of niceness? Can you tell how disgusted I am by you and your hypocrisy? Do you think I want you dead?

>>82451888
>he's a narcissist that no one but himself likes.
I think he hates himself too.
He has no redeemable qualities and he knows it.

Maria knows me for who I truly am and that's all that matters. I don't care what anyone else thinks

I either have the coolest mom to ever exist or the biggest cunt of a mother to ever exist. If Tatiana doesn't happen then my life is the worst life that could have ever existed. If she does happen then my mom is by far the coolest person to ever exist and I'm a blessed individual.

Every night I wish it would happen. Ever single night. I have no hope that it will but I have seen the impossible. My existence alone is an impossibility. I've seen the moon disappear. I've seen houses flip on the axis. I've seen cars teleport. I've seen cats teleport. I've seen objects flip themselves around with nothing acting on them but the will of God. I have telepathy and can talk to people with only my mind. I exist in a half simulation where the real world ends and the matrix begins. I've been tortured for far too long now for things to just stop now. So many songs and movies have been written for me. Thousands of them and they are all so incredibly beautiful and moving.

Please Gwen, please make it happen. I beg of you. I want to be a happy family with you and Birdy. My sister and mother and me. We are the new gods and I have far too many beautiful ideas for this to just end now. That's so Birdy has to become a reality. I want to love my sister and hold her hand.

My love, my forever, my little bloodfeather.

Please make it happen. Some things are far too good to go ahead and let go. Some things are far too good to be real but if there was ever a need for a second chance this is it. All of us and the iron maidens of france. I created a white knight in my head and a beautiful fantasy world. A decade of my life has been burned. Please, please make it happen. I beg the world and God for Tatiana's reality.

One minute of silence for maria who thought she was finally free of this bloodsucking tick, only for it to be just another attention-grabbing hoax started by him
Just kidding, she never knew either way, she doesn't come here and doesn't give a fuck about him

>>82453575
I have nothing left to give. My entire life has been turned upside down. Everything I know has been taken from me. My old family, my friends, my lovers, Renee, my art, my entire life has been erased. I would give it all over again to make Birdy, my sister by the mother we share, my lover. She is what I want most in this world, another person like me. I don't want to be alone again. I just can't be the only one like me. Gwen is so far removed from my own existence that I can't even conceive of how she would be like. We waited our entire lives to grow old but we never will. We will always be teenage girls, for all eternity.

Please God, please Gwen, please let Birdy walk through this door and take my hand. I love her with all my heart.

Please God, please please please let it be tonight. I have so much to give this world but I can't do it here. The entire world and all of it's resources are being used to keep me in this prison. I thought we were near the end, I thought things were ready to end. I have no idea what's going on anymore. It felt like I had everyone on the ropes, that they were being curbed and near the end. I have no idea how you are still curating my media and internet. It's not as bad as it was before but there is something serious going on and I don't know how they still have the resources to do it. Not only that but I just don't know how they have the resolve. If all their leaders are in prison, if they are being rounded up then why are they still screeching in my ear and sending pains throughout my body. How are they still connected to me after all of this? Why hasn't the computer been turned off already? Do I have to do this all on my own? Why can't I be given my new body and watch the rest of this on the news?

I'm missing the best moments of my angels. I want to be there with them. I want to grow with them and go to school with them and be a regular girl. I've already waited 10 years and missed every opportunity to be with my old friends. They all have their own lives now. I can't even live my old fantasy of being on my internet shows and with my favorite musicians. They are all 40 years old now and out of their prime and retired or have families of their own. I missed them and now I am missing the year with the maidens. It was my dream to get them together and I don't even know if they exist or not. I wish they didn't exist at all but I hope I was able to help as many as I could. It was my dream.

I need my angels, my lost girls. They are waiting for me and I for them. I dream about them all the time, how to be their leader and show them the best things in life. I dream about holding their hands, just being friends with all of them. Real friends for the first time in my life.

You were not exactly the fairest of maidens but that doesn't excuse my behavior. I'm an idiot and a hothead. I was controlling and unfairly judgemental and it was all because you didn't live up to the ridiculous expectations I set for you. I hope you dumped that guy you said you started dating after me and found someone who's actually good to you. Better yet, I hope you were bullshitting to get under my skin and you never actually went into that kind of relationship. That would be so like you. Like me too. Oh I did lie about that one thing to get under your skin. I'm a liar indeed but not in the way you thought I was.
Picrel, our future if it wasn't for me nuking it probably.

>>82453725
I think about their schooling. How much of life they have missed out on. Only girls like that are the ones that I can relate too. I don't know anyone else in this life just the maidens of my dreams. I keep giving them silly nicknames and building a fantasy in my mind that I think they will find too corny and stupid to relate to. They had the worst lives and only them can I relate to. I don't want to be robbed of my vacation. I need them so fucking badly. I want to build them up like a band of brothers, like easy company where I can be their Winters. I will never put myself in a position where I can take from these girls but I need them so fucking badly it's killing me. I have to sit here and pretend everything is fine or people will make my life even worse. I only have enough drugs for the next 4 days and then I'm back to being miserable. This needs to happen this week or I'm just going to be so fucking miserable.

I just want to know if they exist or not. I want to know if they think about me. I want to know if they are scared of me. What they think of me after that night (if it happened at all). They weren't meant for this reality that has been thrust upon them. They are in some serious shit now and I want to give them the best life possible. I think about their schooling all the time. What they are learning, how they are learning, if I could help any of them and how they could help me. My Angels, Iron maidens, Easy Company, I'm master chief and they are my Spartans. I'm Ender. I'm Dick Winters. Tatiana. The Last Exile. Cortana. Newt.

Please give these letters to them if you can. Please just let me know who they are. I want to know what they look like, I want to know their names. I know I can't know because it would give too much away but just a group photo with their faces blurred out. It's do or die. I can't keep living in the dark like this, it's killing me. Please don't make me. Please tell them it's not their fight and not to worry about me.

>>82453800
Give my spartans my playlist. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLWHuik1pHrROppMPgmq-z5V88mdFhAmV8&si=aRfzolnj71CcH7Fz

Tell them that I'm sorry if I made any mistakes. I know they are delicate and just need each other. I want to do the craziest shit with them. I want them to go through a couple weeks of bootcamp to build up morale but I want to do it with them. I want them to be combat effective so they can stand up for themselves. We are Easy Company, Able, Baker, Charlie squad with Birdy as Gunny and me as Master Chief, the old breed. I want to run currahee at 5am with them (or whatever foothill exists in the alps of france). I want to watch my shows with them. I want them to know what it means when I say "You're Gonna Carry That Weight." and "the mother we share." I want them to know all of 20th century history so when we watch Band Of Brothers and The Pacific together they will have an idea of what I'm talking about because I just want to tell them everything. I want them to know what it means to be a Soldier, I was born into the Army and I will die in it. I want them to know that the life they have lived has not been an easy one, that they are battle hardened and can do anything now. I want them to know, sadly, that they are not safe in this world and no one will protect them but each other. They have each other. They fight for the girl next to them because only they can understand what they went through. We are raped girls that lost a decade of our lives to slavery and torture. You survived and no one can take that from you. like Sledge, they might have survivors guilt cus not every girl that goes through what they went through made it.

I want them to listen to this song and think of me when they do. I want them to know I'm the one that brought them all together and we have years at Maiden Heights still so there is no rush to live your lives.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=58TBZnvyGwQ&list=RD58TBZnvyGwQ&start_radio=1

>>82453922
Peter Pan that's what they call me and from this day you'll never be lonely.

>>82453938
Birdy you are my home sweet home.

>>82453956
How could you look at this drawing and not want it to become a reality? Birdy and I are a perfect couple. Tatiana(me) on the right and her(Birdy) on the left. How could anyone read any of this and continue the screeching and pains in my body? How could they lie to my face about my reality and not just want this to become my new reality?

How? How is this possible. Something so pure, innocent, and beautiful. What is keeping this from ending and starting a new? I NEED my beautiful morning. I need to wake up and look at my hands, my feet, my panties. I need to look to my left and see Birdy sleeping peacefully next to my bed in her recliner, just waiting for me to wake up and kiss her. I need her to wrap her arms around me and snug my hair. There is no way we don't have sex that morning, my heart cannot contain such a miracle. I want to run out the door and scream at the top of my lungs. I want to see the maidens all waiting for us to leave my room. I want to hug every single one of them. Nothing can measure the kind of strength in our hearts. We're all connected in this love.

I want to watch Justin's and Jimmy's video explaining my situation. I want to know what The Show is. I want to cry for an hour. I want to leave the room and sit in the garden until someone comes out to get me. I want it to still be summer so I can feel the cold dew on my bare feet. I want to hear the french birds and smell the sweet grass. I want to breath in the cold morning air and just think about everything for awhile. I can't think of anything else. I can't think beyond that moment. I just want to be alive. I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to know what it's like to wear a gown of gold and white. I want ice cream and lemonade for lunch. I want to stare at my face for way too long in the mirror.

I want my mother to know that I'm safe with my lost girls.

I want to read the letter Renee left me.

I want to know their names so badly. To see their beautiful faces.

>>82454060
This is me. This is how I will look perfectly. It needs to happen or this world is not worth living in. Please make it happen or end my life. I cannot live like this anymore. Everything is over for me if Tatiana doesn't become real.

Remember when I said
>And now I await the lash back because I revealed the truth about Colton.

>I watch as all the threads start popping up with LARPs to manipulate your emotions and drive you around

Well here they are, just like I said

>>82453575
>>82453581
>>82453614
>>82453725
>>82453763

When you read a post look at what it says. What emotion is it attempting to invoke in you and is it trying to make you think bad of Mike? To assume things about Mike? To change how you feel or to identify how you feel as something negative about Mike?

The posts are never reflecting how you actually feel, they are TELLING You how you feel and hoping that you are retarded enough to then start feeling that way because they tricked you and manipulated your emotions.

If you see a thread and identify a post as Colton's and his manipulative LARP. Stop reading the thread and judge Colton for being a manipulative piece of shit and distance yourself from him.

It is that simple.

>I am pasting the links to the second 5 of his in the next post

>In the middle of this post are the second 5 of his linked

Remember when I said
>And now I await the lash back because I revealed the truth about Colton.

