i miss you.
i threw you away.
you were my life.
i cannot smoke a cigarette without thinking of you.
you were my smoke. you were the drug the made me whole.
i wasted what could have been. you are better off now.
you have someone new now.
you knew me as a woman.
though i should have been your man.
i'll always remember you.
and your soulful black eyes.
the way you kept your hair.
and the smell of playing cars when nestled amongst your arms.
i could have held you until the day i died.
i don't give a fuck what anyone else thinks.
you are a treasure and i hope whoever holds you treasures you the way you are worthy of.
i think about you every day.