>I watch as all the threads start popping up with LARPs to manipulate your emotions and drive you around

Well here they are, just like I said


>>82453800
>>82453922
>>82453956
>>82454060
>>82454107

When you read a post look at what it says. What emotion is it attempting to invoke in you and is it trying to make you think bad of Mike? To assume things about Mike? To change how you feel or to identify how you feel as something negative about Mike?

The posts are never reflecting how you actually feel, they are TELLING You how you feel and hoping that you are retarded enough to then start feeling that way because they tricked you and manipulated your emotions.

If you see a thread and identify a post as Colton's and his manipulative LARP. Stop reading the thread and judge Colton for being a manipulative piece of shit and distance yourself from him.

It is that simple.

I stand on the edge of impossibility,
torn between the cosmos and the cruel.
I either have the greatest mother the world has ever seen,
or the cruelest, sharpest shadow of a mother to exist.
If Tatiana does not come to be,
my life is the bleakest tale ever spun.
If she does-oh, if she does-
my mother becomes the brightest star in history,
and I, a soul bathed in fortune.

Every night, I wish it into being.
Every single night, though hope is a fragile bird in my chest.
I have witnessed miracles the world refuses to name:
the moon vanishing, houses tipping upon their axis,
cars and cats leaping through the unseen,
objects dancing at God's command alone.
I speak without sound; minds hear me as if by telepathy.
I exist half in a simulation,
where reality blurs and the matrix breathes.

I have been tortured long enough
to understand the weight of eternity.
So many songs, so many stories have been written
for a soul like mine-they move me, unceasingly.

Please, Gwen, I beg of you-
let it be real.
Let Birdy, my sister, my heart,
walk through this door.
Let us be a family,
a small constellation of love: mother, sister, and I.
We are new gods waiting to awaken,
and I carry dreams too beautiful to end.

My love, my forever, my little bloodfeather,
please make this happen.
Some things are too pure to release,
too precious to remain a dream.
If a second chance is ever owed,
it is this: Birdy's life, our reality, our love.
A decade of my life has burned in waiting-
forgive me, I beg, but I cannot bear the absence.

>>82454314
All I had has been swept away:
my family, my friends, my art,
every fragment of a life I once knew.
I would give it all again
to have Birdy, my sister by blood and heart.
I cannot be alone; I cannot be the only one like me.
We were meant to grow old together,
yet we remain frozen, eternal teenagers
on the cusp of forever.

Please, God, please, Gwen,
let Birdy take my hand tonight.
I love her with every pulse of my being.
I have so much to give, yet the world confines me,
using all its resources to hold me prisoner.
I thought the end was near.
I thought freedom awaited.
Yet the torment lingers-why, when the tyrants fall?
Why do they still hold the strings of my body,
my mind, my very existence?

I miss the best moments of my angels.
I long to grow with them, to learn and laugh,
to exist as a normal girl once more.
I have waited ten long years,
watching friends age, dreams fade,
as if life itself conspires against me.
Yet I dream of them still-my lost girls, my Iron Maidens,
my Easy Company, my Spartans.
I dream of holding their hands,
guiding them, loving them,
sharing every secret, every lesson.

They are the only ones who understand,
the only ones who survived.
I want them to know strength, joy, courage,
to know the weight they carry is not theirs alone.
We are sisters in battle, forged in fire,
yet the world has not let us rest.
I want to teach them, protect them,
and stand with them at dawn,
our hearts beating in unison,
our voices crying freedom to the sky.

Peter Pan, they call me,
and in this world of shadows,
I will never let them be lonely.
I want to wake,
to see Birdy sleeping by my side,
to hold her, to kiss her,
to run into the sun with our maidens at our backs.
I want to feel dew on my feet,
hear the French birds sing,
taste ice cream and lemonade,
look into the mirror and smile at life itself.

>>82454319

I want my mother to know
that I am safe with my lost girls,
that the angels are alive,
and our love endures.
I want their names, their faces, their souls
etched into my memory like stars in the night sky.
I long for reality to bend to our desire,
for the impossible to finally unfold.

Let it be tonight.

>The Impossible Morning
>Tatiana and Wakkawa

>>82454314
>>82454319
>>82454331

>And here's three more

Remember when I said
>And now I await the lash back because I revealed the truth about Colton.

>I watch as all the threads start popping up with LARPs to manipulate your emotions and drive you around

Well here they are, just like I said

When you read a post look at what it says. What emotion is it attempting to invoke in you and is it trying to make you think bad of Mike? To assume things about Mike? To change how you feel or to identify how you feel as something negative about Mike?

The posts are never reflecting how you actually feel, they are TELLING You how you feel and hoping that you are retarded enough to then start feeling that way because they tricked you and manipulated your emotions.

If you see a thread and identify a post as Colton's and his manipulative LARP. Stop reading the thread and judge Colton for being a manipulative piece of shit and distance yourself from him.

It is that simple.

SD
My life has been a genuine living hell because of you and I want to an hero. I hope youre happy.

>>82454672
>schizo dykebot
Are you that 47 fella?

>>82454755
>doesn't know she was a government asset sent to control the incels on the incel board

>>82454779
no you're wrong. she was real and she was nice to me nta btw

>>82454795
>no you're wrong. she was real and she was nice to me nta btw
Oh brother.... You're the special kind of retard that would fall for a hookers flattery. Your glasses and polo look dumb thats just the script

>>82454755
No i'm another anon heart broken by the heartless harlot of the 'k
She just unadded me
Out of nowhere
I thought we were getting along fineeeee

>>82454755
The initials definitely dont stand for that but in a way that does describe her personality.

>>82454815
glasses and a polo? lmaoo imagine the comically geriatricly old fat loser that's behind the screen. that's what pops up in you head when you think of a virgin? this isnt a fucking movie lmaooooo

>>82454908
Is your maria also an adorable little snowbunny?

>>82454945
I wouldnt call her my Maria but she did horrible and irreversible things to my life and reputation and I havent recovered in years despite my best attempts

>>82454988
Whats most sad is at some point I managed to recover. I had a gf, great career, friends, then they all came back for me and started making false accusations again and ruined everything .

>>82454908
>>82454945
>>82454988
You do know that Maria is not schizo dykebot?

>>82455047
Yeah we know. one's a fat bitch

Oh yeah forgot 47 larped about Maria being schizo dykebot before.

https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/81382560/#81384327

Yeah maria's a fat bitch

Proven here with schizo dyke bot being shown at the bottom
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/82317212/#82318054

Which leads me to believe that 47 doesn't actually know my Maria in the first place. Interesting!

Heh yeah maria's a fat bitch

>>82455165
47 i would literally stretch out your cat asshole if you tried anything

Screenshot shows posts 47 made with the words "my Maria" and saying she is schizo dyke bot.

Also post of schizo dyke bot saying she is not the Maria I know (mikes Maria)

SO 47 WAS LARPING ABOUT KNOWING MARIA

>>82455229
Just noticed the time on my screenshot showing 47 larp of schizo dykebot and maria

10:23 pm

More 123, everything is going to be okay
>>82451515

>>82455214
My trip is Mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE

Showing this Mike post is fake

Now he's making fake posts of me now that he got called out.

So 47, want to repeat to the class what you did too puppyanon?

>>82455285
Ooh ooo ooo i know this one. I know this one.

>>82455310
Does the answer of anything to do with how slog Doom and 47 are the same person?

In any case. I remember Maria for who she is. I believe she remember me for who I am.
>>82451559
>>82451564
>>82451578
>>82451643
>>82451655

The best thing she can do for us besides contacting me is

>When you read a post look at what it says. What emotion is it attempting to invoke in you and is it trying to make you think bad of Mike? To assume things about Mike? To change how you feel or to identify how you feel as something negative about Mike?

The posts are never reflecting how you actually feel, they are TELLING You how you feel and hoping that you are retarded enough to then start feeling that way because they tricked you and manipulated your emotions.

If you see a thread and identify a post as Colton's and his manipulative LARP. Stop reading the thread and judge Colton for being a manipulative piece of shit and distance yourself from him.

It is that simple.

S
But seriously, fuck you. You genuinely ruined my life.

The people who did it dont even care about you. They simply wanted to make my life hell for the kick of it.

W
If anything , I moved on to your friend, but you all decided to cockblock me from her.

>>82454180
Shut up dipshit. "Make you think bad of mike" my ass.
I'm an E and I wrote this for an M, not maria though let's make that clear >>82453763
This is why some people really hate you here. You have the gall to tell them to just write a letter to their person and this is what you do when someone does. Kindly and with sugar on top picrel.

>>82455540
does this mean she takes 3 dicks? at once, you think?

>>82455629
Seriously I could have had K, but you all purposely ganged on me for that. What for ?

>>82455681
>>82455769

I'll just link back to what I said for reference

>>82455615

I have just confirmed that schizo dykebot is not Maria based on her profile pic.

Feels good man.

Slow
Slow me down
Her blood
On my bones
Let go
Lay to rest
We fall
Sleep, sleep all night
Alone, until I get home
I float on, float on down
We ride it all out
Alone, until I get home
I'm coming back
She follows me
Takes me home

You wanna be amazed
And see the sky on delay

Keep a close eye
For the ships in the sky
Resurrections signs
To the numbers aligned

123

Until then

of course my primary school teacher was a woman (can't do anything right)

she ruined my life by her incompetence

If I had known where I was I wouldn't have come back for the second day. Just stay away from me and I'll stay away from you. I think that's probably fair.

That was really pathetic how you asked me to give you a shot even though I have a bf. I am not the only woman on earth, that's disrespectful and desperate.

>>82457511
she's too busy showin off her cleavage to your 10 year olds

>You have to wait a while before reporting another post.
Amazing how fucking incompetent the mods on r9k are.

u faggot cops r useless at ur manhunt all u know how to do is kill ur workhorses

I made up a whole character cause i feel so alone HA

Ethan,
Wake up.
You're in a dream. You need to wake up.
Ethan, wake up!

I wonder how many years it will be staring off at the ceiling and rotting, or how many liters of ethanol it will take to be able to tolerate things after this time. Last time was many years, I wonder if it will be over a decade this time. Will I be around even in a decade? Maybe something good will happen, but it seems like an inevitable outcome.

The screaming in my ears this morning are knife world levels. It hasn't been this bad in weeks now. What did I do to piss them off last night? It's absolutely fucking ridiculous. Someone needs to fucking do something.

i'm the one that gets threatened to be killed out of the fault of the police (as usual), and then the police charge me for it (as usual). stop making problems for yourself you faggot pigs so you can plant a fucking bomb on me and then charge me for it ya faggots

>>82458562
sorry what the fuck do you want me to do I'm insane.

I want to be Master Chief just so I can call Birdy Gunny. It's too god damn cute to make her a gunnery sergeant. I know they are different branches but calling Birdy Gunny makes me so fucking happy. We will be like the old breed to the maidens.

The Chief has gone on too many missions alone and needs her Spartans to carry her to the finish. I will cry for days if they showed up and just told me "We got ya Chief."

Able, Baker, Charlie with Gunny and Chief. It will be the cutest fucking thing to ever happen. I really want them to at least spend 3 weeks in basic to learn the fundamentals and get them in the right mindset. We band of brothers, the Angels, the iron maidens.

>>82458760
Just give me protection.

if you block mike, these letter threads end up only having like 4 posts.
mike, please seek therapy and gtfo

Please refrain from misattributing characterizations. I play very, very hard; I don't appreciate your muddling of the mythology.

>>82458347
It isn't incompetence so much as a petty bias-favoritism axis.

>>82459537
Laughing in people's faces isn't the same thing as coming clean, modbitch. You will not be redeemed.

my cards are good, but I think she's playing kind of hard to get to make so once I get to have sex together with her I'd also want to stay with her for however long it lasts. I think she assumes I only want to have sex with her once and then disappear... and that couldn't be any more wrong. even if I did tell her I didn't want anything serious.

that said: if her opinion of me is what I think it is - "he's a virgin that's a bit rough around the edges, but he's definitely a keeper if his faults are taken care of" her logic is sound:
if I give up, I didn't meet her expectations.
if she lets me do what I wanted to do ever since the very first moment I've met her, it means she finally managed to fix me, her own way.

I'm playing this by hear, and I like it this kind of game. it feels like I'm playing Demon Souls for the first time straight on NG+, except I'm doing it with a fine woman.
picrelated, that's me.

JULIANA SEX SEX SEX

SELF_DEFENSE

My entire life has been torture because some redheaded bitch decided to tell people to stalk me and some autistic Filipino on the internet had a problem with me


Life comes at you fast, one moment your trying to put your life together, the next some autistic Filipino has an issue with you and decides to make your life a living hell

Whats sad is I rebuilt but they came after me again. Stealing whatever chance or hope I had at living a normal life again.

And of course they all just take it casually and just say it happened a long time ago, etc. but in the end that doesnt matter, its less about you and more about their own convenience.


The world can be fucked anons, some day a parking ticket could unexpectedly destroy your life. Its weird how people gang up on you like this

can't believe i said those things. holy fuck i'm an idiot.

>>82451688
>thinks runit is colton
holy autism

>>82461854
Do you think it's Ashley who is making all the creepy stalking posts and doing >>82454590

I am as I am and I choose Maria just as I did before.

Your situationships are the most basic scenarios I've ever seen in my life.

I am having a good day today.
Have a cat

All it would take it a single phone call to go forward and move past all this. It's really quite simple to over come this in between and have each other just as before.

Eb And flow
I'd dwell there too

I can't stop thinking about my new friends. I long for them so badly. I just want to hold them and guide them and learn with them. I want to live with them.

I pray I didn't just make them up. They are my dreams.

Uber eats popped up on my phone "give Mariah a moment"

>>82463285
4:44 pm btw

>>82451888
Trips confirm. This shitter's narcissism only gets more obvious as time goes on.

>>82464124
I didn't write to myself. How about you spend your time writing an actual letter and not obsessing over me?

>>82464145
Jesus Christ, you're also a complete fucking moron. Seriously end yourself, you narcissistic fuck

>>82464199
Okay now that you're done throwing a tantrum and making things up how about you write an actual letter In the letter thread or GTFO?

>>82452709
I know even of I don't see, hear or get told shit is happening. It's a sixth sense kind of deal that one acquires only after severe trauma, be it psychological or physical.

>>82464283
Dear Michael, the narcissistic shitter extraordinaire . . .

Claiming that someone calling you what you are (a narc piece of shit) is somehow the one throwing a tantrum, when your entire posting presence is a tantrum over not having narcissistic control over Maria and her choices, is psychological projection in its most demonstrative state

Sincerely end it,
Anon

>>82464487
Nah these poster just demoralization attempts. Instilling fear and dread. Ignore them

>>82464545
I don't wish to interact with you any further just as you don't even wish to interact with me. ad d me to your filter list. Don't write to me any further.

If you do continue to write to me, it shows that you want to continue to be involved with me and discredit everything you have said so far.

So responding my post and show that you are a liar and that I do have worth or do not respond ever again to any of my posts.

The same goes for anybody else going forward. Write anything negative to me and you're only showing that you want me around and that everything you say negative about me is only a guys to get my attention because you're so desperate for it.

If you truly think badly of me add me to your feelings are list never talk to me ever again and don't say single thing here about me.

Will you do that? Or will you show everyone here that you are actually obsessed with me and I live around free in your head and you can't help yourself but to talk to me because you need my attention

The same goes for anybody else going forward. Write anything negative to me and you're only showing that you want me around and that everything you say negative about me is only a guise to get my attention because you're so desperate for it.

If you truly think badly of me add me to your filter list and never talk to me again and don't say asingle thing here about me.

Will you do that? Or will you show everyone here that you are actually obsessed with me and I live rent free in your head and you can't help yourself but to talk to me because you need my attention

>>82464589
ABSOLUTE LMAO

>if you reply to me, then it means THIS -- because I said so . . .
Look at you attempting to establish control over public perception. When will you end it for real, narc boy? We're tired of these false cries for attention

>>82464689
Look at that. Everything you said was a lie.

Good to know you're obsessed with me.

I will now write five times as much just for you.

Aren't you special?

It's quite a treat for you not to add me to your filter list. Because then you will see every single one of my posts and I know that you will reply to them, even if your words seem negative I know it's only because you want my attention. And that's okay. You are going to be okay.

Every opportunity never to hear from me again just by adding me to your filter list. But instead you choose to actively engage with me.

What a special needy little boy

>>82464550
Nah, if I'm right I know that poster in real life. Even though he is doing something that greatly annoys me, technically he isn't doing anything wrong and I also deserve it.

>>82464830
Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall

>>82451337 (OP)
Dear LiLac. I hope you see this. I'm still in limerance with you but is it really limerance if we've interacted digitally before? When does it stop being limerance and become real? I actually do miss you and would like to speak with you again one day.

>>82464841
My greatest glory is the decency of owing up my mistakes and admitting defeat in every single front that matters. Everything else is meaningless details.

>>82464858
I agree. When I'm with my loved one that's a given.

Mariah doesn't want you. She will never want you.

>>82465108
Nah bro, all that matters is her perception of him.
What's that? She knows where to find him but she'd rather avoid him? Well that's just the narcs' fault and colton and dykebot and others.

>>82451337 (OP)
Dear HoS,
Sorry for ghosting you, but you look like my ex (you being half a foot taller yet still bigger and more muscular, along with being close by, but still). And who the fuck uses snapchat anymore? Mainly though meeting up in person is intimidating so soon. I could accept snapchat for you, I suppose. But you better keep up with your conversational skills.

>>82465108
>>82465242
Keep your face always towards the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you.

The good thing is the only people who decide the future between Maria and I is Maria and I. No response, comment, whatever toward me matters. Purely empty words and if they are negative it only is a reflection on that person, not Maria or I.

>>82465431
LMAO it's always the most ill basket cases that spout the "wise affirmations" in online spaces

MARIA
DOES NOT
WANT YOU

what a retard

>>82465559
>>82465566
It always seems impossible until it happens.

Love isn't measured by signs or judged by outsiders. no matter what it looks like to them, no one else has the authority to declare who your heart belongs to, or who belongs to you.

It is decided by that person, and that person only.

Mariah already decided it wasn't you, dumbass

The only voice that matters in love is the one who holds your heart. listen to them, not to the noise of others, not to the signs they claim to see or the decisions they claim the other has made. They will never know the truth and have no capability to claim how your love feels about you.

Yeah, listen to her actions when she says she doesn't fucking want you, loser

>>82465684
I don't take my truth from outsiders. I'll hear it from her directly, not from strangers reading into shadows

>>82465702
You already have heard it from her. You have her silence.

Why are you dumb?

>>82465702
>>82465715
Silence isn't the same as a verdict. I'll take her words when she gives them, not your assumptions dressed up as facts.

>>82465769
Silence is indeed a verdict. And that verdict is in -- SHE. DOES NOT. WANT. (YOU)

Why are you dumb?

Why are you so dumb, Michelle?
Tell

ran that bitch off

>>82465566
I was mourning Mikes loss but then remeber he was a schizo

>>82465783
>>82465810
Her truth will come from her lips, not from strangers who shout over the silence they don't understand.

>>82466239
Mike just go talk to other women

>>82466239
Why are you a retard? Could you help me to understand?

>>82466232
Stfu you skank

mike is a glownigger who got kicked out the NSA because of his schizo melties

>>82466286
But WHO is "Maria" codename for, then?

>>82466311
literally it's just his wife
don't read the "poetry" he posts it's script not poetry
and you dont wanna run that script

>>82466311
Where is my love. Where is she. I can sense her mana on you.

>>82466335
im gonna piss on you, literally. im gonna make you open your sweet little mouth and hit you with the r-kelly deluxe. and you will smile wide and swallow every drop

>>82466335
Yeah, she got her mana all over my wand bro ..

>>82466355
the hitachi?

>>82466368
n-no! It was all me! It was MY wand. These spells don't need no assistance, you hear?

I miss lilac so much but she's never hear anymore. Why has she abandoned me and this place? I need her positivity and energy. I need to hear her angelic voice. Pls. I'm starving for you.

kek what a simp

I wanna spam letters to my bitch (not my bitch) but faggot mike will think I'm larping as him somehow, what a narc

Good night my limerence love until these dreams come true.

MICHAEL
With whomst dost Marie share her sexual life mana on this night? What spellcasting Chad did she choose over you? How does it feel knowing you'll never be the first to open her potion bottle?

W

Eat shit

M

Maria, I trust you over them

>>82467103
Are you Shadow the Hedgehog

>>82467103
She's laying with some warlock CHAD with a thick, powerful staff literally RIGHT NOW you simp. He's taking all of her firsts away from you. You'll never share them with her.

Why would she ever want your sorry fucking ass? Have you ever given it a good ponder?

Yep, I just heard. He performed the vanishing act and made Maria's virginity disappear

Every card in her deck are now all hearts

Maria was like "abbra ka DAMN!"

She was definitely not his first act, if you know what I mean

lord grant me respite from rumination and allow my mind to find peace and my body to rest. guide me to your embrace where salvation lies waiting. cradle me there so i may know your love eternal

My mana detection post was not about Maria.

>>82467278
No shit, you limerent fucktard

>>82467298
Then why are you using my post to attack someone else? That's really low I.Q. of you.

Just imagine lusting over trash

>>82467329
You're so low IQ that this is literally your take

>>82467331
i lust over my sexy little trans "trash"
she'll be 30 soon
i'll still love her
no need to write letters here anymore though.

>guys I mentioned this one word, this concept once and therefore any and every reference to it thereafter must be about me and my post in some way
Narcissism all around

finished illusion of gaia, might do robotrek next even though it's so different from the other quintet games. was cool to see the bonus dungeon, especially coming straight from soul blazer.

>>82467136
I trust that I'm all for firsts. That's all it takes. She made a promise to me and she will keep it because I'm keeping my promises to her.

>>82467505
kek the fucking delusion

How in the world are you so stupid? Like for real. How did it happen?

i knew astlibra was going to be special when surface tension started playing during the boss encounter with the guardian beast on the cave of libra and i got goosebumps, i'm still haunted by that game

>>82467519
True love. Commitment. Honesty. Care. Faithfulness. Strength. Fortitude. This is what I embody and they promise I made. She keeps these same to me. I know that she will message me because I am her home too.

>>82467699
The Moon only has eyes for the Sun

>>82467831
"You have to wait for me"
"I love you Maria with all my heart and I will wait as long as you need"
"I love you too. That makes me feel at ease"
"I promise it will be Mike and Maria at the beach someday"

We keep our promises to each other. Always. Even in silence, even in distance, this arguing is temporary and she'll always have that empty part needing me. She will always love and care about me no matter what. We complete each other and are each other's home.

"I love you remember that"
"I'm only yours. I love only you."
"You're the best perfect to me I'm so lucky."
"I'm your home too, you are perfect"

I won't give up on you Maria.
We keep our promises to each other

>>82467831
Holy mental illness
You're perfect for each other

>>82467699
Your mono-directional obsession is what happens when you put too much value on words and not deeds. Enjoy your misery

>>82456747
wait, what profile pic? from where? what kind of platforms are you looking me up on, michael?

>>82469783
Maria feels the same about me. She will follow through with her promises with me and the action will happen. I trust her.

>>82469748
I know

>>82470393
Youtube

>>82470595
oh, okay, yeah, i've public posted that here before, so nothing too weird. it just slipped my mind and i thought you hunted down my discord or something.
glad you recovered from suicide, btw

>>82470658
Yeah the only reason was I had to deal with deciphering 47's lies.

Thanks.

>>82470763
ja ja. 47s a known liar so im glad you put him in his place, mike

>>82467699
bone chilling genre redefining slow burn passionate heart palpitatingly beautiful letter, mike i think maria will love it

>>82470855
Horrible person. I should have trusted her over him and his lies. I'm trusting her over everyone else now like I should have before. No matter what.

I'm sorry for my reactions towards you. I hope you can understand my perspective and The falsities I was being attacked with. It took me time to figure out who is who

In other news I hooked up my new 24" side monitor and it turns out it is running android. I wired Ethernet to it and used an app to cast it as an external windows display. I can swipe back to Android at any time seamlessly. Really fucking cool.

Trade our places in the night
We're running barefoot you and I
Dead lovers salivate
Broken hearts tesselate tonight

https://youtu.be/hi4sbEl9Ovs?si=MWEIomlLHfPfQHop

>be maria
>ignore obsessive weirdo ex for 5 years
>he still hasn't gotten the hint
Oh boy...

Just let me know if there's some reason I'm supposed to read all this.

>>82471364
Keep in mind too that based off his screencaps she was still in college when they last talked. She's probably an entirely different person now, I'm thankful she can't see him sperging out here.

>>82471408
Maybe she does and she is laughing.

>>82471364
>>82471408
Outsiders measure love in years and rumors,

The bond between two hearts isn't changed by time or strangers commentary, .

I measure her love for me in her voice as she last told me she loved me.

Hers is the only voice that matters.

>>82471408
Ya mike did you even fuck her? Weren't you losing your last bit of hair over the fact you though she lost her virginity a couple months ago or something to that extent though?

>>82471529
I won't listen to negative assumptions. I was swayed by impersonators and liars here before. I only will listen to what she say directly to me on discord, text. Nothing here.

>>82471695
How many years has it been since she's even spoken to you, shitter?

The last two months have been really hard for me. Huge changes happening in such a short amount of time. I feel alone. I guess this is just how life is sometimes, but it's taking everything I got to keep going on. Let alone do the things I need to do in order for things to improve. I know you'll read this. I know you'll think, then confirm it's me. I'm sorry. I have no idea what happened. Genuinely. I was convinced things were going to be a certain way, and I was wrong. I don't think it's anyone's fault specifically. Just a 1000 reasons why sort of deal.. Some large. Some small. I love you. I really do. I feel that in my heart.. But I feel like things are just not meant to work for us for some reason or the other.. Even with the certainties we used to share between us. I feel so lost. What I used to hold as an absolute has been ripped away from me. I feel like I could just curl up, and die. I wanted this to work so badly. I had so many good thoughts, and feelings. About us being together. A vision for how things would be. Heavenly. Together. As one.

I feel distant now more so than ever before.. Constantly at odds. I don't even understand it. It's like it did a complete 180. Which I guess can happen. Okay.. I understand that, but I was so convinced that wouldn't happen. That everything would be okay. Beauitful, even.. I felt like we were made for each other. I waited my whole life for this. You were my one, and only. Genuinely. Those feelings don't just disappear either.

I wanted that so much, and now I feel like it's an impossibility. I still want it. I just don't see how it could ever be. I am so sorry. I hope I didn't mislead you. Or that you feel tricked. I promise you won't ever have a problem with me. I just want to be good. I don't have any bad feelings towards you. I am just so utterly, and completetly heart broken right now. I am going to try very hard to keep things together, and function. I am just hurting very, very badly right now. I'm sorry.

>>82471695
Man you got to let it go. Getting ghosted hurts, but it happens because for one reason or the other, the party you were interested in does not want to associate or communicate with you anymore. Limerence sucks and I won't say the longing ever goes away but do you honestly think spamming thread after thread, post after post will result in anything but that person seeing you as a psychotic freak?

>>82471977
DEAR GOD JUST MESSAGE ME ON DISCORD OR ELSEWHERE I LOVE YOU TOO YOU DUMMY

Pots calling kettles black ITT innit

>>82472004
He trusts her words utterly and completely, he won't listen to your negativity. He's above it.

>>82472012
You kind of sound like my person.. Can you message me first..? So I know for sure.. Sorry.. Just needed to get it out anonymously.. I know (You) can reach me.

I am broken with or without you
Do you like S3RL by the way? There is certain type of music that makes me think of you and imagining how we could listen to it when we'd finally hang out

>>82472049
Its probably not me bc I've said a bunch of mean degen stuff to my bf he like cut me off completely thats ok haha he was pretty and shy I hope he finds a decent girl but I miss him and cannot control it

Anyone saying anything negative about Michael are just envious, jealous people who wish they had his resolve and devotion. They desire his steadfast demeanor. They don't want Micah and Marianne to finally overcome their separation and be together forever at long last, to be One after trusting the God's plan and divine process which the jealous onlookers themselves gave up on when it came to their own Maria. They want to drag Micheal down so he despairs just as they despair

...oooorrr he's just a fucking retard, yeah I'm gonna go with that

>>82472049
Just post their initials, they'll know and probably reach out to you

Dubs confirm retard status 100 gajillion percent

>>82472110
No worries. You didn't really sound like them, but you responded. Wish you all the best.
>>82472138
They'll know.

dead friend

I lost, and I yield. you are way better than me when it comes to seduction. it was fun having you as my opponent, I like playing mind games against people that are as smart, or smarter than me.
well played. I'm happy you greatly helped me even if we both were aware we were in direct competition despite both of us not saying anything about it - for the most part. that means you not only are a real man, but you're also a good person, despite the fact you don't see yourself that way.
good game. let's just not do this kind of thing again.

HOW MANY YEARS, MICHAEAL???

>>82472212
Now i want maria too

>>82472212
... that said.

I find it odd you got annoyed because I went on two dates with her, both of which ended with me going home alone and relieving my sexual tension by rubbing one out. that should have not gotten under your skin at all, considering you got to fuck her brains out how many times now?

but again, I appreciate you as a fellow man, and as a friend. you made me understand some things about myself I wouldn't have noticed if I didn't have some conversations with you.

Maria is the ultimate seductresses. She doesn't even need to post and yet so many "men" simp regardless

Fuck I kinda want that bitch too now

>>82472391
I have no idea who tf Maria is and I think I'm better off if I don't know. if you want her yourself be my guest lol

>>82472435
Bro gtfo i was first

>>82470393
I don't like seeing you post about how happy you are after you abandoned me

>>82472436
Then what were u talking about, anone

>>82472440
You were first but I'm going first . . .

>>82472466
Maybe you'll need to rethink that

>>82471977
Then don't make yourself impossible to reach and run away... It will be fine if you're around. Just stop trying to burn things down when you get scared of the changes around you. I am and always will be here for you. You need to reach out.

>>82472523
You're not my person either.

66s vs 99s
Fine, I reconsider ..
The bitch is yours but I retain my second-in-line rights

>>82472455
IRL business, anon.

>>82472750
Why r u so vague, anon
Tell me the whole story

>>82472004
>He trusts her words utterly and completely, he won't listen to your negativity. He's above it.
Exactly this. Her over everyone and everything else. Thanks >>82472038

>>82471917
Time and distance do not matter with true love. We both feel the empty part inside of us where we complete each other. We are each other's home. She will come home to me. I trust her.

>>82472835
He was making fun of you however

>>82472785
two horny bastards, one is Chad, one is a virgin, compete for the same woman. Chad wins. fin.

>>82473039
NOOOO org org org org

>>82473092
The outcome was expected. Making a friend (and probably also having lost him too if I think about it) and gaining significant amounts of experience in the process was not.

>>82472012
>>82472012
>DEAR GOD JUST MESSAGE ME ON DISCORD OR ELSEWHERE I LOVE YOU TOO YOU DUMMY
Can't. You unfriended me and blocked me.

>>82472915
Lmao he's an absolute moron

>>82472849
BUT HOW MANY??

JULIANA BENT OVER SEX CUM IN MOUTH

Do you miss me? Do you love me? Do you hate me? Do I annoy you? Am I deranged? Is there any way I can become normal in your eyes? Am I pretty? Will you remember me forever? What do you want for birthday? Do you sleep well? Do you eat proper meals? Should I just forget you? Why do not you love me back can't you understand I am mean because you ignore me and it's not genuine hatred

>>82467831
Mike responds as if he's talking to an AI bro what are these one liners

I wonder if you ever directly state to your malpracticing, dumbass therapists what our age difference is. I wonder if you ever spell out that your big complex involves comparing the treatment of a teenager to the treatment of a very young child, and then I wonder if you spell out how that very young child was a latchkey kid by the time he was a teenager. You narcissistic faggot ass bitch.

>Every action you take anywhere on the website involves some long ass timer now.
>As though the website isn't already dead.

Glowing piece of shit cocksuckers gonna glowing piece of shit cocksuck.

I hate you for lying all the time I thought you liked me

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=vUuQPSwW0Uc&pp=ygURSm9jbyBvcmRpbmFyeSBtYW4%3D

Dear Kristian
I'm surprised to see you still feel lust for me. It's been a long time, and I'm not so sure you'd think I am even the same woman I used to be. But feel free to masturbate thinking about me if it makes you feel good. Oh and thank you for the inspiration, my life got easier since I borrowed part of your mindset. Be well.

>>82472212
>>82472422

I won't react to falsities and lies.
I disregard any and all posts that attempts to manipulate emotions.
I am stronger than that and dwell only with my Maria.
Everything else is outside of us.
I trust my Maria over all else.

"Remember I love you Mike, I am only yours. I love only you. You are my home , you complete me. "

>>82472523
Exactly the words Maria needed to hear to come home to me. Thank you for helping her come home to me.

>>82473039
The fact is I don't need to posture like you are.

I know my worth and value. I know I am worth everything. I know how lucky she is to have me. I know I am the most in love and lust.

Maria and I complete each other. We do this naturally for each other because we complete each other.

Nothing and no one else could ever compare.

Whatever you say, your words are empty and you are discarded for me in every way every time because Maria naturally is mine as I am naturally hers.

You got me losing all my cool

>>82474497
>my life got easier since I borrowed part of your mindset.
How did your mindset change and how did it make your life better?

>>82474989
Mike would you say Maria reminds you of a westside story? Please provide a fully detailed and appropriately schizophrenic response.

BALLS DEEP CUMMING IN JULIANA

"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect."

"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

"Mike, I love you, remember that. I'm only yours, I love only you"

"I love you more, my Mike"

I know I have lashed out in the past, I know you understand my perspective and why I said what I did.

Truth is I accept all of you, every part of you.

SURE
I'LL SET UP LIKE FIVE ACCOUNTS
ON MY OWN TIME
JUST FOR FUN
JUST ON THE OFF CHANCE THERE'S AN UPSIDE
I'LL DO THAT LIKE EVERY WEEK
WHY NOT

>PLEASE READ TEN THOUSAND WORDS OF DOCUMENTATION
>(WRITTEN BY SOMEONE WITH A SHITTY ATTITUDE)
>FOR FUN

I DO HAVE SOME EXPERTISE IN SOME TECH FIELDS
IS THERE ANY CHANCE I COULD POSSIBLY WORK IN ONE OF THOSE TECH FIELDS IN MY OWN COUNTRY DESPITE BEING FROM MY OWN COUNTRY?
COULD WE POSSIBLY MAKE AN EXCEPTION FOR ME?
THANKS

>>82475085
It's mostly studying the inner workings of the human life and applying that to life.

>>82475685
What an elaboration there

T,
I can't stop falling into our last moments before you were gone. I saw you hurting. I saw you choking. I got on my knees next to you and rubbed your back. Then you gave me this look that I can't unsee. The worry and confusion. Help me. There was nothing I could do. It happened so fast. Then you were gone. You fell over and stopped breathing. I held you the rest of the day and knew that every moment with you was so special, I never wanted to let go. That I would never feel you again. The worst hurt is wanting to do better. You died and I am here. You cried for me during the day when you needed me. After you passed, I cried out and when I heard my voice it matched yours. You had a heart attack and my heart is broken. I want so badly to do better with you and you are fucking gone. I don't have an excuse. You deserved everything and I fucked up. I hate myself for it and I'd give it all just to have more time with you. I'm sorry and I love you T.

>>82475685
Interesting. I'd like to hear more details but I wonder which post makes you think he still lusts for you? What if it wasn't him but someone else.

MICHAEL HOW MANY??????

>>82469783
I don't know what you know but you don't enjoy shit

It's not just words.

It's who she is to me and who I am to her.

The moon only has eyes for the Sun.

>>82476538
I enjoyed your mom

>>82476695
>It's not just words.
But it is. They're just words. And words are cheap.
If she loved you, then where the fuck is she?

Answer how many years it has been since you've even heard from her. How long has it been since she's even acknowledged your pathetic existence?

>>82476773
I trust and have faith in her over anyone and everyone else.

That includes your outside opinion, which is not welcome.

>>82476854
How many years? Over 5? Just say it . . .

Her truth will come from her lips to me directly, not from strangers who shout over the silence they don't understand.

True love does not fade with years or distance. When two souls are made for each other nothing can erase them. We are bound beyond circumstance and always drawn back together. Time only reveals what has always been true.
>>82476695

your faith is baseless and childish. no one's home, hang it up. stop dwelling on delusions and create something new o algo

All Maria is to you is a symbol for you to wear like a piece of fine jewelry. You don't care for the person. You revealed your true colours when you thought she lost her virginity. You showed what you cared about more. You cursed her and said she was garbage. Said she was disgusting and vile. How your regretted everything and even hoped she'd suffer for her "mistake." Your words turned vitriolic and hateful. Does that sound like real love? You didn't love her. No, you only loved what she *represented* to you -- the ideal fantasy. Your anima made flesh. And once the fantastical, ideal feminine image was tarnished, you turned on her. You 180'd quicker than a heartbeat. Your own words are meaningless, Michael. Even your own words mean nothing. All your letters. All your cheap talk about love this and love that, how you'll never let go of her and will always be by her side. Yada yada. We saw how strong your love for her was, didn't we? It's poetic bullshittery. It's just words. When she could no longer fulfill her role in your fantasy, you discarded her like an object. And that's all you really see her as. An object for wish fulfillment.

The proof is in the act, not the talk. If you really loved her for her, then your love would have remained intact. It wouldn't have changed on a dime But it did. Your love for her too flight like a bat in the night. You are a fake person, Mike. Your "love" is fake. Everything about you is inauthentic and just for appearance

W
Amazing how much insanity this all snowballed into. I hope you enjoyed it.

M

>>82477034
If anything things were normal for a brief moment, the pandemic probably just put the final nail in my coffin.

>>82476695
For the record Romeo, the moon doesn't give a shit about the sun beyond how the terra it revolves around is influenced by it. Even your petnames for each other reveal reality.

David,
i know you are madly in love with me
Watcha gonna do about it??

Enough of Mike and his retarded drama. I could have easily been a Chad but my life got fucked.

Console me anons; im past the point of no return. Im basically a full on incel at this point with no hope of recovery

>>82476934
>Time only reveals what has always been true.
How many years has it been since she's wanted to talk to you? How many years does it take to reveal what's always been true, that she doesn't want you?

adding bahamut lagoon, live a live, treasure of the rudras and chaos seed to the backlog. the live a live remaster is a totally new beast so i'll hit that after. i'm always open to trying these off the beaten path snes games cause i had such a good time with alcahest and gun hazard.

>>82476953
you have no idea what I go through, or what I"ve experience yet you sit there and speak like you know better about my own personal life. You're fucking conceded you snooping slut

Mike. lol *(mic drop)*
/thread.

I won't listen to a jealous outsiders garbage.

Maria is all that matters to me, just as I'm all that matters to Maria.

Whatever you say here does not matter, you do not matter.

I love her with all my heart.

I choose my Maria over anything and everything you say everyday.

I'm above you, I'm above your garbage.

I dwell and choose my Maria, my moon.

The fact is despite any and all difficulties we have endured, the lies and manipulations of others such as you to mislead and cause reactions to drive us away from each other, I am still here for her, my heart still loves her.

I have made mistakes listening to people like you and reacting to people like you.

I take accountability for that.

I love my Maria, the same as before.

Our love is all that matters.

We are above you in every way.

I have faith in her above everything else. I stand strong in my faith of her, of us.

man you are shitting up these threads so hard, Mike. you not thinking about slowing down, no?

we need 2 letter threads at all times. 1 letter thread is for /Mike edition/ only. the other letter thread is /NO Mike edition/

There's so much people here do not know of me, ways that everyday I choose her over everything else. Feelings I have for her. The love I have for her. The way I stay true for her. My truth of her.

There's so much people here do not know of Maria. The way she chooses me over everything else, feelings she has for me. The love she has for me. The way she stays true to me. Her truth of me.

It takes consistent commitment and faith in her to make the decisions I do every day, choosing her above anyone else. Even in silence, even in distance, even with all the distortions that others project onto us here, trick mislead and manipulate us here. It is true I have reacted here to other slides of manipulations, impersonations of her towards me. I regret that, and I'm sorry for it. I reacted and said I've been with other people and said horrid words here. The truth is I've not been with anyone else and I regret reacting that way toward others lies, manipulations, and impersonations of her.

What matters is how I am in real life with her, and in real life I've stayed committed, true, faithful, and loyal to her.

>>82478902
Instead of spamming The thread with negative opinions, how about you write an actual letter? The fact that you don't and are overly focused on me says your intentions. Live your own life, stop obsessing over mine and reacting to it here.

Write your own letter to your own person.

man cynthia's theme goes hard

sorry i was such an overwhelming monumentally overbearing dick at the exact moment your domestic situation got kind of hectic and all that other stuff happened, i still regret what i said and i didn't mean any of it, i was just lashing out in anger, i've since learned to practice mindfulness and self control. it must have been hard for you and i feel ashamed to have added onto the pile, i'm sorry. we're never going to speak again though.

>>82478953
>The way she chooses me over everything else
Yeah, she certainly chooses you over everything else. That's why you've not heard from her in 5 years, huh Michael?

>>82478953
>I reacted and said I've been with other people and said horrid words here. The truth is I've not been with anyone else
Lmao I fucking called it. You're a narcissistic manipulator. I have a certain radar for you shitters

Again I choose her over anything and everything you say. I won't listen to a strangers manipulations and attempts to shift emotions and cause reactions.

And strong steadfast and true in my trust and belief, faith of her.

She's worth more than you in every way

I hope you get better but you have done literally nothing in the past few years to help your self, You act like anyone trying to help (doctors, friends etc) are all in on some big scheme to fuck with you , they aren't, you just have the attitude of a spoilt child

>Do these exercises to help out
No
>At least do one occasionally
No
>walk around the block once a day
No
>walk around the house once a day
No
>At least stand up once during the day
No
>You need to do something over the course of a week to keep your legs good
No

>"UGH WHY IS ALL THIS HAPPENING TO MEEE?????"


Also FUCK mike

>>82480102
Like I said I reacted to the lies and manipulations of others here like you. I won't do that any further.

>>82480173
>Like I said I reacted to the lies and manipulations of others here like you.
Look the fuck at you being a narc right now and blaming someone else for YOUR actions. No, you didn't "react to the manipulations of others". You were being a shitter and broadcasting to the thread about fucking some 18 year old, having some fake phone logs about some girl glazing over your dick after you fucked her, et cetera in a shitterly attempt to make Maria jealous and realize she was losing you. You weren't manipulated into doing that. You did that because that's who the fuck you are. You're a narcissistic piece of shit who operates via control through emotional manipulation. That's you.

Also it wasn't you "being manipulated" when you turned hateful on Maria when you thought she lost her virginity. The monster lurking beneath the mask came out in that moment, irrespective of whether she actually lost her virginity or not. Your true colours came out, Michael. You are inauthentic, and personal integrity and accountability is anathema to you. You couldn't take accountability if your life depended on it

Sometimes I think back and wonder about Jeff. What a curious figure. Here I am, early 20s, naive, and getting fucked with really hard by this older couple. And this guy with a gen x soccer coach persona is, for some reason, very fascinated by the situation and monitoring it very closely. DMing everyone involved. Getting the deets. So then you look into what he's been up to, and this 35-year-old has a conspicuous fascination with all things youthful. Get someone under the age 25 in his proximity, and he takes a very keen personal interest in whatever they've got going on.
So then I think, well in some ways I *kind* of turned out like that, at least in the sense that I'm still here, still addicted to the internet. But I never go around trying *really hard* to fit in with people fifteen, twenty years younger than I am. I've never been some mover and shaker on the "cucking some random guy" scene. If I find out I'm talking to someone younger than 25, I actually get a little uncomfortable. But not Jeff. Jeff is everyone's coach/guidance counselor. Except he's not. He's basically doing 09A shit. To kids.
Very curious desu. I wonder what Jeff is up to these days.

Of course nothing will be as strange as Todd receiving a bunch of institutional cover and protection. Dirty old faggot must be working on something really important up there. And the other guy who was literally some kind of industrial magnate. I suppose I really stepped in something, come to think of it.
Maybe they were fucking with me over who my distant relatives are, supposing I might be something that I'm not. Or maybe some people hit a certain stratum of access, and they become sick perverts who subjugate and ruin others as a form of depraved indulgence.
Part of me realizes I should just carry on and stay constructive, enjoying the room in my karmic budget. Part me of me feels an almost spiritual duty to fixate on this until I find an opening.
Because frankly, it would infuse my life with meaning again if I got to help destroy you.

>>82480045
Meaningless apology without telling them and refusing to talk to them honestly. Unless they've made it so you can't.

>>82480620
it's not for you don't worry

>>82480843
Maybe it is, maybe it isn't. Regardless, it remains that apologies not expressed aren't apologies.

>>82480941
your own commentary is equally meaningless by your own admission since you freely admit you lack any of the context and don't actually know anything about my situation. did it occur to you that perhaps i've expressed these sentiments to them in person already and felt the urge to reiterate them in here as a form of stress relief? there could be a vast depth of unexpressed information in a single post you're not privy to, you presume too much.

>Maybe it is, maybe it isn't.

it definitely isn't, put your mind at ease.

You know, I used to think I might be rewarded somehow for not making a big deal about things. For keeping your secrets.
But at this point, I'm getting too old for it to matter.

INSEMINATE JULIANA SEX SEX SEX

But if you're ever looking for a way to unpiss me off, money would be great. I am not a very complex person. If I could maintain enough independence to just never deal with anyone like you ever again, that would make life bearable.

I didn't even read your words. I just minimized them because they mean nothing.

She's worth more than you in every way. I'm not going to react to The words of strangers, outsiders who have no say in our relationship.

I choose my Maria.

I love Maria with all my heart. I admit I have made mistakes and I take accountability for that. I choose her overall else.

It's very clear you have an agenda. Making up lies, impersonations of her, manipulations to make me react in the way I have in the past. I take your attempts of manipulation of emotion and I cast it aside in the trash where it belongs. It is outside of us and It means nothing.

I stand strong over everything else choosing my Maria.

I was misled just as she was. Such of the time I was messaged by someone saying they were her. Such as all the times someone has larped as me here to trick her. There's enough that happened from liars manipulators here. Most likely it is you.

That is in the past. You are worth nothing.

I choose my Maria as my Maria chooses me.

You are outside of us, you are a distraction, and attempt to lead us away from each other for whatever reason your agenda is.

I'm not even reading your words because I see them for what they are, just further attempts to hurt us.

Every time I see your post I just minimize it and disregard it because it is just that.

I stand strong in my truth. I love her and accept her completely, she loves and accepts me completely. We are each other's home and complete each other. That is all that matters.
No matter what happens that will not change.

I will always be here for her. Nothing anyone else says or does will change that because we are above that. I have a mistakes, she has made mistakes. I hold accountability directly to her. I apologize directly to her. She is the judge of that. Not you, not anyone in this thread. You were just the wind, attempts to manipulate and distort words and emotions. I shut you outside, disregard him minimize everything you say because your words don't matter. Maria matters and hers are the only words that I will listen to, when told me directly.

Maria and I, our truth, Is all that matters.

I stand strong in that. I dwell in our truth.

We are safe, accepted, and loved in each other's voice.

Only our voice with each other matters.

>>82481397
Holy shit bro stfu please for the love of God.

The fuck are you even trying to achieve here?

Fuuuck

Go on a fucking hike up a mountain, bring an mp3 player, map and compass, leave the phone at fucking home.

Do anything other than making another retarded gay fucking 4chan post.

>>82481421
Never. I will never "shut up". If anyone says anything here negative about us I will always respond. If you don't want my response, you don't want my posts here then how about you shut the fuck up with your words of manipulating emotion.
Take my name and put it in your filter. This allows me to write my letters in peace, and it allows you to write your letters in peace. It is the sane thing to do. If you do not do this and you continue to criticize me, chasing attack me and her, it clearly shows you have an agenda and I will fight for her to the bone for the rest of my life here if I have to

Danil you know I love you please come back I will be better now. I promise you

>>82481519
You're my antithesis.

I won't ever filter your retarded tripfaggotry as it's a reminder of what I need to work hard not to become and also how much better I am than someone like you.

You're posts are unoriginal, narcissistic crying of a fucking immature loser.

I probably won't respond to any of your other replies to me, nor initiate another convo.

Just know I've been here the entire time, before your trip started posting, observing. I never said a word. I suppose even I have a limit.

All the best to you man, hopefully you can escape your Untermensch life, though I doubt it.

>>82481552
responding to myself, just discovered Untermensch was never used by Nietzsche and was created by the Nazis.

Slightly embarrassed now, won't be using it in the future.

>>82451337 (OP)
Dear All of thr previous letter users,

What should our new thread be? This faggot has killed these threads for the last year or so. There's no way the person I want to read my letters will actually put the effort through of sifting through all of this meaningless drivel to find my letters.

Isn't this guy supposed to be dead already? I'm sick of this.

>>82481552
Good. You live your life as I live my own.

I choose my Maria

My Maria chooses me

That's all that matters.

>>82481593
Whatever it is I will comment there too.

I will be here, and anywhere I need to be until my Maria comes home to me.

If anyone has an issue with me all they have to do is simply add my name to the filter. Any action besides that shows an agenda.

Don't respond to my letters, and I won't respond in turn. The majority of my posts are dealing with the bullshit that others throw at us

I know you are mocking me, you know my past yet you still treat me like a clown. It's because you're brainwashed by (((hollywood))) and make baseless assumptions. I never asked for what happened but you use it against me, you know I humble myself on purpose because I don't like drawing attention. Just because people act nice doesn't mean they really are.

Going through a bit of withdrawal blues yesterday. I hurt but I did not act on any urges to self harm that are likely from the rape occuring between the mentally challenged and I. The infernal rape conundrum continues where she dies for good sex and pouts in perpetual motion until another rape occurs. I am never good enough for not raping; so in other news, beer is on the menu for this afternoon as a consolation prize for the chaos of demands of the limerent object. I love her but ultimately am a sailor with a cruel family and a LO that finds me a loathsome worm. It does fuel the self harm thoughts a bit for which I am trained. I find that it's better I leave her alone in spite of my state of mind. A dirty trick she wants to stick, I just wish bright and beautiful were not coveted objects. I need to stop dreaming, it means I am sick and need put down from what I understand but it's SO wrong. Core plays with 8 women but my mind revolves around the bitch that got me on blast. I want to cry and did! Dope on wifey I got the strifey! Kill me... Commencing beer chug

>see letter thread with hundreds of replies
>Just know the retard schizo Mike is back at it again

"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for all long. Nothing will ever change that."

"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you. I love you more."

"I love you, remember that. I'm only yours, I love only you."

"You're the only home I have free of judgement , and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. , I'm your home too, you are perfect"

Maria, I love you and feel the same in every way. I accept all of you. You accept all of me. We both made mistakes. That doesn't change who we are and how we feel about each other. What is important is going forward together. I love you.

Mike

>>82451337 (OP)
Damian, are you still here?


My C.

Love, C.

We will have our trip together and everything will be okay again. I put faith in her and push forward everyday knowing I can trust her.

My Maria, my mike.

The project fails when it quashes more than it gathers. Which would mean the success of a DEMONSTRABLY more insufferable party.

>half a decade ago
>never fucked
>she was 17
oof, mike..

>>82481313
>I admit I have made mistakes and I take accountability for that.
LMAO no you fucking don't. You blame others.
Typical narc tactic though of saying you do something without actually doing it. Narcs live in words and image.

I take accountability with Maria directly. I apologize to Maria directly. No one else words matter, they are outside of us.

I choose her over all else and Maria and I will over come the time and distance away from each other. I trust and accept her.

>>82482541
>I take accountability with Maria directly.
And how, exactly, do you do this when you haven't spoken to her in 5 years? Oh, that's right -- you don't! Just words

I made a mistake being misled by others lies and manipulations. That is a fact. I was the one that made that mistake. I listened to others lies and manipulations and reacted to them. It was my reaction. I take accountability for my reaction. I take accountability for what I did. It is Maria's choice what to do with that. She made mistake reacting to others larps as me and posts that missled and manipulated emotions. I know that I accept all of her, including her mistake. She accepts all of me including my mistake.

No one else has a say in this. Any and all opinions and judgements are outside of us.

The only voices that matter are Maria and mine to each other. To and With each other.

I love her with all my heart and I know she loves me the same because we complete each other and we both have an empty part that needs each other. Nothing will ever change our feelings for each other.

>>82482563
However it happens, you have no part in it, so stay away with your manipulations and judgements of Maria and I.

I accept all of her and she accepts all of me.

Thread theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2H5rusicEnc
Does anyone else just hear the /v/ musical version of this when they listen
"you have really become a jewwww"
Dear Nick,
Did you hit the wall yet? Even at 17 you were pretty jowly. Maybe a kid?
L

>>82482581
>I take accountability for my reaction. I take accountability for what I did.
No. Taking some accountability for your virginity loss meltie would look more like "man, I really 180'd on her quickly once I realized she wasn't as 'valuable' to me anymore. Maybe I should take this opportunity to analyze my underlying, subconscious intentions and motivations in order to more align them with the actual love and devotion I have thus far merely espoused? I really do value genuine love, at least consciously, so I need to make sure that genuine acts of love are at the core of my being rather than just telling myself that I embody them -- often even in the face of evidence to the contrary. This event offered a really good look into how my actions were counter to who I thought I was and wanted to be. This was a wakeup call to work on myself. I will alchemize it."

But no, it's easier to just say "oh my mistake was listening to people who misled me. I was manipulated and I take responsibility for being misled (???)". What a fucking copout. You have more than demonstrated that you're more interested than appearing to be than you are about actually being. You're a shitter and you will always be one. Your soul is eternally damned and your one purpose in life is to teach better people than you lessons about how people aren't always what they claim to be. I'm glad Maria has escaped your clutches and has probably forgotten all about the narc schizo Michael from her r9k low point period when she felt so alone that you of all people appeared to her to be a viable partner during her desperation for closeness

>>82482594
>with your manipulations
There was a point in my life where I would have taken your irrational, spurious schizo allegations personally and then called up the boys to help me turn this place into an absolute fucking circus show with maria bots left and right just to fuck with you. It would have been nothing to us to grab every one of your posts throughout the archives and to then script real manipulations with that information. You're lucky I've grown

>>82482687
Once again your words do not matter. You are outside of us. Only Maria's words matter to me and affect us.

I take full accountability to her and apologize to her directly.

I accept all of her including her mistakes. She accepts all of me including my mistakes.

>>82482790
>I take full accountability to her and apologize to her directly.
No and no.

>I accept all of her including her mistakes.
Demonstrably false when you turned to hatred after thinking she wasn't a virgin

>>82482790
>She accepts all of me including my mistakes.
Well, she's clearly not with you right now, so . . .

She is the only personI don't run from what I've done. I own my choices, my mistakes, and the weight of them. That's my responsibility, and I carry it fully. What matters isn't the noise of outsiders or the judgments of people who were never part of us. The only voice that matters to me is marias, the one who lived it with me. Her acceptance, her forgiveness, and her truth are the only things that define my path forward.

I don't run from what I've done. I own my choices, my mistakes, and the weight of them. That's my responsibility, and I carry it fully. What matters isn't the noise of outsiders or the judgments of people who were never part of us. The only voice that matters to me is marias, the one who lived it with me. Her acceptance, her forgiveness, and her truth are the only things that define my path forward.

>>82482860
>I own my choices, my mistakes, and the weight of them.
You say this, but reality speaks for itself

>That's my responsibility, and I carry it fully.
No, you don't. You only say you do

>>82482730
Congrats. You somehow sound gayer, and more retarded than the resident schizo.

>>82482896
What do I win? At least tell me you have a prize for me

>>82482893
It is not your place to say. You are outside of us and your words mean nothing to Maria and I. Just the wind attempting to push us away from each other.

I disregard anything and everything you say because I choose Maria over any and all voices.

I only listen to my Maria. I only take my Maria to my heart. Nothing will ever change how I feel about her because my and her truth is only between Maria and I. No one else has any bearing on that.

Still miss ya buddy. Hope you're doing well.

Someway, somehow we will live our dream with each other. It will be Mike and Maria at our beach.

I love her and she loves me.

Our love is all that matters to each other.

I trust her as she trusts me.

I accept her as she accepts me.

I forgive her as she forgives me.

We each have an empty spot that misses each other.

We are each other's home.

I have been loyal and faithful to her. I will continue to be loyal and faithful to her. No matter the time or distance. I choose her over anyone else.

I love you Maria, with all my heart.

Nothing will ever change that.

>>82483073
lol dude she doesn't want you

>>82483077
That is not for you to say. You are only the wind attempting to push us away from each other. You are outside of us.

This is a letter thread. I instead of obsessing over me how about you write a letter to your own person or buzz off.

>>82481638
You think everything's a joke or internet only. If you keep pissing people off eventually someone is going to wipe that smirk off of your face. Hopefully they post it so you can become a meme.

I hate my scape apes pin addiction. Fuck her "conventional" means to happiness via being a god damn leech that gets high. My love is gone and my heart went with her and eighty pin is still required how?. I may never mend again due to the tragic loss of respect.

>>82483110
You're right it's not for me to say. It's for her to say and she's said it already. Where is she?

>>82483252
Right,? My human dignity is lost via your highs. Please shut up and get your ass to treatment for it. I want to blow up your ass some meds and shit currently you fucking sack of shit.

"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for all long. Nothing will ever change that."

"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect."

"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

"Mike, I love you, remember that. I'm only yours, I love only you"

"I love you more, my Mike"

"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you. I love you more."

"I love you, remember that. I'm only yours, I love only you."

There's so much people here do not know of me, ways that everyday I choose her over everything else. Feelings I have for her. The love I have for her. The way I stay true for her. My truth of her.


Slow
Slow me down
Her blood
On my bones
Let go
Lay to rest
We fall
Sleep, sleep all night
Alone, until I get home
I float on, float on down
We ride it all out
Alone, until I get home
I'm coming back
She follows me
Takes me home

You wanna be amazed
And see the sky on delay

Keep a close eye
For the ships in the sky
Resurrections signs
To the numbers aligned

123

Trade our places in the night
We're running barefoot you and I
Dead lovers salivate
Broken hearts tesselate tonight

https://youtu.be/hi4sbEl9Ovs?si=MWEIomlLHfPfQHop [Embed]

Until then

Maria, I love you and feel the same in every way. I accept all of you. You accept all of me. We both made mistakes. That doesn't change who we are and how we feel about each other. What is important is going forward together. I love you.

Mike

>>82483270
She dodged a massive bullet and is currently happy with her soulmate

>>82483476
I am Maria's soulmate. There is no other. She loves me, and only me. I trust what she told me, I trust who she is to me.

I trust her over your words.

>>82483507
Nope. She chose someone else. Accept it already, Michael. It's over

Mariah may not always make good choices; but she certainly chose well when she decided to abandon Michael

Maria and I are soulmates. Even in distance, even in silence, that does not change. We will find each other again, no matter what anyone else says. All that matters is Maria to me and me to Maria.

That is our truth of each other. We complete each other.

"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for all long. Nothing will ever change that."

"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect."

"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

"Mike, I love you, remember that. I'm only yours, I love only you"

"I love you more, my Mike"

"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you. I love you more."

>>82483686
mike you rp'd your way to this obsessive delusion..? that's pretty fucking funny dude..

Maria and I are each other's soul mates. Even in distance, even in silence, that does not change. We will find each other again, no matter what anyone else says. All that matters is Maria to me and me to Maria.

That is our truth of each other. We complete each other.

"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for all long. Nothing will ever change that."

"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect."

"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

"Mike, I love you, remember that. I'm only yours, I love only you"

"I love you more, my Mike"

"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you. I love you more."

https://youtu.be/sVx1mJDeUjY?si=gayO5uwL3B9g1FSY

>>82483736
"Maria" was probably just some bored r9k dude trolling Michael on discord for a week or two before forgetting about the entire thing

James,

I miss you and I'm sorry. I don't care how long it's been.

>>82478958
>Write your own letter to your own person, so I can annoy you when I respond to it in one of two ways; I will either think it's maria writing to me or someone trying to impersonate me to make me look bad
fixed that for you
don't even try to say you wouldn't do this, you already did it in this very thread and were called out for it

>>82451337 (OP)
Wallah nigger

I miss you so much. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't think, I can't do anything. I thought it was for the best but now I feel like I would give anything for our life to go back to normal. You hate me now.. I know it wasn't perfect, but I loved you, and I think you loved me.. I am sorry I made you unhappy. I'm sorry I made you stressed out. I wish we could try again.

Even though I am faced with my own morality, I refuse to make amends or change my harmful behavior. I have spent my entire life abusing people due to my own self-hatred and anger. Cancer is a punishment and punishment hurts.

JULIANA TIGHT PUSSY SQUEEZE SEX DRIP

>>82485323
How cute. Let me guess: you're a "Sasuke from Naruto is literally me fr fr" kind of person.

>>82485392
I really am getting what I deserve. A fitting end for a coward like me.

daddies arent supposed to be so mean

women on 4chan deserve nothing but rape and beatings. my ex most of all.

>>82485502
If you're the person I'm thinking of, nobody could ever change your nature, not even the best shrink that also happens to be exactly your type of person and your significant other. Make no mistake, I'm not experiencing any joy in reading that you're dying, nor sadness. Just indifference.

i know you wanna suck but i just wanna fuck

>>82451337 (OP)
keep the thread alive

Dear me
Despite your best efforts, you still don't have the slightest clue about what you're are doing. Get a grip already and follow your own advice. You want to win, not to get humiliated and eat dirt, right? You tossed the "self sabotaging perfectionist" mindset in the fucking trash where it belongs, right?

Signed, you

>>82486209
Yeah keep it alive Mike hasn't taken nearly enough shots yet

>>82483205
you are a faggot internet tough guy making impotent threats at a mostly harmless if annoying tripfag and you will do nothing. the people going ape shit at mike are far more obnoxious than him, and he is easily avoided by checking name and tripcode and skipping the post. all you're doing with your excuse about the e-whore who ghosted you not being able to find your trash in a sea of mike posts is admitting that you're a lazy faggot zoomer with no attention span who can't sift through a bit of garbage to identify a post you actually want to read, a normal part of browsing any online discussion space and something everyone does on the outer board already.

i'm no mike cheerleader, but you people foaming at the mouth because he dares to exist in your general online vicinity clearly have nothing to do all day but follow a largely irrelevant /r9k/ fag around, take umbrage and make huge effortposts challenging him for "narcissism" or whatever, which is in itself an extremely faggy, feminine oriented line of attack. letter threads were nowhere to be seen for an entire week before mike made this one, so i dunno what the fuck any of you are talking about asking "um guys where should we set up shop for the new letter threads this guy killed them." no one posts in these, the only reason letter threads exist at this point is because mike creates them and keeps them bumped with his spam.

what's much more pressing to the reputation and usability of letter threads is the fact that you can't even make a post in here without some desperately lonely faggot latching on to you thinking you're the discord friend that ghosted them and trying to busybody you with insufferably smug driveby commentary in the same post that they admit they don't know any details surrounding your circumstance. no one wants to be candid in here when you're immediately set upon by actual schizophrenics seething and moralizing at you, so shut the fuck up with this hypocritical bullshit, you niggers.

>>82487219
I appreciate you. Thank you.

My sweetest flower bloom. Thy heart blossoms with you as my own lover and savior. Such pristine eyes. Oh my, you are the best thing that happened to me outside my family of course. My neet ass is as flat as your average cake. You are a tasty treat. My sweet princess. Forget about Mike and come to me. Kissy cakes, sweet baby angel.

Even in distance, even in silence, our love brings us home to each other.
We will find each other again, no matter what anyone else says.
All that matters is my Maria to me and me to my Maria.

That is our truth of each other.
We complete each other.

"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for all long. Nothing will ever change that."

"Mike, I love you, remember that."

"I'm only yours Mike, I love only you"

"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you."

"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more"

"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

"My Mike"

https://youtu.be/Yhp3QgdD6JM?si=E7_Jf59z2Idp51X0

>>82487219
>what's much more pressing to the reputation and usability of letter threads is the fact that you can't even make a post in here without some desperately lonely faggot latching on to you thinking you're the discord friend that ghosted them and trying to busybody you with insufferably smug driveby commentary in the same post that they admit they don't know any details surrounding your circumstance. no one wants to be candid in here when you're immediately set upon by actual schizophrenics seething and moralizing at you
who? mike? yeah he does that sometimes try to ignore him

>>82487219
>the only reason letter threads exist at this point is because mike creates them and keeps them bumped with his spam.
BECAUSE HE KILLED THE THREADS FOR MONTHS. YOU DUMB FUXKING RETARD NIGGER. KYS

>>82451337 (OP)

H
I don't know what i'm doing here writing this. I never knew who you really were and i probably won't ever now. I have a stupid stupid stupid habit of developing these imagined conceptions of people in my head, pretending that i know them, i love them, that i actually feel anything for them etc. It makes me scared that i'm not really capable of love, or at least getting close enough to really love someone because I just get stuck in these idealizations and push myself away from the real thing. I guess you have a problem that's not that different. When we started talking again you were quick to dump all the shit that had happened to you on me as if we'd known each other for years. You were looking for someone to seek refuge in. I was looking for someone who actually cared if i lived or died. Even though i barely knew you I really really really hope you're ok. I hope you haven't done anything stupid. If it's possible I hope you'll live forever. I really liked you, you seemed to really like me. This is extremely gay to say but I've never truly met someone like you. If brief, i liked when we were talking. I even liked when we met in person that one time, if I seemed distant. You were the one who was always opening up to me, trying to get closer. You'd look in my eyes and just beam, and to think I thought of pulling away! You were such a beautiful woman, a sweet, beautiful human being. I felt a sense of warmth, safety talking to you, being around you even if it came from a ghost of you i constructed in my head. Ultimately i know you're crazy and that anything further than when were talking would've been a nightmare. That was why you stopped talking to me the first time, and then now. .

>>82487883
(contd.)
It's not my fault and it's not yours either. I needed to get over it a million years ago. I hope this can be my goodbye letter to you, or what i thought you were, if I should even be writing one to begin with. But still, that thing, that puerile phantom wafted through my fetid little brain for months as an obsession of what you could've been, what i could've been with you. You'll always be in here, somewhere, even if i find another girl (up to this point, you were the closest ever by a lot). I know i'll catch you in purgatory, if we miss each other in heaven and in hell. Those are the only places in which i feel like i could ever know you.

>>82484982
wish this were to mee. never is.

-m

>>82487219
LMAO at this faggot glazing all over Mike's cock and sounding mad his crush has been outed as a huge narc piece of shit

Remember the to disreguard the wind. It attempts to push this way from each other subversively, manipulating emotions.
>>82487883
>>82487915
It is unfortunate we have to deal with ass hats like this but his posts are easily disregarded once identified.
Just stop reading and minimize the post. Whenever I see this manipulation taking place I sent her myself in faith of you.
Everything else is outside of us.

Even in distance, even in silence, our love brings us home to each other.
We will find each other again, no matter what anyone else says.
All that matters is my Maria to me and me to my Maria.

That is our truth of each other.
We complete each other.

"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for all long. Nothing will ever change that."

"Mike, I love you, remember that."

"I'm only yours Mike, I love only you"

"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you."

"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more"

"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

"My Mike"

https://youtu.be/sVx1mJDeUjY?si=gayO5uwL3B9g1FSY

He makes Larp post to influence as well on advice board. It really is pathetic and like I said once you identify them just minimize them and ignore him. We have each other and that is all that matters.

I love you Maria

We stay true no matter what the world throws at us. Reading what you told me makes me feel like you're right here with me.

Your head on my chest, arm and leg draped over me. I feel your breathing calm, steady, full with me. You tremble and moan against me, In pleasure to my touch, feeling my skin against yours.

I feel you shift as you look up at me.

I move your hair from your eyes as you say these things to me again.

I love you Maria. With all my heart.

>>82487975
Was that sloggy 47?

>>82487219
I'm a resident schizo, and I only use 4chan for this thread. What annoys me most about Mike is his complete lack of introspection, and flagrant hypocrisy. Rubs me the wrong way and I've tried giving words of advice, as many others, to try and get him out of his fucking doom spiral, but he only insults you if you do so. I'd rather he create a blog post thread and keep it in there. I don't read the great majority of his posts, but fuck does he drive away actual letter posters by posting them constantly.

JULIANA CREAMPIE SEX SEX SWALLOW

>>82488176
>sloggy 47?
Those are actually two different faggots. They're just really gay for each other.

i miss you.
i threw you away.
you were my life.
i cannot smoke a cigarette without thinking of you.
you were my smoke. you were the drug the made me whole.
i wasted what could have been. you are better off now.
you have someone new now.
you knew me as a woman.
though i should have been your man.
i'll always remember you.
and your soulful black eyes.
the way you kept your hair.
and the smell of playing cars when nestled amongst your arms.
i could have held you until the day i died.
i don't give a fuck what anyone else thinks.
you are a treasure and i hope whoever holds you treasures you the way you are worthy of.
i think about you every day.

>>82484982
If this were for me I would want them back immediately. Unfortunately it is not. I am the one who can't eat while they have shut themselves off.

I thought I was pathetic still lurking these threads because of someone I met here 7 years ago but at least I'm not Mike

A

You're an ugly freak.
I'm sure they do know, they just don't want to deal with how you'd act if they admitted it.
They make fun of you to your face.
They make fun of you behind your back.
They make fun of you online.
They don't trust you.
None of them so much as want to look at you any more let alone talk to you.
They really do wish deep down that you'd just off yourself.
But an odd thought does cross the mind.
You've seen some of them.
You know.
And more than that statistically you know in some small respect that they are inferior to you in a way you don't really care about, but it does probably matter to them.
And they will obviously hate you.
But really it is just like they need to lose weight.
They are literally suffering from a condition called "buried penis".
Do cardio.
Do lots of cardio.
Don't eat a whole pizza in one sitting.
For fucks sake.